131. I will die before your eyes (1)
131. I will die before your eyes (1)
Period Belois.
My name before marriage was Ruina Bellua.
It was not explained properly in the original work, but there is something I vaguely remember.
‘She said that there was a reason why Blue Bell, who was only a later writer, was able to harass the imperial family.’
But the reason was not written in the original work.
There was little description, and there was only the mere fact that it happened that way.
The author did not explain bluebells accurately.
Because of that, it was difficult to guess.
‘We somehow postponed the death of Bellua, which was the trigger for Bluebell to become a villainess… ‘
In the end, this moment came right in front of us.
I asked Bluebell, who had a complex and subtle expression.
“… “How are you feeling?”
“Ha, did you think I was going to cry? “It’s okay, don’t worry.”
Bluebell came out strongly and said that nothing had happened.
On the outside.
Probably, her inner heart is trembling with anxiety.
Because Bluebell’s insides are much weaker than we think.
In the rattling carriage, I lent Bluebell her shoulder.
“I’m sighing and sleeping. “I’ll wake you up when we arrive.”
“Don’t act cool. “Because I feel bad.”
With that said, he leans his head on my shoulder.
Bluebell asked me, leaning her head back and closing her eyes.
“… But, engagement- is that bastard okay? “Did you say you would let me go?”
“Um… “No, maybe you didn’t?”
“What is your answer?”
“Actually, I just came to notify you.”
I didn’t ask.
Because I won’t let you go.
So, I came with a unilateral notice.
In front of the art room, there is a sign saying ‘Bluebell’s parents are in critical condition. He left a letter saying, ‘I’ll be back for a bit.’
“Crazy. “Aren’t you going to be imprisoned again?”
“… “When I go back, I might be imprisoned for about a month.”
“I wonder if I’ll survive being captured by a woman. Byeongsin. “If it were me, I would leave it alone.”
Is that really the case?
No matter how much I think about it, I think the obsession is stronger with Bluebell.
Since Bluebell seemed helpless, she decided to keep it to herself.
“Anyway, I’m fine. Right now I only think about you. “It will be busy when we arrive, so take a break.”
“Because it will happen even if you don’t say anything… Quiet… “
Hmm-
Bluebell yawned as if she was sleepy.
And then, she slowly closed her eyes.
Not long after, Bluebell’s soft breathing was heard.
“… “You look like you’re sleeping.”
I stared at Bluebell in her sleep, then turned her gaze to her window.
If you look too closely at a sleeping person, they might wake up.
“It would be nice if your mouth was as pretty as your face.”
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But if that is the charm of Bluebell, then it must be its charm.
I looked out the window and thought about what was to come.
What will happen next?
‘Bluebell becomes a villainess. Is it because she personally witnessed Belua’s death? If not, is it because of Belua’s death?’
I remember what Marquis Irten said to me before he died.
‘The women of the Period family are born with bad personalities.’
Is that really an explanation for genetically inherited depression?
Is this an explanation of the Ruina family, my mother’s family?
‘If not both… ‘
Couldn’t the situation be more dangerous than we thought?
Such bad thoughts naturally crossed my mind.
“… “I hope it goes well.”
I grabbed Bluebell’s shoulders and gave her a hug.
It was a thin and weak body.
***
It is dark.
I can’t see in front of me, and there’s no one around.
“What, here? Upset.”
Bluebell frowned in the darkness.
“Damian, where has this bastard gone?”
Look around- Look around-
The entire surroundings were covered in darkness.
Not even Damian’s figure was visible.
“W-what…?” “
Gulp-
Bluebell swallowed her saliva from her nervousness.
“B, where did you go after leaving me… Damian… Stop playing around… ? If I see you, I’ll kill you… ?”
Damien does not come out despite warnings.
Bluebell slowly walked in front of her.
“D-Damian… ! Uh, where are you… !!”
And then started running ahead.
To find Damian who is hiding somewhere.
However, as I went forward, the darkness became darker, and my legs became weaker.
“Ssi, sir… What’s this… Where did you go and leave me… “
I said I would never throw it away.
I said I would stay by your side.
Did you abandon me in the end?
“Abandon me… I went to that painter b*tch… ?”
Asshole.
I bit my molars and cursed Damian in my mind.
I felt better for a while, but the situation was not resolved.
Bluebell sank down in her seat, and she stopped moving forward.
“I don’t know anymore… Just stay still and die… Seeing my dead body here, starving to death… Regret it for the rest of your life… “
If there is one thing I regret.
Even if I die, there is Damian who will still be alive and smiling.
The existence of Damien smiling in front of another woman.
Bluebell couldn’t see that even if she died.
“After all, even if we die, it won’t be enough for only one of us to die.”
Even if we die, let’s die together, Damien.
Bluebell got up from her seat again and ran in front of her.
She sharpens the blade of revenge to cut out Damien’s heart.
To make sure that her heart does not beat for anyone else but herself.
Is it because that single thought worked?
From the darkness I was running in, a ray of light began to appear in the distance.
“Damian, you are behind now… !!”
Bluebells running forward toward the light.
As she approached the light, scenes flashed through her head one by one.
‘What, what…? What’s this… ?’
I see myself taking her test.
He sees himself doing an assignment in the library.
The story about the imperial family’s rebellion in the newspaper passed by.
Damian and Nadia’s wedding… Without getting up.
With every step she took, visions of the future came into her head.
“I sometimes had dreams like this… This is so vivid… “
A strange feeling that I cannot be certain that it is not true.
Bluebell walked towards the light in the distance, doubtful.
And at the end of what she thought was the light…
“… “
Damian’s cold body was seen after being stabbed with a knife.
“This, this…” “
***
“It’s a f*cking dream!!”
“Surprise… “
What is this?
Bluebell, who was sleeping, suddenly opened her eyes and screamed.
How did she know it was coming soon?
I looked at Bluebell with embarrassed eyes.
‘What is it, boy?’
I shed a lot of tears to say I yawned.
Embarrassment turned into surprise.
I asked Bluebell with concern.
“What is it, Bluebell? “Did you have a nightmare?”
“Ah, nightmare… Oh, that’s right, Damien… ! Are you okay… ?!”
“What are you doing in the carriage!”
Bluebell hurriedly groped my body.
Mainly focused on the chest.
Perhaps he thought reality was a dream, so he boldly attempted s*xual harassment.
“Hey, this isn’t a dream! Wake!”
“I know too?! That’s why we’re checking!!”
“There is a problem with s*xual harassment even though you know it’s real”
“Shut up! “You’re the one with the problem!”
I don’t have any problems.
Why is he doing this?
I wanted to know the reason, but maybe it was because Bluebell confirmed that there was no problem with my body.
I stopped touching and calmed down my rough breathing.
“There is none… “
“Of course not. “Is there one?”
“Ha, thank goodness…” “
Bluebell sighs in relief.
But, that is only for a moment.
Suddenly he started putting his hands around my neck.
“B, why did you abandon me!! “I will never forgive you!!”
“Even if I had a wrong dream, I definitely had a wrong dream.”
“I’m dying-!! “I’d rather die by my hands!!”
The moment when he was about to be killed by Bluebell’s hands.
The carriage stopped moving, and the driver approached.
“J, we arrived there-“
“Can’t you see we’re fighting!? “Get out now!”
“Yes, yes…” “
The coachman lowered her head and quickly disappeared.
‘What kind of dream did he dream of to create this mess?’
Ugh-
I sighed and took Bluebell’s arm away.
Of course, there was no problem with breathing.
“Let go of this-!!”
“… “If you explain why you’re doing this, I’ll let you go.”
“You abandoned me in my dream-!! “You left me alone in the dark!”
Was it because of a nightmare?
Dreams can be seen as a manifestation of the unconscious.
Are you still afraid of being abandoned by me?
I looked straight into Bluebell’s eyes and said.
“Bluebell.”
“What-!!”
“It’s just a dream.”
“Dream… “
Fussuk-
Only then did Blue Belle lose her strength and stop running wild.
“That’s right, it’s a dream.”
“Yes, it’s a dream. “It’s just a nightmare.”
“But it was too vivid to be a dream.”
“It’s okay. “I’ll forget it soon.”
No matter how vivid, dreams are forgotten over time.
Because the unconscious was just trying to burn off its desires and thoughts through dreams.
No exact conclusion has been reached.
It is said that most dreams come true that way.
“Still… It was strange… “
Nevertheless, it seems that Bluebell still hasn’t come out of her dream.
I let go of Bluebell’s arm and headed out of her carriage.
After giving a wink to the waiting coachman, saying, ‘You can take your seat,’ he took Bluebell out of her carriage.
“A dream is a dream, Bluebell.”
“I said no! What do you know… “
“Forget about that quickly. “Think about what’s in front of you first.”
This is Ruina’s mansion.
Belua’s parents’ house.
Bluebell’s mother is currently in critical condition.
And, she is a woman who tried to end her life right before Bluebell’s eyes in the past.
‘I feel sorry for Bluebell. She is a crazy person.’
Since Bluebell also knew that fact, her expression began to become tense.
Because she can’t predict what Belua will do.
I held Bluebell’s hand and decided to walk through her garden and into her mansion.
“Let’s go.”
“Okay… “
Nevertheless, Bluebell.
“It was really strange this time… “
It looked like he still hadn’t woken up from his dream.
At this point, I began to think that I should also pay close attention to the condition of the bluebells.
‘It’s a dream…’ ’
