Soon the sun was setting. I parked the car in the parking lot and took the wheelchair out of the trunk.
“Hey, this guy.”
When I put the wheelchair down on the floor, my father’s sighs came out of the car.
“Why are you putting that clean thing down on the floor? Oh my gosh, I brought it home to ride. Well, if you take out people’s things without asking, it’s useless… … .”
“Ah, if it’s an indoor wheelchair, we have it in the house.”
“What? No, what are you doing to waste your money… … .”
“I rented it. 4 million won per month. You’re not going to be at home all week.”
At Dasomi’s words, his father fidgeted with his hair as if he was shy.
“Then you can just go on crutches.”
My mother slapped my father on the shoulder.
“This is really me, it’s me that overflows with time, so even if it’s not like that, I’ll walk in front of the kids who split up the time they don’t have and walk like four months.”
“that… … Not much, though.”
My father patted my shoulder while letting out an exhilarating laugh as if he was sorry.
“I’m sorry. Somehow, as the years go by, your stubbornness only grows stronger. Our Dojin-san is not someone who will act without thinking.”
“No, no.”
I rubbed my shoulders and dragged my father’s wheelchair.
“Come in.”
“Wait.”
As I opened the door and said that, someone pulled my collar from behind. it was your mother
“I’m here now, can’t Dojin-san introduce me to you? Why, like in “Save Me Sherlock”.”
“Yes?”
“Oh, you don’t know? There’s something TBS does. A program that introduces celebrities to their homes. The fortress is very popular… … .”
“Ah, ah, yes. Of course it does.”
Fortunately, it was a show I had seen a few times on Metube. It was in clip format.
After clearing my voice for a moment, I twisted my lips as wide as I could and opened my mouth.
“This is the front door. As you can see, the built-in construction on the wall makes use of the empty space, and at the same time as an interior-.”
“Oh, aren’t these couple slippers?”
“The first thing you do when you enter the living room is—”
“Oh my, honey, look at this. Look at the number and schedule written on the calendar here. Oh my, the kids are perfectly fine… … .”
“Now this is the bathroom—”
“Oh my gosh! Do you use a glass of water as well? By the way, look at the toothbrushes placed side by side.”
My mother, who had been screaming with her mouth covered, suddenly sniffed her nose and alternately sniffed the scents of me and my sister.
“Oh my God, it smells the same! You too, come and take care of it.”
“Baby, are you really going to make a fuss about every single thing? It’s only natural because they are children living together.”
“Is it normal? You never did any of this.”
Father’s shoulders shuddered and bounced up.
“that… … . That’s because no matter how married you are, you have each other’s territory. You agreed… … yo. this?”
“Is there anyone who really does that just because they say so? They never use their cups while arguing about hygiene or anything, and they don’t say that they seem like they’re flirting with couple tees, huh? What kind of fishing meeting or early soccer meeting is on anniversaries, he said he had to go and left without saying a word!”
“No, you haven’t said anything in a while, so why are you here now… … yo. this.”
“Yeah, it’s all my fault. It’s good just looking at your face, I feel like I’m going to die, so it’s my sin to hold back the regrets. After all, I’m a fish that will die if I go out of the pond, right? Unlike me, you have Soon-yi!”
Father’s expression turned pale when he heard the word ‘Soon-i’.
“He was drunk and came out with strange words. As I said, Lee Tae-hwan has only Choi Da-jeong. Because it’s the first time you’ve ever liked or dated anyone… … yo. this.”
“… … Are you done with just words?”
“Yes?”
“Can you prove it with just words?”
“No, honey. I don’t know why I keep doing this since before, but I’m older now, and not long ago… … .”
Mom rolled her eyes. Father, who had been fiddling with his mother’s hand as if begging, shook his whole body at the bitter eyes, and then lowered his head.
“I’m sorry, how far have you been?”
My mother looked at me with a satisfied smile.
Her skin full of luster, unsuitable for her age, seemed somehow eerie.
“Ah yes. So this is the bedroom.”
“Oh, you are beautiful. But I’m sorry. When I came here, it was a bit small for a house with two people. If I had known this would be the case, I would have saved him a bigger house.”
For some reason, I thought the house was too big for my older sister living alone, but it must have been the house my parents had saved me.
“no. I don’t even know what to say and I feel like I’m living in my sister’s house, so I’m a little… … .”
“Child! That’s Okay. This is the house I saved for doing that.”
Hearing this, Dasom’s sister’s eyes filled with astonishment.
Anyway, seeing the reactions of the two, I felt relieved that there was nothing strange. It was worthwhile to pay attention to even the smallest details.
As I put my thoughts together for a moment, I felt a shock in my buttocks. it was your father
“Yeah, we’ll take care of that, so Dojin just needs to focus on the person next to him.”
Father smiled broadly and continued the conversation.
“Anyway, the house is very nice. It’s been well maintained and it’s like the house of people who just started living together three days ago!”
A dry cough erupted from her sister’s mouth again.
I received my father’s words while suppressing my heart that started to jump.
“Hahaha, I paid special attention to the cleaning.”
“You seem to be very tense. It’s enough to throw away the old stuff and replace it with a new one.”
“Yes, yes, well, yes, yes. ha ha ha. I haven’t slept well for the past three days.”
“Don’t do that. It’s something we should see more often in the future.”
I was laughing mechanically like that, when suddenly a squeak resounded through the room.
When I turned my head, I saw my mother clutching her stomach with an empty smile.
“… … Well, that’s it.”
“You must have been marketed because you came from a long way, so let’s start with dinner.”
* * *
“What would you like to eat?”
My sister said as she trimmed the look of my apron.
“anything.”
“My daughter makes it, so I should eat anything.”
There was a wrinkle on my sister’s forehead. He seemed to be thinking deeply.
“Then how about pasta? With tomato sauce.”
“Except that.”
“Then I bought some smoked duck, so I grilled it—”
“Ah, that too… … .”
“… … .”
A thin moan escaped from her sister’s mouth. I patted her droopy shoulder and whispered.
“don’t worry.”
After hearing my words, the older sister blinked her eyes as if she did not understand English.
“Because I brought something for a time like this.”
I pulled out a bucket of sikhye from the refrigerator.
“It may take a while, but please wait while eating this.”
The white liquid filled the glass with a gurgling sound. Just looking at the grains of rice floating around makes it look savory.
Before I could even explain, my father, who grabbed the glass, made a loud snapping noise and drenched in sikhye.
“Oh yeah. This is it, this is it.”
“Really, what was loose is going down.”
The cup was placed on the table with a bang. After that, my mother put down the glass and looked at me with curious eyes.
“Where did you buy this? I don’t think it’s sold at the mart, do I have to order something separately?”
“Oh, I made it myself.”
“No, you made this yourself?”
“Yes, I like raw sikhye, but the ones on the market are too sweet, so I have been making my own since a few years ago.”
“Oh my God.”
Suddenly, my mother grabbed my hand.
“From now on, I will come back often with this. Because it is red ginseng.”
I twisted my mouth, enduring the pain that felt like a crushing palm.
“Even if you don’t have to wait, I will arrange the recipe for you—”
“Hey, you’re not saying that right now. I want to eat what our Dojin-san made. huh? Don’t be sad and come back often.”
“Yeah, yeah… … .”
I barely answered, but my father grabbed a bucket of sikhye and drank it. It is in the mood to have another drink to refresh your appetite.
“Father, eat later, not now.”
Father tilted his head as if he did not understand.
“Wouldn’t it be more refreshing to eat after a bowl of spicy kimchi stew?”
At that, he put down the water bottle he was holding. They both seem to have chosen the correct option by swallowing their saliva.
For your reference, this was an application of the method written in the tips for getting married in advance.
“I will be back soon.”
I walked towards the kitchen with a thumbs up towards Dasom’s sister.
“I’m going to try the kimchi stew that my sister made for the first time in a long time.”
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“Ah, but you know that… … .”
The older sister, holding the hem of her apron with both hands, shrugged her shoulders as if she was not confident.
“I’ve only been making vegan food lately, so I’m not very confident in Korean food… … .”
“It’s delicious, I remember what.”
* * *
“It sucks. Are you really thinking of sleeping in the living room?”
“… … Because if you decide to do it once, they won’t change it even if a knife enters the end of their neck.”
My sister said as she put a glass of water on the shelf next to her bed. A thick medicine bag could be seen through the slightly protruding drawer.
Perhaps she felt my gaze, she quickly closed the drawer and continued her conversation.
“Well then, shall we sleep?”
“Uh, uh.”
It must be a king-size bed, but looking at it this way, it looks cramped.
As I stood still for a long time, my sister flapped the hem of the blanket with a questionable look on her face.
“Dojin-ah, what are you doing? not coming in… … .”
“No, nothing.”
I went straight into bed and lay flat on my back.
Actually, I didn’t want to act like this, but I had no choice but to do it because my sister was crying and making a fuss because I said I would sleep below, and if I did, I would sleep below.
This was the final agreement.
“Then I’ll put out the fire.”
With those words, the mood lights went out, and darkness fell in the bedroom.
A situation in which you are lying in the same bed with a woman who does not mix with a drop of blood. Obviously, it wouldn’t be strange if there was something fluttering and pounding, but my heart was still.
Even Yu Ga-ryun, whom she considered her younger sister, had a bit of a sense of repulsion or instinctive shame when they slept together in a narrow caravan. Not to mention when he was drunk and rubbing his body to and fro.
But when I’m with my sister, I don’t feel that way at all. The only thing I had was the uncomfortable feeling of being touched on a blanket that was different from what I usually sleep under.
… … Looking back, it wasn’t like this from the beginning. When we first met, I used to be embarrassed by my sister’s skinship, who put her body on her without hesitation and touched her that much.
To be a little cheeky, there were definitely times when I thought that my sister might like me. Of course, it wasn’t long before I realized that it was all an illusion.
The reason was clear.
Because my heart wasn’t beating.
My sister’s heart never beat when I was with her. No human being can maintain such a calm attitude in front of the person he or she likes.
The fact that the other person does not recognize me as the opposite sex can be felt through my skin. It was a feeling similar to what Yu Ga-ryun felt to me in the past.
Rather, because she felt that way, she must have been able to give me such skinship.
The question starts here.
So what the hell does a person like me look like to my sister? What is my sister trying to see through me? What are you trying to make?
Why the hell is my sister doing this to me?
As I lay down and think about it, I heard a soft voice next to me.
“… … Dojin-ah, are you sleeping?”
“Ugh, not yet.”
“… … .”
A warm breath pats his cheek. The older sister, who had been licking her lips for a long time like that, immediately bit her lips, stroked her lips and turned her back.
“Sister, why are you doing this?”
“… … Nothing.”
“The moxibustion is all there, but there is nothing wrong with it. Tell me it’s okay.”
“No, Dojin, you must be tired too… … . Was it hard? I was acting weird.”
“Well, it’s true that it’s tiring and hard… … .”
I spoke to my sister’s back.
“It was fresh. It was the first time I had dinner with my family like this.”
Eating dried up curry or convenience store lunch box in the microwave.
That’s what food was for me when I was a kid.
In that sense, the series of events that took place at the table a while ago were by no means meaningless.
Perhaps I will never forget this evening. I will never forget my father’s loud voice, my mother’s gentle smile, and even the faint laughter that flowed from my sister’s nose.
And then I’ll just imagine I wonder what the expressions the two of us would make when they knew we broke up.
“… … .”
My sister’s back swelled slightly and then fell down. He must have been thinking the same thing as me.
“It’s me, Dojin-ah.”
“yes?”
My sister turned around. Now our breaths were mingling and tickling each other’s faces.
“I know it can’t be like this… … .”
My sister glanced at my eyes with sorrowful eyes and continued to stutter.
“Really, really, can I ask you one last thing… … ? My sister, it’s because it’s so hard. If you listen to this, you won’t want anything anymore… … .”
As I quietly nodded, my sister reached out and gently caressed my cheek.
“Show me your face.”
My older sister, who brought her face in as it was, started stroking my face with her moist eyes. Now the distance between the two of us was less than a span of a finger.
“Because it’s only a short time… … .”
A thin stream of water flowed down from my sister’s eyes, who had been staring at me for a while.
Startled, I reached out and tried to wipe it off, but my sister stroked it and turned her back.
“sister… … .”
A mournful groan sporadically flows over her gently swaying back. But other than that, no other words came out of her sister’s mouth.
