sister.
Sister, I mean, I hate my hair. I must say that I feel like I’m dying, but I feel like I’m not strong enough. It’s just faint.
How do I explain this… … Oh yes, it was when I was in high school, anyway, I went to the bathroom to wash my face in the morning and looked in the mirror without thinking. It was kind of like a dying old man.
Thinking like that, I lost my strength. As if I was a real grandmother. I’m still a high school student. Since then, I haven’t looked in the mirror.
The next thing I don’t like is the eyes. Contrary to his hair, this guy is very assertive.
From his head to his eyebrows, he’s gray, but he’s floating around as if he’s done something by himself. I think it’s more like a blue color.
Then… … No, I think I said it wrong. It wasn’t that I didn’t like my hair, it was that I just hated my face.
When I look at it, I feel like something unpleasant comes up in my heart. Jealousy, madly jealous of this face.
After all, wherever you go, there are only face-to-face conversations.
It seems that everyone is not interested in the person named Yu Ga-ryun. No, it’s hidden so I can’t see it.
One thing is for sure, I hated it when I was younger. I wanted to draw the lost attention to me.
But it didn’t go well.
The old lady told me to go away. I’m a living human, but this stupid face really turned me into a ghost.
It didn’t happen because I liked my country. I hated it so much that I struggled hard. Really, anything. Let’s talk first, and buy a favor with sweets… … .
Then I finally got out of the ghost state. It was thanks to the great hair that did another thing.
Said it was pretty I used to tease her for being so weird, but at some point she said she was pretty.
The reason is… … I don’t know. Around that time, it seems that there were a lot of idols who dyed dazzlingly on TV, or it could just be that the children’s values and perspectives have changed.
Anyway, I didn’t do anything. No, rather, the more I did it, the more I fell on the floor… … .
You know, a ghost in kindergarten, a goddess around the fifth grade of elementary school, then what?
Maybe the news reports that a silver-haired mixed-race murdered me, and I and my family will all be treated as pre-criminals.
Or maybe a movie starring an actor with a similar hair color to me could be a huge hit, so he could be treated as the same person as the character he played… … Actually, both are experiences.
Whatever it is, the important thing is that there’s nothing I can do about it.
What you decide is your gray hair and two terrifyingly blue eyes. Yu Ga-ryun’s turn is next.
I hate it, I hate it. The moment I realized that, I lost all my strength, and I even started to worry about whether I was really going to become a grandmother like this.
So I think I fell in love with my sister.
That’s a bit of a banal reason, so I’m a little embarrassed to say it… … It was my sister’s first time. It’s about paying attention to people who are me, not my face.
It was nice to talk with my sister while forgot lunch at the convenience store during the summer special lecture. It was nice to sit on the return bus and listen to what my sister told me about the movie.
When my older sister told me that my fingers, which were thrown away because I had been drawing for many years, were pretty, it felt like an electric current was flowing through my body.
No matter what other people said, it was fine because I had an older sister. No, I even thought that I wanted everyone to disappear except for my sister.
Yeah, it’s nice to disappear. People in the world who don’t understand the value of her sister just because she is modest.
Those bad guys who don’t even know how to make their sister cry… … .
But when such a person appeared, I was terrified.
When I found an expression I didn’t know on the face of my sister who was looking at that person, for the first time, I thought that the person would die.
I’ve never had such a bad idea before… … I hated him so much, I really hated him to death.
I did.
I really did, sister.
I think I like that person.
No, I like it. Maybe even more than her sister.
I’m sorry, I hid it until now. No, it would be correct to pretend that you didn’t know. Your sister should have known already. Yeah, it wouldn’t have happened if I had hidden it. I tried to hide it in my own way, but where the hell did it come out… … .
Now I won’t pretend I don’t know. I’ll tell you everything and everything… … .
Please don’t pretend you don’t know.
* * *
I never told my sister, but the truth is, I knew her even before she introduced me. We met in an introductory class to film studies in the first semester of the first year.
You know, that class. Originally, I applied to attend with my sister, but my sister’s application failed, so I ended up taking it alone.
Even if you succeed in registering for the course, what use is it if you don’t have an older sister? So my sister stopped me from dropping it.
I want to know the contents of the lecture as soon as possible, so just listen and let me know. The professor is a famous director at a certain studio, but he must have said that it will change next semester, maybe.
But to meet that person there… … I think the world is very strange.
I should have just ignored my sister and dropped it.
Well, even if we were to meet, we talked briefly during the group assignment at the beginning of class.
“Hello, my name is Suhee Pyun. My major is Mechanical Engineering, and I’m a freshman who just entered this year. This is my first group assignment, but I will do my best!”
“Ah, my name is Sunwoo Lee, a sophomore in the Department of Early Childhood Education. This is the rest of the time, so please take care of it.”
I was a little nervous because it was my first group assignment since I entered university, but I was relieved because there were only really good people.
“My name is Yu Ga-ryun, a freshman in the visual design department. He, please.”
“Oh, design! First of all, there’s no need to wrap your head around making a PPT. thank god.”
“Ah yes… … .”
Except for one person.
“… … I am Yu-Jin Yu, a sophomore in the Department of Visual Design.”
As soon as I heard it, I got goosebumps. It’s like having a hundred spiders crawling through my ears and crawling over my eardrums.
When he woke up, everyone was looking at him. You’re probably surprised like me.
Hair that sticks out like a pile of weeds left unattended for a long time, and the messy hair that looks like a pile of weeds, the cloudy eyes that seem to roll out at any moment without losing the confidence you see through them, and finally the skin that is so pale it won’t be strange if it rots and breaks at any time.
This man is a corpse. Since it’s a corpse, it’s only natural for such a voice to come out. At one point, he was a person who looked so badly and gloomy that I couldn’t even comprehend it.
“Ah, ah, ah, that’s right. So… … Design again! It looks like Ga-ryun and Seongseong. Do you have anything to do with it? A cousin or something.”
I felt really bad. Of course, I know it was meant to rectify the subdued atmosphere, but I have to say that I was annoyed by being involved with such a person.
It’s like saying something like, ‘You look similar too.’ Me and that person just have the same last name as me!
Thinking about it now, I think I was stabbed in the heart.
“I am Mr. Yu who will answer.”
“… … This is Liu Willow (柳).”
I was lucky. If it had been a same-sex brother, I would have slept all that day.
At the same time, it was a little strange. Well, I’ve never really cared that much about a person’s name before.
Rather, I hated it. What are the meaningless characters that represent me?
But that person… … He was really like a willow. Like a willow swaying relentlessly in the slightest wind, it seemed to me that he was trembling.
From the moment I was born with such a surname, I even wondered if it was inevitable to become like that.
“Yeah, that’s right. Anyway, since there are only two people in design and delivery, one PPT will be awesome. ha ha ha… … .”
The thought of having to do assignments with such a bad person in the future seemed to darken my eyes, but fortunately, I didn’t have to talk to him after that. It was a group assignment, but it was actually an individual assignment.
Whatever it was, it must have been to select one movie, write an individual review, and then present the summary in a PPT format.
I wanted to let people know that even if it’s the same movie, people’s perceptions can be different depending on their values and personality.
There is no need to gather separately, I share my impressions through a chat, I turn it into a PPT, that person writes the script, and the other two divide the presentation in half. Then, at some point, it was over.
Looking back, I think it was the first meeting that was really nothing to see.
The reason I can vividly remember Lee Ida-ji until now, of such an insignificant thing, is because of the sentiments written by that person.
‘… … So, to me, a series of creations called Mary Port feels like denying the meaning of an individual’s existence. No one in the work is interested in the human Mary. Only Mary Port, the son of a famous wizard, will draw their attention, thus forcing a change. It’s probably the same for the director who produced this work, the original author, and the world where such a thing is a hit.’
Then this is not a movie. It’s just a low-level propaganda video… … .
No, it’s Mary Port. It’s Mary Port. Do you know my sister? It’s a movie that shows the commotion that happens when little kids enter a magic school. The atmosphere is also very bright.
I just wanted to see what kind of person he was doing when he saw that he wrote that kind of sentiment on a movie he chose to end with ease.
Yes, I was surprised to the point that I had goosebumps. I hated that movie for the same reason.
So the moment I read that review, very little, very, very little.
Maybe it’s reassuring.
therefore… … .
“Ah, hello. My name is Yu-Jin Yu, a freshman in the Department of Visual Design. As of today, he joined the film club. Take good care of me.”
“Please, we won’t be next week anyway. Everyone gets a job.”
“Yeah, straighten your face, straighten your face. Anyone who sees it will know how to eat it.”
I may have been more disappointed.
