40. Leading, Leading (6)
After confessing a rather embarrassing story, Judas looked at the other person and flinched.
‘… For a moment. Could it be this person?’
An opponent recognizable only by his black hair.
Its shape shakes violently.
‘Oona… ?’
So is the sound.
It’s like a sobbing breath.
‘That, is it such a sad story… ?’
Not just sobbing, but crying quite sadly.
“Hey…. Are you okay?”
The opponent nodded.
I was going to ask for your name today, but I was wrong in this situation.
Elijah, barely composure, asked.
“Could you guess who that person is….”
She tried to ask if she remembered, but she couldn’t speak because she was overcome with sadness.
I feel sad and sorry for him who couldn’t let go of his lingering feelings until the last moment.
I shouldn’t have said that then.
I thought I should have thought about it a little more before deciding.
On the other hand, expectations have also sprouted.
Maybe he remembers himself because he waited this far and missed that time again.
That expectation collapsed with the next answer.
“That’s a bit….”
As for Judas, he was not allowed to reveal the name of his former master.
Even though he’s kicked out now.
Of course, Elijah and herself are famous, so it’s easy to find out if you want to find out.
However, it was difficult to mention the former owner’s name with his own mouth.
Elijah understood that answer to mean that she did not remember.
“Ugh…. Uh uh… !”
My heart hurts.
The spreading pain gripped her whole body.
On the one hand, it was unfair.
I miss the place I want to go back to, but I can’t remember who it is.
Even the culprit is right next to me like this.
I want to reach you.
The opponent was like that too.
However, it cannot be reached, and must not be reached.
I bit her lip until it bled.
I had to hold back my tears.
I am just an ordinary wizard.
It is so strange to cry so sadly.
I wonder if Judas will recall his memories when he sees himself crying like this.
There was no possibility in the hopeful imagination.
Looking at her, her bewildered Judas wanted to vent her mood.
“That, um…. I didn’t know you were so sensitive. If I had known, I would have said it more lightly.”
Suddenly, Elijah stopped crying.
Evaluation of rich sensitivity.
I am hearing this for the first time in my life.
She never even thought of it herself.
He has a personality that laughs and cries easily.
It is a figure far from himself.
However, in front of Judas, he became like this.
He laughs and cries easily.
She has a hard time controlling her emotions when she is with him.
It was only after meeting Yuda that I realized that I had this kind of side.
The precious realization had no value.
In the end, without him, this realization and herself were useless by-products.
It wasn’t that his words had no effect.
Thanks to the sudden feeling of great emptiness, Elijah was able to stop her weeping.
She replied with a weak smile.
“I will. I also found out today that I am this kind of person.”
In the end, I couldn’t tell him that he was the owner you should return to.
If you tell someone who doesn’t remember, he will only hurt himself more.
As long as it hurts and can be done, I can be sick for him.
If that’s pointless, he didn’t want to be sick.
I already had enough pain, so it was overflowing.
To the point where I thought it would be more comfortable to just die if there was still such a painful life.
The reason for not doing so was thanks to Judas in front.
***
‘… Uh?’
I opened my eyes.
What you see is the familiar ceiling.
This is my room.
So, the bedroom of my house in Jericho.
‘Oh, what is it?’
My eyesight is back.
It looks clear and not blurry.
Color, distinction between objects, everything is clear.
I didn’t know that being able to see the world straight was such a comfortable and beautiful thing.
‘I realize everything in my life.’
It was only the first two days that I couldn’t see at all.
After that, I gradually recovered and adapted to a level that was a bit of a hindrance to my daily life.
But definitely, there is a big difference between seeing the front clearly and not seeing it.
‘My hearing has also returned.’
It’s always like listening underwater, but it’s clear.
The sound of breathing, the noise of life, the sound of birds outside.
‘That person…. It looks like you’re by my side today too.’
Besides my own breathing, other people’s breathing.
Now I’m used to it.
Stay by my side every time.
Whether I’m sleeping or not.
‘Isn’t it inconvenient?’
I can see it again today when I raise my head.
The top of the head with rich, curly black hair.
I sleep in a very uncomfortable position, lying face down on a bed while sitting in a chair.
Even though I’ve said many times that there’s no need to do this, he’s quite stubborn.
‘… Looking at it today, isn’t it similar to Elijah? This head.’
Even the red scarf is the same.
Clothes…. Little….
She rustled.
If I wake up, they notice it like a ghost and wake up together.
He is a very strange person.
Why did you take care of me so carefully?
She slowly raised her head.
It’s the first time I see your face.
How would you react if I told you that your eyesight was back?
For some reason, I was excited and nervous again.
‘But that doll I was sleeping on….’
A black cat doll.
Surely I gave it to Elijah….
“… ….”
They made eye contact.
Red eyes.
Eyes raised like a cat.
A tear mark under the right eye.
Slightly thinner than I remember, with dark eyes like a tired man and his hair fussing around gives off a strangely decadent air, but this guy is definitely….
“… Miss Elijah?”
It was the Elijah I knew.
‘No way, the person who took care of me all along… ?’
This is nonsense.
Elijah must be at war.
How did Elijah find me in the first place?
Why?
“… ….”
Elijah blinked her eyes slowly.
I pinch her own face with her hand.
Do you think it’s a dream?
‘I feel like this is a dream, but why do you….’
Elijah, who was staring at me blindly, jumped into her bed.
“Ugh-!”
I was so shocked that I lay down.
Still, Elijah did not stop.
Get on top of me.
Spreading her legs to trap me, she crawls up to my face.
Even in the midst of it, her body was narrowly untouched.
Only the blanket and Elijah’s clothes rubbed.
“Why, why are you doing this all of a sudden… !”
Elijah put her hand next to my face and looked down at me.
It tickles her long hair.
After she looked at it for a while, she tilted her head like a cat.
“… Judah?”
“Yes, yes…. That’s all, you know why….”
“What did you just say to me?”
“Why are you doing this all of a sudden….”
“Before that.”
“… Miss Elijah?”
“… ….”
Elijah blinked her eyes faster and faster.
Tears began to well up in her red eyes.
Shiny things are just like jewels.
“Judas, I, I…. I remember… ?”
“… Yes?”
The moment the accident stopped.
What are you talking about?
“Do you remember? . What are you talking about?”
“… ?”
Elijah’s expression, which looked like he was about to cry, was colored with doubt in an instant.
Observe my face as if tearing it apart.
“You came back from the dead and suffered short-term memory loss.”
“Yes? Me?”
“You didn’t even remember me….”
“I… did you? When… Did you?”
“… ….”
“… ….”
*
After a long silence and a short conversation, we came to an absurd conclusion.
I sat back by the bed, and Elijah sat in her chair.
“Sure.”
She summarized the conversation she had just had.
“It was just that my vision and hearing were temporarily paralyzed.”
“… Yes.”
“The reason we were able to talk during that time was purely through reasoning.”
“Yes….”
“The reason why they didn’t recognize me was that their senses were dull. And because I can’t be here It was like that.”
“Yes.”
“Therefore, it was just my misunderstanding that I judged that you lost your memory…. I mean.”
“… ….”
I quietly averted my gaze.
I wanted to die because I was embarrassed.
It was Elijah who took care of and protected me from the beginning.
It is nonsense, and sometimes what I imagined arbitrarily became reality.
As far as that goes, let’s say it can be done.
‘Always. Always, it was. Ever since I left, without missing a single day.’
To those who asked if I missed you, this is the answer I gave back yesterday.
It keeps popping up in my head like hallucinations.
‘I want to die….’
Not knowing that the listener was Elijah, she perpetrated the remark.
‘I wish I could pass out like this….’
No such lucky thing happened.
Elijah absentmindedly seemed to be reviewing her just conversation, then she covered her face with her hands.
Then she shrugged her shoulders and sobbed again.
“I’m so glad, I’m so glad…” .”
What does it mean to be fortunate?
I waited a moment for her to calm down, then she asked.
“Was it the lady who saved me?”
“… Huh.”
“How…. Are you looking for me?”
She nodded her head.
“Why did you do that?”
I’m not trying to argue or get angry.
I was genuinely curious.
Elijah hesitated as he looked at me.
“I miss you….”
“… ….”
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While I couldn’t see it, Elijah had changed a lot in many ways.
“I miss you so much….”
I think you’ve become overly honest.
First of all, I decided to listen carefully.
*
Her first remark was shocking.
“First of all, I knew it wasn’t your body.”
“… ….”
Are you a genius?
How did you know?
Elijah is a genius.
Yes, but….
She glances at my expression and whines.
“I just know when I see it. Anything about you.”
“Yeah, I see…” .”
“Anyway, so…. Because of what I said, I know it is, I just…. I tried not to find….”
Elijah’s voice trembled as if he was crying.
She also wipes her face as she cries.
Without realizing it, I raised her hand to wipe away her tears as before.
But when Elijah saw my hand, he was startled and pulled her back behind her.
I was embarrassed and lowered my hand again.
I don’t want to be touched like that….
“Anyway, after that…. Actually I’m not sure. I don’t remember. After declaring war, I was busy running around.”
“I know what you asked me in the middle of this, but is it okay for you to stay like this?”
Elijah is at war now.
She is even the most important force in the Anti-Imperial Alliance.
Contrary to my worries about her, Elijah was calm.
“I have done everything necessary. I even make time to go out in the morning.”
She says not to worry.
It is remarkable that she is thorough in her duties even in the middle of her life.
“I can’t quite remember how she ended up in Jericho. She just came naturally. Strangely enough, it was as if you were leading me…. But really, I got to see you here.”
Gigantic Drake.
When she saw me fighting it and getting eaten, she said, all the vague memories came back to her.
Shortly after, Elijah rescued me by instantly killing her drake and splitting her belly open.
‘… It’s surprising again. It’s possible to kill it in one blow.’
After that, I thought I had lost my memory and stayed by my side until now.
Elijah looked at me and said in a low voice.
Like her timid child, her head is lowered and her fingers wiggled.
“Sorry…. I said something bad…. I shouldn’t have told you that….”
“Then why….”
“I said if you got close to me, I would kill you.”
Elijah explained that she had heard from Epona.
She grew up quickly thanks to absorbing my mana from a young age.
Instead, my body reached its limit.
And at the end, it was said that I would die because I couldn’t handle it.
As proof of that, black soot was forming here and there on my body at the time.
“If I keep you by my side any longer, you will be in danger, so I tried to send you away…. I thought I was going to run away on the way to Bethany. If you tell the truth as it is, you’ll want to stay even if you die, so I decided that I should kick you out like that….”
Surprisingly, that’s the point.
If I had told you in a good way, I would have been stubborn and left it next to you.
Of course, he would have tried to find another way without contacting Elijah.
“Sorry….”
Elijah wept.
“I’m really, really sorry…. What I said back then, I didn’t mean it all…. It is a lie….”
Apologizing doesn’t mean that the words I heard back then didn’t exist.
To say that it is not necessary.
The words that I would rather die.
The expression on Elijah’s face at that time.
The air and smell of the office.
The feeling I felt.
I remember each one.
I looked at Elijah quietly.
While she was gone, how was I?
I looked back at her then and her mind for a moment.
Listen to outside news every day.
I also dreamed often.
There are many more.
Her neck was empty because she didn’t have a necklace, and there were times when she called Elijah in her sleep.
I didn’t have to think about it for long.
It’s so obvious that it makes me laugh out loud.
‘Anyway, since a long time ago, I want you….’
I slowly opened my mouth.
With one question remaining.
“I….”
***
“I mean….”
Levi looked at the papers and nodded his head.
In the papers in his hand, all the information he had investigated so far was clearly organized.
“Batrahem. The village where Elijah lived before coming to his hometown. And the guy named Judas is there….”
Then, could Elijah’s expulsion of Judas have anything to do with this?
Well. Iffy.
Isn’t it right to direct negative emotions in the opposite direction?
‘Or else I don’t know. Maybe he’s an idiot blinded by his emotions.’
Emotions often shake reason.
‘Anyway, a guy named Judas. Is he really dead?’
It is known that way externally.
Elijah sent Judas to Bethany, where he died.
But Levi didn’t believe it.
Elijah’s resting period began a while ago.
It was unusually long.
After fighting as if it didn’t matter if he died soon, all of a sudden?
‘It could be because I’m really tired…. If not.’
Judah was not dead, and Elijah found him.
Lewi guessed so.
If that is true, the usefulness of this information will increase.
This is more meaningful information when the two of them are together and close together.
‘I hope no one but me knows this information….’
Lewi looked out the window of the carriage and struggled.
‘How to use this.’
A fishy smile was drawn on his face before he knew it.
