Chapter 44 – Sorry
You didn’t believe
Even if I say it, my parents and head of household Lee Cheon-hwa. You didn’t believe
Now just just disappointing
Arin’s reputation was better than expected.
She has helped me for such a long time, always sticks by my side… Is it because she stuffed all the love in my mouth and took it so much that I couldn’t even breathe? I don’t believe in everything. Again, I was suspicious in reverse.
Didn’t you two fight? Why are you blaming Arin?
No. Not all.
Somehow, I got caught by a crazy bitch. Forced to be friends just tied up
Originally, I loved it. Now… I don’t know.
Seeing Arin makes her heart beat.
It’s not ‘throbbing’ with love.
It is ‘pounding’ with fear.
“Ha…”
I am.
He became Arin’s ‘exclusive boyfriend’.
Change was not permitted.
Just the way she likes it. She just continues to be a ‘weak man’.
Since then, other students have approached me. The words were… The same. You are being ‘gaslighted’. Be careful.
The ending was also the same.
Entire. Every. Without fail.
Missing.
A cold sweat runs down your forehead. The culprit. Girlfriend.
Arin Lee.
I’ve never been afraid of a girl in my life.
Now, more than any other situation. Overwhelmingly.
Scary.
“Haha…”
I… I know why Arin is doing this. The reason why I came to this point. The reason Arin wants to hold on to me even while killing others. I know everything.
Love.
All because of ‘love’.
This… It’s not just love. The concentration is too thick to call it love. Soggy and dense. Bad love.
It’s an obsession.
Very, very heavy… Obsession.
When she’s around Arin, she feels like she’s locked in a cage.
It felt like being caught and being raised.
Sometimes though. When Arin looks at me… There are times when the light disappears from her eyes.
When a woman approaches me, the hand she holds hurts so much. Cross her arms Forcibly kissing in an empty place.
Bring me everything if you want. If there’s someone I like… At least it’s not a girl. Love it together Whisper love from start to finish. Sometimes they stick by my side all day, hugging me tight. When you wake up, you have breakfast and dinner at the end…
If there’s a place I want to go, I’ll run to it no matter what. If you don’t have an umbrella, even if it rains, run to the nearby convenience store and buy one. If there’s one thing I don’t like… At least on a level that has nothing to do with love. It doesn’t do anything.
Like crazy enough to overflow in minutes. Pour out love If something happens to me, no matter what situation I’m in, I don’t care about myself. Runs straight away If I get hurt… Cry as if the world is about to leave. Stay by my side until I feel better.
Truly. Overwhelming love. And yet… I.
Frustrated. I am short of breath. I feel like going crazy.
The will to never let go.
Can never go out
Cage.
An eagle. Locked in a cage
With both wings bent. They are being forced to become sparrows.
Want to get away
Only that thought
I’ve never wished for a love like this I have never wished for such a sticky ‘obsession’… Never once.
I just…
I wanted ‘normal’ love.
Dating normally. Play normally I wanted to ‘love’ normally.
Nothing was done just being dragged along
Not mutual love. One-sided love that I only receive.
Not what i’m protecting Love to be protected.
A love that is kept ‘forever’.
She has to get away from her
Let’s get away and find the love we really want. Let’s find a new relationship.
A woman who will love me ‘normally’.
Let’s find
To have a headache.
Lie down in your room and look out the window. Clouds illuminated by moonlight. It flows slowly.
“Ha…”
Snow.
Wind up
*
*
*
The goal.
Making my girlfriend stay away from me.
I tried several things.
Make a mistake on purpose and not apologize. Or physically distant. Or don’t reply. Intentionally avoid answering. If you hold hands, you deliberately let go…
Despite so many attempts.
Iarin did not fall away from me. Still… Do you know I’m uncomfortable. Less time by her side is the only income.
This is a problem I have to bear.
I have no choice. It’s a problem I have to take.
If no one believes I just solve it
We are lovers who have been in a ‘lifelong’ slump.
I decided so.
When the body is far away, the mind is far away. If there is a crack in Iarin’s heart, which is as hard as ice…
There must be at least one man who will squeeze through that gap.
You just have to hold on until then.
The direction of this ‘obsession’.
To another man.
Have to turn
Certainly.
*
*
*
Academy.
I heard that my girlfriend was also going to the academy, so I tried to object. She broke her heart
Can not avoid. I’m not stupid. At least if you’re a member of Hanseokga. The academy is compulsory for graduation.
In the yard where awareness is already running at the bottom of ‘Academy Dance Theory’ and ‘Knight Dance Theory’… This is also a tradition. It is being forced.
Eventually together. Entered the academy
To get farther away from Iarin. I made friends and did all sorts of things. Even if it gets farther away. It didn’t fall off me.
Even if love cools down The remnant remains.
No, maybe it’s cold. As long as the academy is over, you’ll stay by my side.
That was when
The high school that I was always with. Started to diverge. Ever since then… My girlfriend makes an apologetic face when she sees me. She hugs me with a sad face. He mumbles her strange words saying he won’t do it again… And she dyes her face red.
At that time.
Still. Vivid
‘Unsurprisingly, I thought it would be less stiff because it’s a used magazine…’
That voice.
‘Thank you, my boyfriend’s cock is this big. It’s as good as new, isn’t it?’
Taeho Kim.
Hiding that sex. Ever since I met my girlfriend.
Iarin started to change.
Little by little, but little by little. I feel her moving away from me.
Experienced for the first time.
Feeling out of breath.
I’m there I was sure
A little but
There is a ‘gap’.
The ice begins to break.
Cage.
Started to open
When Iarin is sad and hugs me. She couldn’t help laughing. Please understand
That is ‘love’.
Expectations skyrocket.
She left me and went to another man. Expectation.
Chest.
Fill up.
*
*
*
Academy’s backyard.
Flower bed.
I had to see it.
My girlfriend… Was being ‘held the princess’ by Kim Tae-ho.
Coming soon.
Soon. My girlfriend is leaving me You can tell instinctively.
My girlfriend is currently ‘in love’ with another man.
“…Whoa.”
I hope you prepare your mind soon.
When the time comes When everything goes out of mind
I’m going to ask you to break up
Don’t even look back will run away
He twitched and the corners of his mouth went up.
“Hehe.”
The expression gradually brightens. A little further!
It’s time to get out of the pit of obsession. It had to come
Ah. Taeho Kim. It’s Taeho.
It will be a bit difficult
My girlfriend… Obsession, that love. Because it’s too heavy.
It’s going to be a tough time.
When you really start to ‘love’. Out of control
What I suffered all that love
Entire.
Taeho Kim.
To you
My heart is beating like crazy. The cage door creaks. Fold the wings Now, all you have to do is prepare to fly.
Everything is over
I can’t walk properly in the hallways. Legs tremble with excitement.
Then tok. Someone grabs my shoulder
“Excuse me…”
Turn your head. At that place…
There was Kim Tae-ho.
“What are you doing?”
Smile lightly
Looking at his expression… I think I know roughly what he’s trying to say. It’s a little bit, but I’m trying to laugh. Squeeze it in and hold it.
“I’m here to tell you something important.”
Kim Tae-ho puts on a serious expression.
My girlfriend is hanging out with another guy – I would say something like that. I know just by looking at your face.
“What… True?”
Pretend not to know
Make eye contact with each other. Tell me soon It starts to get a little funny. Kim Tae-ho is now… Very serious. I’m not serious at all
Again are getting happy
“Recently, someone saw Iarin hanging out with someone…”
Also.
“Ah. Is that it?”
Make eye contact with each other.
“I was worried about hanging out with you a lot. Did you come to see me, my boyfriend?”
As expected.
After all, only the appearance has changed. The person himself is good. If it was real trash, I’d just ignore it. Those eyes are truly ‘worried’ eyes. The feeling of exaltation keeps rising. Laughter hits the diaphragm. Desperately endured
“Yes… I’m honestly worried.
“Are you okay.”
Okay.
“That, uh, what?”
Kim Tae-ho is flustered and makes eye contact.
Let me say it again
“I’m fine.”
I am. Really. Very.
Okay.
It’s so good it’s driving me crazy!
“Don’t you worry…?”
Kim Tae-ho’s eyes are slightly trembling.
“Not at all.”
At all.
I’m not worried at all.
“To be honest.”
“Does not matter.”
Does not matter.
I desperately prevent a smile from forming on my lips.
Can not be done. If you even laugh here. Treated like a weirdo No, are you still a strange person? No. Everyone becomes like this when they are by Iarin’s side. I’m not crazy. Even alittle.
“…Yes?”
Taeho Kim. Make a stupid face
“I don’t care if Ia Lynn hangs out with another guy, where she goes to the amusement park, if she crosses her arms or kisses each other.”
Seriously.
I want to be back!
Please… Please Praying to God to spread the wind. I’m hoping and hoping!
However. That prayer…
The person in front of me made it happen.
Do you care?
Are you not interested?
Neither!
At all.
Even alittle!
“That’s strange… That, uh… But a girlfriend…”
“It’s my girlfriend.”
A girlfriend is a girlfriend.
She is just a ‘nominal’ girlfriend.
“But, it doesn’t matter. So.”
“Do not worry.”
Don’t worry about me It’s Taeho.
Slightly toward Kim Tae-ho. Keep your head down.
Walking down the hallway
I finally reached the end of the hallway.
“Puhhhhh”
I couldn’t help but burst out laughing.
Sorry.
I’m so sorry Taeho.
It will be painful
Many.
