Chapter 227 – How to Be Forgiven
Hours after leaving Selena alone and returning to her room.
In the meantime, she worked as a butler and had dinner with other people in the mansion, but Selena never came out of her room, let alone contacted her.
… Did I just talk about the novel?
It was an action I made based on the judgment that it was absolutely necessary, but there is no guarantee that my decision will always be right.
However, he soon shook his head.
Even when she overheard what she was talking to Selena on the phone with Michelle, there seemed to be no particular problem.
… It will be fine.
Trying to shake off my worries, I looked at the time and it was past twelve at night.
Thinking that it might be because I was asleep and not contacting you, the moment I tried to turn off the light in my room, thinking about it.
Smart.
The sound of someone knocking.
Standing on the other side of the door I opened was the girl I hadn’t heard from.
“Selena?”
“…Ha, I have something to tell you.”
He said he would get better if he took a little rest, but his expression was dark as if he hadn’t rested at all.
Once in the room, he asked cautiously.
“What are you talking about?”
Selena, who still looked uneasy at my question, plucked up the courage to part her lips.
“I heard from Miss Michelle today. About you and Ryan…”
“Yes.”
“Thanks to that, I was able to accept the truth… And my feelings for you grew.”
When she said that, her cheeks turned red like a little girl’s.
“So, I thought that I wanted to stay with you as before… I wanted to be closer than now.”
I didn’t seem to be in the mood to simply come to her, so I silently looked at her as a sign that she was listening.
“To do that, I have something I need to confess to you honestly and ask for your forgiveness. That’s why I’m here.”
After her moment of hesitation, she lowered her gaze to the ground and struggled to part her lips again.
“When I first said I liked you, I lied to seduce you. I thought I’d find out your weakness and report you…”
“Is it really?”
“Ha, but not now! I love you with all my heart. Like I said, I’m here to ask for your forgiveness. I’m so sorry I cheated on you!”
As I stared at her with her head lowered in silence, her pitiful voice continued.
“You must be very disappointed and feel betrayed… But I mean it. I sincerely want to ask you for forgiveness.”
Now I can understand her heavy atmosphere.
Like what I just said, I could feel the sincerity in everything I saw in my expression, actions, and voice.
… You’ve come to really love me
Revealing your hidden plans means that your affection for me has grown.
It means that she puts me first over the things she has always tried to protect, such as her butler and mother.
And i
… Has the time come?
I sensed that the time I had been waiting for had arrived.
As much as your affection towards me has grown, the moment when the shock when you face the truth is the greatest.
Now it makes her bitterly regret what she did in her past.
By the way.
… It’s not as exciting as I thought.
Even ahead of the long-awaited moment, he is strangely calm.
I know why.
Because her revenge on Selena weighed less than before.
The pure vengeful spirit within her was tempered by Dania and Angela, and was relieved little by little as she trained her.
That doesn’t mean I’ll stop taking revenge.
No matter how light it gets, it’s not like the root of the grudge that went to the brink of death was pulled out.
To get rid of it, Selena must reveal her truth.
Anyone who sees it may ask this question.
While acting on her pretending to love her with all her heart, she wondered if her heart didn’t waver in the slightest.
To be honest, I was shaken.
Selena, who fell in love with her, was beautiful in her appearance, and she also wants to keep seeing it.
Therefore, it might be okay to forgive her as it is and become her normal lover.
But can I love Selena with all her heart without any hesitation?
When I still deal with her, the memories of her day and the shell of her vengeful spirit nestled inside her give me unknown discomfort?
So, I haven’t decided yet how to continue my relationship in the future.
Will she just keep her by her side so she doesn’t threaten her, or will she truly love her?
What was certain was that no matter which way I went, I had to get rid of this discomfort.
“Selena. You said you were apologizing because you wanted to be closer to me, right?”
“…Right.”
“Even if I did that bad thing to you in the past?”
“…Yes.”
“Are you going to forgive everything you did to Dania and Angela?”
“Yes. The two of them are happy in the end…”
She has already forgiven everything about me in her.
Unfortunately, I still haven’t forgiven her.
“Yes. But is that all you have to apologize for?”
“…Yes?”
“A school trial from the past.”
“That, that’s…”
Selena’s eyes twitch.
He looked more obviously agitated than before when he was asking for my forgiveness.
“I knew the truth. It wasn’t an accident, it was an intentional frame-up by fabricating evidence.”
“Ah…!”
As her balloon deflated, she fell to the floor and cried out.
“I’m sorry! I didn’t know you were going to die at the time! It’s true, believe me!”
“You haven’t apologized once since then, have you?”
“It’s definitely my fault for being quiet all this time. I’m really sorry. But I’ve been thinking about it several times since I got close to you. It’s real!”
Even in an urgent voice, he deliberately answered calmly.
“Still, it’s still the same that I stayed quiet in the end.”
“I did it because I was afraid! It was my fault that I was cheating on you already, but I didn’t think I would ever be forgiven if I said that. I’m really sorry! Really, really…”
Crying sounds are heard behind the blurred words.
I can feel her sincerity in the way she, who was proud of her self-esteem, knelt down in front of me without hesitation and begged for forgiveness, but the root of my resentment still remained.
“I understand what you mean. Actually, I’ve been trying to understand you in the past. I’ve tried to forgive you in my heart. But it just didn’t work. I almost died then.”
“I-Ian…”
“That’s why I seduced you too. With the intention of getting revenge on you.”
“Yeah? What is that…”
“I tricked you into making you regret it.”
She, who was lying on her stomach, raises her head.
Water droplets formed around her eyes, which had already drawn tear paths.
“Then, everything you’ve seen so far… Has been fake?”
“…”
“That, there’s no way… Lian is Ian… The teacher said that’s what Ian really is…”
She muttered as if possessed by her ghost.
The dangerously trembling body looks as if it will collapse like a doll whose strings have been cut.
“My feelings for Dania and Angela are all sincere. Even the way I showed you… We would have been sincere if nothing had happened.”
I don’t even know why I said this myself.
Was it because she had a grudge against me and was concerned that her death crisis would continue, or did she want to give me a little space.
“So… You don’t love me now…? I… I love you with all my heart.”
“I’m sorry, but I can’t help it because when I see you, I keep coming back to memories of that time.”
Did it feel like my firmness had pierced my heart like a knife?
She froze for a moment, then burst into tears and sobbed in her pain.
“Ugh, ugh… What should I do…”
“…”
“It’s so… So painful. It’s like my heart is breaking…!”
Selena, crawling on the hard floor, clung to my leg.
“I was wrong! I beg you, please forgive me! I feel like I’m going to die of pain because I think you don’t love me…! Aaaaa!”
“…”
“I’m regretting it! I regret trying to deceive you, slandering you, and treating you coldly in the past to the point of death!”
You hold on to my legs that I can’t even run away from.
However, her thin fingers trembled as if her strength was not working.
“I won’t do it again, please forgive me! I’ll do anything so please love me!”
Are you sincere in saying that you will do anything?
It seems like that when you see the sound of crying filling the room.
However, I had to personally confirm Selena’s sincerity.
In this situation, not only her relationship with her is at stake, but also her life.
“…Really would you do anything? Even if I told you to die?”
“I’m going to die! If that makes you feel at ease…! It’s better to die than to be hated by you! I still feel like I’m going to die…!”
The man who once despised me to death is now saying he will die for me.
Crying and screaming
Regretting her own past.
Seeing that, I felt complicated.
Her relief that she finally made her pay the price, and the sadness she felt from her despair.
Those feelings couldn’t suppress the other, and they were disturbing my heart.
… What do I want to do
I knew that if I took revenge on her, her feelings would become clearer.
Will she shake off the remnants of her past and become her true lover with her, or will she forget her discomfort and keep her distance.
But still haven’t made a decision.
Without being able to affectionately embrace Selena who was clinging to me, nor to be ruthlessly dismissed.
So she pondered and came up with a method.
… Let’s leave her to her.
Give me a chance to completely eradicate the root of resentment in my heart and give her a chance to open up to me.
Still, if I can’t truly love her, then let’s accept her situation.
Having made up my mind, I said to Selena, who was still crying.
“If you really want to be forgiven by me… If you truly love me, conceive my child.”
“Pregnant…?”
She nodded her head with her serious face at her surprised question.
“Show your love for me by having my child.”
“Yes, I will! I will have your child!”
Selena, who answered without hesitation, continued her words.
“Then… When I am pregnant with your child, will you love me like before?”
“…That’s not right.”
“Yes?”
“Instead, I’ll forget everything you did. I’ll start over. From the beginning, with no good feelings or bad feelings. If you want, you can go there and make me truly love you.”
No matter how much you love me, it’s a difficult condition to easily understand.
But the answer came back quickly.
“…Like.”
“Are you okay? Even if I don’t hate you, I might not love you.”
“It’s okay. If that’s the only way to be forgiven… Even if I can’t connect with you, the child I received from you will remain…”
I see You are so sincere to me
Then, without hesitation, I should allow you to show that sincerity to me.
“Yeah, but what if I don’t get pregnant right away? Maybe it’s the end without being forgiven…”
“Don’t worry. You will definitely get pregnant tonight.”
“How….”
Selena, not understanding what I was saying, belatedly recalled something about her and said.
“The vulva… Is it?”
“Yes, that’s right.”
The vulva has the power to impregnate the person who carved it.
Selena knows that, and that’s one of the reasons she hasn’t disobeyed me until now.
After tonight, you’ll find out that it’s a lie, and that the vagina has no effect.
But now that there was no longer any need to threaten Selena with a vulva, it meant nothing.
After a while, the two of us were sitting naked on the bed.
“I’ll do it.”
“…Yes.”
Nodding, she brought her hand to Selena’s belly, her nervousness swallowing her saliva.
The docile acceptance of vulgarity, which in the past was regarded as binding on her own friend and her mother.
Then the light from her hand moved, and a pattern in the shape of her womb appeared on her body.
“This, this…”
Her expression looking down at her belly is subtle.
It deserves it.
Something happened to her body, but she wouldn’t feel anything.
“Unless I do something, I won’t feel anything special.”
“Okay….”
After getting ready, I approached Selena.
There were still traces of tears in her eyes, which were strained with tension.
“Are you okay? You’re really going to conceive my child.”
“If it’s to be forgiven by you…”
He spreads her legs as if to say that he has long since made up her mind.
Knowing how ecstatic it was on the inside, my groin immediately became tight.
“…”
The eyes that look at me are full of sorrow wanting affection and forgiveness.
It reminds me of the time when I gently mixed her body, but I struggled to shake off the memory.
To feel her sincerity.
In order to forgive her and start anew by doing so, I have to commit to getting her really pregnant as much as she is now.
“Selena.”
Bring her cock slowly towards her pussy
Perhaps because of the anticipation of having my own child, the closed labia were wet.
“Since it’s sex only for pregnancy, it won’t be as sweet as before.”
“…Yes.”
As she was, she moved her waist forward, and the hardened glans was wedged between her labia.
