95. To solve self-esteem problems, let’s at least install insoles (4)
95. To solve self-esteem problems, wear insoles (5)
“…The people who killed my father were the Justia family?”
You bad bastards.
What on earth did my father do wrong to kill you?
And, why are you telling me that now?
“I don’t know… I’m annoyed… I just want to die…”
Fussuk-
Bluebell buried her face in the bed blanket.
I wanted to die like this, suffocating under the blanket.
The story was that shocking to Bluebell.
“My father was normally in good health… but he suddenly took a turn for the worse… They say it was because of the poison…”
The Justia family spread poison towards our Period family.
To kill my father for some reason.
My head is complicated.
Bluebell shouted, ruffling her hair in confusion.
“Ah!! I’m so annoyed!! I don’t know!! I don’t even know if that’s the truth!! I don’t even know why it’s like that!! Even if I want to, I can’t!!”
Ibasten, the head of the family, must have planned this.
Because Ibasten is dead, you can’t ask him even if you want to, and you can’t blame him even if you want to.
Then, who should this anger and frustration be directed at?
“I… I’m f*cking… I just need to be quiet… I just need to know the truth?”
I want to die.
I want to stop breathing right now and close my eyes comfortably.
I am depressed.
I don’t want to talk to anyone, and I don’t want to do anything.
“I… I don’t know… I just… I just… want to rest…”
Click-
Bluebell literally turned off the light in her room, lay down on the bed and closed her eyes.
She didn’t even want to do anything right now.
She didn’t even want to breathe.
“Ugh… Dad could have lived longer… But he’s dead…”
Knock knock – the knocking sound.
-Bluebell? Are you inside? Why is there no answer? … Are you sleeping?
Even if I hear the voice of my favorite Damian.
Bluebell closed her eyes and covered her ears with her pillow.
‘I don’t want to talk about it…’ I don’t even want to think about it… I just don’t want to do anything… ‘
She is like this now.
She just wanted to drown in the deep sea and die.
“…Grand Duke Justia.”
He let out that small voice.
Bluebell’s consciousness is down there.
Sinked deep into the dark depths of her heart.
***
The next day.
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I woke up on the bed in the guest room of the mansion.
If there is one thing that is different from usual, is that there is someone to greet you in the morning.
“D-Damian…! You’re awake…?!”
“…Yuri.”
“Huh…?”
“Since when have you been standing there…?”
I was half asleep, rubbing my eyes with my hands and looking at the glass.
Yuri laughed as if she was thinking for a moment, then she smiled at me and answered.
“For about an hour…? I was wondering when Damian would wake up… So I was watching…”
Um, yes.
I see.
‘You’ve been quietly watching me sleep for an hour.’
Yuri gained her position as the head of the family, gave her a high position, and restored her lost self-esteem.
However, while she gained self-esteem, her dependence and obsession also strengthened.
‘If your self-esteem goes up, you’ll feel like you can do it on your own. But why do you depend on me more?’
I don’t know the reason.
I thought I had a certain level of understanding about Yuri, but the more I try to persuade her, the more unpredictable the results become.
However, if that is the charm of Yuri, it can be said to be charm.
“Still, I wonder if this is too much…”
“Huh…? What…? Did I do too much to Damian…?”
“No, I’m just talking to myself. Talking to myself. You can forget it.”
“Ah, okay…! Damian told me to forget, so I’ll forget…!”
Sweet-
Yuri instantly forgot what I said!
It won’t be as easy as it sounds.
I lightly adjusted my hair and got out of bed.
Then, Yuri tilted his head and asked me.
“Where’s Damian…? I haven’t had breakfast yet… I can rest in bed some more…”
I can’t lie to Yuri.
I decided to tell the truth without lying.
“I’m going to visit Bluebell for a moment.”
“That blue woman…? Why…? Why are you looking for that woman in the morning like this…?”
It seems suspicious.
And Yuri is watching me as if she is anxious.
Even though there seemed to be these side effects, there was another reason why I had to go to Bluebell’s room.
‘I managed to escape and went to see Yuri last night. ‘She didn’t open the door and didn’t answer.’
I could definitely feel people rustling inside.
Bluebell, why didn’t she even answer me, why did she pretend to sleep?
I felt a little suspicious about that part and thought I had to meet Bluebell.
If Bluebell’s depression broke out, something irreparable could happen to her.
“Anyway, I’ll go back to Bluebell. Yuri, if there’s anything you need to do, you’re doing it too, okay?”
So, I said my goodbyes and quickly tried to leave.
Because the fact that Yuri kept looking at my face made her heart feel unpleasantly sticky.
However, the moment I was about to leave for the visit.
Tak-
“I, too, want to go with you… Can I go with you, Damien…?”
Yuri grabbed my arm tightly and stopped me.
‘It hurts a little… ‘
He held her arm so hard that it caused pain in her arm.
“Seup…”
“Ah, ah… Sorry…!”
Yuri must have noticed that my expression was slightly frowning, and she quickly withdrew her hand.
She then murmured, caressing my arm carefully as if she were handling a jewel.
“Are you okay, Damian…? I held on too hard…? I’m sorry… I thought Damian was going somewhere and leaving me behind… Jo, I think I was a little anxious…”
They handled it so carefully that I felt burdened by it all.
I carefully removed Yuri’s hand and answered softly.
“Oh, no. It’s okay. It didn’t really hurt. I was just a little surprised.”
“Uh, really…? Then I’m glad…”
Phew-
Yuri sighs in relief.
However, because the conversation wasn’t over yet, Yuri persistently forced me to answer.
“So… Can I go too…?”
“Together with Bluebell?”
“Ugh… I just want to go with you…”
Ha-
‘If you separate them, their condition will worsen again and they will make strange choices.’
Well, nothing special happened.
Wouldn’t it be okay to just meet?
With that thought in mind, I nodded to Yuri, whose eyes sparkled expectantly.
“Okay, let’s go together.”
“Really…?! Thank you, Damian…!”
“Instead, bluebells in the morning are dangerous. It’s better not to stimulate them. They’re more sensitive in the morning. Do you understand?”
“Ugh… Damian said so…! B-I’ll try my best…!”
It’s admirable that you’re trying, Yuri.
I patted Yuri’s head to praise her.
“Ehehehe…”
I felt like it was purring like a puppy.
Anyway, after the commotion, Yuri and I walked down the hallway and headed to Bluebell’s room.
Is it because they classified men’s and women’s rooms?
My and Bluebell’s rooms were placed at the end and end of the mansion.
‘No way… ‘
I guess that wasn’t Yuri’s intention?
I squinted at the glass, squinting at her eyes.
She thought that if it were Yuri, the current head of the family, she might be able to keep such a check.
But, at that moment.
“What’s wrong, Damian?”
It was as if Yuri had been looking at me from the beginning.
As soon as I shifted my gaze, she asked, ‘What’s wrong?’
With a reaction speed of almost 0.1 Second.
“…”
“W-Why…? What’s wrong, Damien…? What don’t you like about me…?”
“…No. I was just looking. Yuri, the head of the family, is a little different.
So, I had no choice but to praise Yuri.
Although Yuri was amazed and liked her praise.
My facial expression, as someone who was giving compliments, was not very good.
‘I feel like I’m being watched a little.’
I feel like I have CCTV near me 24 hours a day.
The feeling wasn’t that good, but I thought that if I could hold Yuri’s leash, I could endure this too.
I can’t deny that I don’t have a leash in my hand right now, and it’s hard to control Yuri.
“…Is this Bluebell’s room?”
Still, as I walked down her hallway, thinking nonsense thoughts about Yuri.
Eventually she was able to reach Bluebell’s room.
I was careful on Bluebell’s visit and pounded her fist like I did yesterday.
Knock knock-
“Is there a bluebell? Is she still sleeping?”
“…”
Just like yesterday.
There was no answer.
Yuri saw that and grabbed my arm and said.
“I guess he’s still sleeping… Should we just go…? Damian said you shouldn’t touch him when he’s sleeping…”
It seemed like a ploy to get me out of this room.
‘After becoming the head of the family, I became much more clever.’
Still, even if they say there is no answer.
I was worried about Bluebell, so I couldn’t go without checking.
I am once again.
I knocked on Bluebell’s door.
Boom Bang-!!
“Bluebell! Are you in there!? Answer if you are!”
A little harder and louder than before.
However, Bluebell still did not respond to my words.
“…”
“Gi, I guess you’re in a deep sleep… Let’s just go, Damien… I said I didn’t mean to disturb people when they’re sleeping…”
“No, I will do it until the end.”
I can feel the popularity inside.
You ignore what I say and don’t answer.
Is this the extent of the friendship we have built so far?
I am here once again.
And, stronger than before.
Thump thump-!!
“Bluebell!! It’s in there!! Answer me!!”
I shouted at Bluebell, who was dozing off inside.
So, was there a reaction?
Cudangtang-!
A response was heard from inside along with the sound of something falling.
Yuri sighed in response and muttered softly.
“…I’ve been sleeping my whole life.”
“What, Yuri?”
“Oh, no… Don’t say anything… Ehehehe…”
Did I hear wrong?
I tried to ask Yuri again.
Kkiik-
Unfortunately, the door was opened, and the bluebell I had been calling for appeared.
But…
‘Huh? Why does he look like this?’
A bluebell with scattered hair and bulging eyes.
It seemed as if he had overcome depression and seemed to be harboring venom.
‘There would have been nothing to cause depression… Why on earth is Bluebell in such a state?’
I had doubts and concerns.
Bluebell’s condition did not look good even after a day had passed, and she looked anxious as if she would have an accident at any moment.
I tried to hold Bluebell’s shoulder to have a conversation with her.
“Bluebell’s body is fine-“
“…Get out.”
Tak-
However, it could not be done due to Bluebell’s refusal.
Bluebell, who slapped my hand away, looked at me for a moment and then turned her head towards her glass.
And then slowly.
She walked towards the glass.
She raised her hands in front of her.
Slap-!!
“Uh, huh…?”
“…”
Cheeks of glass.
Bluebell was hit hard.
It seems like she isn’t done yet.
She spat out her words to Yuri, who was embarrassed.
“…Your family is trash. Your brother, sister, and father are all trash. You are trash too.”
“…”
“I hate your family, Justia Yuri. I will never… Forgive your family…”
Bluebell spat out sharp words filled with hatred.
Yuri’s reaction to seeing that evil intent right in front of him…
“I didn’t do anything… Why, why are people always making a fuss… Only at me…”
With a face that looked like it was about to collapse.
She was shedding small tears.
‘Someone…’ Did you tell me the truth… ?’
A broken relationship caused by a broken truth.
Neither of them were at fault, but it was a place where only resentment arose.
If this is fate, I thought to myself, it is a very cruel fate.
