My brother’s bedroom, where I get tired of going in and out and now it feels like a part of my room. On a small bed in the corner of the room, I was lying on my brother’s arm as a pillow.
The chest trembles with a cute squeaky sound, and the warmth that comes from raising your hands. I twitched the corners of my mouth and looked at the face in front of me.
Long eyelashes, a slightly protruding beard, a protruding nose, and… … The bright red lips protruding out of nowhere did not get tired of looking at them. If possible, I wanted to stare at you all day.
After a while, when I lifted my head and bit my upper lip, I felt a squishy feel and a piercing electric current.
At that dizzying sensation, I kept kissing my brother’s lips. Over and over again, over and over again.
* * *
“ah… … .”
I hate breakfast. because it’s painful
The fall when you wake up from the bed after floating high in the sky feeling happy and floating on the clouds. Her sister’s shimmering face and a faint feeling of guilt. The sunlight pecking at me as if laughing at me.
It was the worst.
I was now almost obsessed with trying to get along with my sister and brother. Seeing her smiling brightly next to her brother made her feel a little guilty.
But the more I do that, the more my feelings and jealousy towards my brother grow.
I want my sister to be happy. I don’t want to see you two close. my brother likes it I enjoy spending time with the three of you. It’s painful for the three of us to spend time together.
“Wow.”
When I got home, the first thing I did was go to the bathroom. Just like wiping away the dirt on my hands, to drain all the sewage from my heart.
“Hey heck, Kek, whoa… … .”
get out, please get out
So that I can return to my original self when I leave the bathroom.
Of course, no such miracle happened.
“You did a great job today, brother.”
It was a blanket that was secretly stolen from my brother’s house that brought comfort to my heart, which was on the verge of being broken.
It’s dimmer than when I first brought it, but the subtle lingering reverberation I’ve been asking for ungrateful consolation today.
Good night, brother. See you a little later. Muttering those words, you gently kiss the blanket and close your eyes, and a sweet dream begins again.
“Black, uh… … Ahh… … .”
start, it should be
“no… … . I hate it now… … !”
Brother, help me. As if you had come to find me on the roof back then, as if you gave me peace, please, somehow.
“There you go, sweetheart.”
Contrary to my wishes, it was my brother who had asked for help, but I was overjoyed for that moment.
“I have something I want to discuss, is it okay for a moment?”
At some point, the eyes started to get tired, the cheeks clearly showing a thin look, and the number of words decreased significantly… … .
Even though everyone in the club was worried about you, he brought up the story to me first, not to anyone else. How could you not be happy with this?
“… … So, that’s how it happened.”
What came out of his brother’s mouth was that he fell in love with a woman and was going to confess to him at Christmas, but at the meeting place, he had an affair, and that was not enough. It was.
My brother said that he wasn’t the one I met in college, but I could tell at once that the woman in the story was my sister.
“What should I do?”
It felt like a lightning bolt had hit my head.
why? Why did your sister, who is no one else, do that to you? You’ve always liked With such a happy expression on your face, you looked at your face to be pierced. The makeup and clothes I hated were all studied for this person.
On a topic that my brother even chose.
“that.”
But I knew. That my sister is not the kind of person who would do such a thing without any special reason.
There must have been some misunderstanding. It’s still okay, even from now on, if I step in and mediate, the two of us will surely connect. I had that certainty.
But, but I mean, sister.
“It’s fishery management.”
It was a misunderstanding in the beginning, but in the end it was the unnie who refused to talk to her brother the next day, right?
Even though I had a chance to make up for it, it was my sister’s will that brought me to this point. Of course, I don’t know what my sister thinks.
But it’s obviously not a big deal. It’s certain that it’s not something you should do until you make your brother like this.
“My brother was taken advantage of by that person. It’s clear that you didn’t like it from the start. So, when my brother confessed, I was able to get over it. I don’t want to hurt my reputation by kicking myself, but I also don’t want to date someone I don’t have a heart for.”
So it’s your sister’s fault.
It’s the sister’s fault, who is fighting strangely even though she knows that her brother has deep wounds that other people can’t tell.
“But, sweetheart, if there is any misunderstanding between us… … .”
Yes, if it were me, I would never have made my brother make such a sad face.
If I had known this was going to happen, I wouldn’t have helped in the first place.
I’ve been patient enough for my sister, but she’s kicked the chance herself.
“No, there is no such thing. If that’s the case, there’s no way you can refuse to talk, right? If I try to do more than that, it will only hurt my brother, so it’s better to quit.”
“is it.”
“Yeah, really, I thought it was weird these days, but it was nothing. Let’s forget about such a good girl and play with us. After all, we are the only ones who can understand an unusual person like you.”
So now it doesn’t matter if I have it.
“I came to the ski resort with a lot of effort, but I didn’t even ski, what is this? We’re going to ride from now on, okay?”
“… … Yes, then.”
That evening was like a dream.
Even though I pretended to be an accident, I was proudly held in the arms of my brother, whom I had only imagined in my head, and smelled as much as I could when we were just the two of us at the academy. … .
That’s all, my relationship with my brother hasn’t progressed a bit since that day. Only then did I realize.
To that person, I am nothing more than a close sister. Even if my older sister disappears, my older brother will never be conscious of me with all my heart as the opposite sex.
When my excitement subsided and reason returned to my mind twisted by lust, I couldn’t help but tremble.
concession? chance? It was a relationship that wouldn’t have started if it wasn’t for my sister in the first place.
How absurd have I committed to such an older sister?
I had to pick it up quickly. But when I thought about it, it was too late… … .
“Brother, that’s what you said before. I think I misunderstood. That’s not fisheries management. Well, why don’t you try talking to me again now?”
“No, sweetheart. Come to think of it, there was nothing wrong with what you said. There is no one in this world who would like something like me. As you may know, the original body is unique, I.”
When I saw my brother quietly spit out self-hatred remarks with a self-helpful laugh, one side of my chest felt like it was going to fall off.
“no! My brother is not strange! Well, that was the wrong word. So come on before it’s too late.”
Should I have told the truth even then? It was said that he made a mistake because he had an explosion of jealousy because he liked his brother.
But if I said that, there’s no way I’ll be able to focus on my sister, leaving my feelings behind that person’s personality.
“Thank you for comforting me. I don’t want to be greedy anymore.”
I ran out and went to see my sister.
“Hey, it’s been a long time since the two of us slept together at my sister’s house like this. That’s right.”
“Yes? That’s right. I think someday I will sleep more in the club room than at home. There must be a lot of assignments.”
Unlike my brother, my sister was as calm as usual. If I hadn’t heard the situation in advance, I wouldn’t consider it strange at all.
“So what?”
“Oh, it must be something like that. I just want to see my sister.”
“I didn’t come to you all of a sudden because there was something I wanted to say. I’m annoyed, so I’d like you to tell me sooner rather than be lazy.”
But that’s just the appearance. There was impatience in her sister’s voice.
“There, that.”
Maybe it’s because I met my brother a while ago, or I was swept away by that impatience.
I shouldn’t have done that, but I should have been a little more calm, observing her expression and taking enough time to persuade me.
“… … My sister and brother.”
The air froze at that one word.
“Did Jin-yi say that?”
“yes?”
“Or are you arbitrarily doing this?”
“Sister, that, what does all that mean?”
As she said that, her eyes were full of blood vessels.
“You were the one that Dojin left me and went to see me that day, wasn’t it? I don’t know whether you first hit the player and confessed, or whether he realized his feelings late, but they decided to date anyway. So now that I’m uncomfortable, you’re telling me to stop calling.”
“Come on, wait a minute, sister.”
“I will understand. Will you be satisfied with your friends? But why are you and Dojin doing this? It’s thanks to me that we met, so you can take that kind of consideration!”
When I saw my sister for the first time, I was very confused.
“No, no! I didn’t come to say that. Why am I dating you in the first place?”
“… … Aren’t you dating?”
“In the first place, uh, I don’t even know why you have such a misunderstanding.”
“Then why did you come?”
“I just heard that there seems to be a misunderstanding between the two of you, so before it’s too late… … .”
“Don’t lie, you like Dojin. Where can you benefit from doing something like that?”
It felt like my heart was sinking.
“Is there something on your mind? Are you planning on pretending to help me and taking over Dojini by yourself?”
“Well, that’s why it’s strange to talk about your sister from a while ago. I don’t know why you think that way. I, I don’t like anyone like that… … .”
“You kissed me.”
I was already out of my mind.
“Looking back now, was that intentional to show me? So, with such a bewildered expression, for a while… … !”
“Ah, ah. Come on, I can explain. that is.”
“If I had known this would be the case, I wouldn’t have introduced you… … . I liked it first… … !”
“So it’s all a misunderstanding! The person you really like is your sister! That’s right, Christmas… ! My brother waited for me to confess that day, but my sister said that he didn’t come. Did something go wrong? Come on now—”
“It’s all lies!”
Seeing my sister trembling and screaming in a sad voice, I could truly feel the weight of my sins.
“Dojin didn’t come. With people like you, Minseo, and Dasomi unnie, there’s no way I can like a woman who doesn’t have the money, is ugly, and doesn’t do anything good… . yeah i always did It’s just that I’ve been thrown out the same way this time. There is nothing strange about it.”
“Oh, my sister.”
“I’ll be content with just being friends… Please, don’t try to break up with Dojin. Please… … .”
My voice could not reach my sister. I am now just a competitor to my older sister who may steal the person she likes.
No matter what I say at the time when this ugly love affair is discovered, it will inevitably feel like a deception to my sister.
Mistakes that cannot be picked up, relationships that cannot be returned. Even in the midst of this, the ugly jealousy and hatred that engulf her heart.
It left indelible scars on both of them who ended up struggling for years in a quagmire from which they couldn’t get out.
sister.
I regret everything I’ve done. Everyone would be happy if I didn’t exist. If I could die, I thought it would be better to die at the hands of my sister.
“… … Hey, I mean, I like you. I like you.”
But in the end, it seems that he couldn’t give up his heart for his brother.
Even if she will be the worst woman ever.
* * *
As soon as she finished speaking, Yu Ga-ryun covered her mouth with both hands.
“I.”
As if she couldn’t believe her own words, Yu Ga-ryun’s body began to tremble once again.
“What do I say… … .”
I only saw Seolha. I was just trying to see Seolha.
While I wanted others to know my feelings, I myself did not even try to know what kind of feelings other people have for me and the weight of them.
“Forget it. The bullshit that just came out because of the drink. Because I’ve never liked anything like you.”
Tears flowed from Yu Ga-ryun’s face incomparable to what it had been before.
“Ah, haha… … why am i doing this Really, really, nothing.”
there’s no way it’s okay Because I know how hard it is to have people in my heart.
“If you had heard me say something like this, you would have only been embarrassed and annoyed. Because I’ve only done bad things to you since the first time we met. I’m just jealous of not looking at me on such a topic, and in the end, my sister and brother… … .”
I quietly hugged Yu Ga-ryun, who was crying desperately.
“why… … ?”
Yu Ga-ryun’s face, looking at me, looked very embarrassed.
“I’m fine… … I hated my brother for a subject I didn’t know well. There was a time when I used to gossip about my brother to Seol-ha. I didn’t even listen to what my brother taught me at the academy. While doing that, I fell in love with each other, and I got stuck between my older sister and older brother, only disturbing me, and ruining everything.”
“Garyun-ah, I know you have a lot to say, but won’t you listen to me first?”
After seeing Yu Ga-ryun slowly nodding her head in her arms, I opened my mouth again.
“priority… … Thank you for telling me you like me. It’s the first time I’ve ever had someone confess to me first.”
Yu Ga-ryun’s shoulders shake when he says it’s the first time.
“It was painful, because I couldn’t tell you until now, because I didn’t notice.”
“Noisy!”
Ga-ryun Yu covered her ears and screamed as if she didn’t want to hear any more.
“I’m not going to accept it anyway! On a subject that I can only refuse! Why are you so always, to me… … .”
I carefully removed the little hand that was covering my ears.
“Yeah, that’s true. Now I have no heart for you. I cannot accept your heart simply because you feel pity.”
“Look at it! Then I’d rather swear. He said that he was an envoy from a couple like you, and that he didn’t even like him from the beginning. At the very least, I want you to make me give up… … !”
“But that’s because I didn’t really think about getting to know Yu Ga-ryun properly.”
I don’t do things that run away without even trying, giving good reasons. That’s what I promised. No, I’m fed up with it now.
Yu Ga-ryun, who was struggling in her arms, stopped moving.
“… … If you’re going to come here and sympathize, then stop.”
“It’s not like that. That’s what I want to do.”
“lie… … .”
“What is a lie? Who wouldn’t be interested in a woman who told her he liked him in the first place?”
It’s not that I don’t like Yu Ga-ryun, it’s just that I didn’t have the opportunity to do so.
A younger brother who is close with Seol-ha, although the first meeting was not good, but now she is like a real sister who follows me and fully supports me.
With just that kind of awareness, she refused to understand the pain she had in her heart.
… … No, I never thought that I could be loved by anyone. Therefore, even though he had a chance to know, he may have distorted it and accepted it.
“It’s just me.”
I separated my brother and sister and made it irreversible. It means that he gave the wrong advice out of jealousy even though he knew that the woman in the story he told her that day was the older sister.
Yu Ga-ryun was shaking and trembling like a sinner making the sacrament of confession.
“I would be lying if I said that what you said at that time had no effect. But in the end, it’s a matter of me and my sublingual. It happened because we avoided talking because we were afraid of each other.”
So while Chae Seol-ha and I were delaying the conclusion, Ga-ryun Yu must have been struggling with unimaginable pain.
“Let’s stop talking about the past while saying who was more at fault or sorry.”
So, here, let me give you back what she told me in the past.
“More than that, now I want to know about you.”
“… ah… … .”
“Let’s start again. From a friend, slowly… … .”
the waves crash hard, very hard.
However, I have no intention of being swept away.
