Chapter 42 – How Ha-Eun Prays
The night after returning from a trip.
It was time to go to sleep, but Jia was lying with her eyes open, staring at the ceiling.
The memories of being with Dohyeon over the weekend kept coming back to her, and it was difficult for her to fall asleep.
“…”
When she was with Dohyeon, Jia was full of things she was doing for the first time.
Sex with a man for the first time, friendly exchanges with a man for the first time, and a solo trip with a man for the first time.
And.
[Don’t worry, Mr. Jia. I will take responsibility.]
[Chae, are you responsible?]
[Yes. So don’t worry.]
Even the sincere confession of a man he has never heard of.
When she was with Do-hyeon, Jia was drawn into the world she had been shunned for so long.
[Are you serious about what you just said? I will be responsible…]
[You can trust me because I am sincere.]
The conversation I had with Dohyeon plays over and over again in my head.
Then, without realizing it, Jia’s face turned red and her mind went blank.
‘Taking responsibility… If I get pregnant, that means you’ll get married right away, right?’
What does it mean for a man to be responsible for a woman?
How would you feel if you entrusted your life to that man?
I never even thought about it before, but now I am endlessly curious.
But rather than her fear of the unknown, she had a feeling of warmth and reassurance.
She is normally kind, but thanks to the trust given by the manly side she often shows.
The feeling of orgasm Jia felt when he pushed her roughly and even cummed inside her was incomparable to any pleasure.
‘I think it’s okay to entrust my life to Mr. Dohyun…’
Of course, I’m not determined to do that.
However, she thought that when the time came, she would naturally give herself up to Do-hyeon.
‘When will that be…’
I didn’t know exactly.
Perhaps that time will come quickly due to pregnancy, or it may be after Jia has been recognized by her mother and has become a person who is not ashamed of others.
‘Somehow, I don’t think I should be doing this.’
Jia, who jumped up, went back to her desk and opened the major book she had covered.
Even if she entrusted her life to Do-hyeon, she couldn’t leave her everything to him alone, so she had to grow even more herself.
‘Let’s watch for two more hours before going to sleep.’
So, without realizing it, Jia stroked her belly and focused on her studies.
—
It’s been a few days since she went on her trip with Jia.
The atmosphere at school would have been relaxed again as the exams were over, but since I was on leave anyway, there was no big change in my daily life.
As for her relationship with Mr. Jia… I don’t know, but it seems that there has been some change.
Needless to say, I like Jia 120009, and she feels that Jia is more conscious of me than before.
In any case, it was a good flow for me, who had no intention of stopping her relationship with her in her simple sex.
By the way.
… Can’t you hear me today?
While writing her stockpile of novels, she went to the gym, lay in bed, and looked at her phone.
From a certain moment on, Ha-eun started to call me at least once a day, and when that happened, I would chat with her so that she wouldn’t feel lonely.
But for some reason, the phone didn’t ring today and it was quiet.
… Shall I walk
I was about to ask for an illustration for a novel anyway.
Thanks to the cover, the average number of daily views increased by about 1.8 times, so I thought to continue this trend.
Help with living expenses for Ha-eun, who does not receive support from her parents.
[The customer’s phone is turned off, so after the ‘beep’ sound, to the voice mail…]
What? The phone is turned off.
It seems that the battery has run out or something is on business.
There was no reason to be impatient because we could talk about it tomorrow anyway.
… How about today?
I went to sleep slowly while thinking about the composition of the illustration I was going to ask Ha-eun.
—
One weekday evening a few days ago.
I looked for a downtown area that I often went to with a not very bright expression.
It was because Ha-eun’s phone had been turned off for several days already.
… What’s going on?
I don’t know what it is, but when something big happens, Ha-eun has no one to rely on other than me.
Thinking of that, she couldn’t possibly be alone in her room.
… Where can I meet you?
She came to her main street, where she ran into her several times, but it is helpless to find her without contact.
It’s strange to walk around this place carelessly if something happened in the first place.
Still, I wanted to do something, so I headed to the convenience store where Ha-eun often had dinner.
Fortunately, my choice was not wrong.
Twenty minutes to watch the convenience store entrance from afar.
I found Ha-eun trying to go inside.
“Ha-eun!”
“Brother? Wow, that’s really strange! How do we meet here? Oppa, do you go to the convenience store too?”
Contrary to her worries, she calmly asks.
Even so, I couldn’t answer comfortably from my side.
“I was looking for you because I couldn’t reach you. My phone kept turning off. What happened?”
“A phone? Oh, that phone broke and I turned it off. I wanted to inform my brother, but I have no way to contact him… Hehe.”
Seeing her embarrassed smile puts my mind at ease.
It seemed that I was overly concerned, perhaps because I usually gave her the impression of her younger sister.
“What’s going on here?”
“I’m on my way to stop by because the church is nearby. But why did you find it?”
“No, it’s nothing special… Are you going to have dinner at the convenience store again?”
“Yes that’s right.”
I nodded as if it were natural, but I couldn’t help but wonder inside.
In addition to the part-time salary, there will also be the cost of outsourcing the cover that I received, so why are you having dinner at a convenience store again?
First of all, since I hadn’t eaten dinner, I took Ha-eun to a nearby restaurant.
She sat down at a table and ate her meal, bringing out her doubts that she had.
“When are you going to fix the phone?”
“I’ll fix it when the part-time job comes in.”
“It’s still far, so why fix it then? I think it’ll be inconvenient for the time being.”
“That’s… I don’t have money for A/S. Heh.”
I try to hide my embarrassment with a smile, but I keep asking with a serious face.
“It’s been a while since you got a part-time job. Aside from that, didn’t you have the money I gave you?”
“Yes. But I used it all up.”
Ha-eun calmly tells an unexpected story.
Of course I was still serious.
“You said you didn’t have money because you had something important to do before, right? Is that because of that again?”
“Yes that’s right.”
When I heard about it a few times, I didn’t ask because I thought it was an outrage, but now I’ve changed my mind.
“Can you tell me what’s going on?”
Ha-eun’s answer was unexpected.
“Of course. I donated everything.”
“Donation? Where?”
“It’s a church and a temple.”
“What?”
When I heard the word donation, I thought that even though it was difficult for me, I was even helping others.
But as soon as I heard that the target was a church and a temple, a strange feeling followed.
“Why are you there…?”
“My mom and dad must be working hard to earn money to see me again. Now that I’m an adult, I have to do what I can without just waiting.”
She didn’t understand what she was saying, but her words went on.
“So I donate to the church and ask God to help my mom and dad.”
“…Since when?”
“Since I turned 20 and was about a month old. After playing with my brother this month as well, I donated all that was left for her living expenses.”
“…”
My head is cluttered with many thoughts.
Still, rather than revealing my opinion outright, I asked as carefully as possible.
“That… God will help you if you donate?”
“Yes!”
“Who told you?”
“It was like that at church. There are many ways to believe in God. They say donating your income is one of them!”
“Did the church force you?”
Should I say fortunately, Ha-eun shook her head.
“No. I did it because I wanted to. Pastor asked what kind of student keeps donating like this, and I said it was fine.”
To be honest, I was originally the one who thought there was no God.
But after she met the goddess, she couldn’t be sure that the religion spread in society was false.
So, if you ask me now whether God really exists or not, I will answer that I do not know.
However, one thing I could be sure of.
Even if God did exist, Ha-eun would not bring her parents, who changed her mind, just because she gave away her living expenses every month.
“I think it would be enough to just pray and not even donate… Do I have to?”
Soon I could hear from Ha-eun how she started her donation.
On the day she turned 20, she knew that her parents would come to find her because she finally became the adult she had promised.
However, no matter how much she prayed and waited, her parents did not come to visit her, so she thought that it would be difficult for her parents to come to see her because she had more debts to pay than she thought.
So she thought about a way to pray more earnestly for God to help her struggling parents, and the way she found it was donation.
“…Ha Eun-ah. Isn’t there another way to convey our earnestness to God other than donations?”
“I thought about it too, but nothing came to mind. And even if there was, donation would be the best way to convey my beliefs in my situation.”
“But even as far as reducing the cost of living…”
“The goddess said that too. If I live kindly and pray hard, my wish will surely come true. Donation is one of my ways of praying.”
I’m not a father or brother, and I’m not in a position to say anything about Ha-eun’s money management.
But while she saved money on food and put off fixing her cell phone, she couldn’t quite understand the idea of donating to her parents, who would never return.
So I tried to convince Ha-eun somehow.
She tried to get her to stop giving as little as possible without hurting her mood.
However, she was desperate to meet her parents, and her thoughts about her donation did not change.
Our thoughts continued to diverge even after the meal was over, and in the end I decided to postpone this story to another time.
“Okay, okay. By the way, I’d like to ask for some illustrations for the novel, is that okay?”
“Yes, as much as you like!”
“Okay. Then, I’ll give you the money in advance, so get the phone repaired first. Then, let’s talk about how to draw it. And we donated a lot this month, so stop.”
“…Yes. It’s the money you give me, so I’ll listen to you.”
“Thank you. I have to get it repaired tomorrow and call you right away, okay?”
Her room where she came back after breaking up with her.
Her heavy heart couldn’t be relieved, so she threw herself on her bed.
“Haaa…”
A deep sigh that came out without me knowing.
No matter how positively I try, there is a problem with Ha-eun’s current situation.
Donating to the church so much that you can’t fix your cell phone and eat poorly?
That much means that her heart is desperate, so is it right for her to understand and move on?
… No.
If Ha-eun’s parents are still trying to meet her daughter, it would be hard to say that her daughter’s efforts were in vain.
But I listened carefully to the goddess.
That they live their own lives.
She said she had no intention of seeing her daughter, whom she had been waiting for since childhood.
So, the money Ha-eun was spending and the waiting time was like pouring water into her bottomless pot.
… What should I do?
It was the moment she pondered, biting her lip helplessly.
She’s used to it, but lately a feeling of dizziness has come to her head that she’s been feeling for a long time.
When she came to her senses, I was lying alone in the white sea, and the goddess was looking down at me.
“Dohyun-nim. It’s been a while. How are you?”
“…Yes.”
“Today too, I have something I want to ask for without shame.”
“What about anyone else? Am I the only one here?”
“Yes. Today’s request is only for Dohyeon.”
Not really surprising.
Even when she played with Ha-eun and when she went on a trip with Jia, she kept it a secret from them and listened to her goddess’ requests.
“I’ll quickly get to the point. Mr. Dohyun, please…”
But what she said next was enough to surprise me.
“Please help Haeun.”
