Chapter 10 – Dirty Girl Being Trained After 000 Days (3)
Eugene Calliope…
When I noticed, I was writing his name.
***
From an early age, my older sister excelled at everything.
By comparison, I was dumb, slow, and had no talent.
My father and mother also looked only at my sister as the person who would rebuild the crumbling family.
It was sad, but I still thought of it as family.
But on her sister’s birthday.
The day everyone was blessing her sister.
…And that day when I stayed up all night alone because of a bad cold.
Outside the room, the sound of the party continued, but no one came to me as I coughed up blood from a cracked throat.
Realized that day
That I am but her sister’s shadow.
***
‘…You called. Sister.’
‘Yes, Vivian. Congratulations This older sister has been accepted into Carnea Academy.’
One day she was drinking tea at the garden table, her sister said.
It sounded like a dream to me, who thought I would live under her sister forever.
The hope that I thought I had pushed in deep raised my head again.
Carnea Academy is all dormitory system.
Doesn’t the fact that my sister enrolls in such a place mean that I can not see her sister for three years.
She didn’t show it off, but she was overjoyed to be separated from her sister for the first time in her life.
‘Congratulations on getting into Carnea Academy.’
It was a word that came from the heart.
She wondered if her father and mother would look after her if she didn’t have an older sister.
I didn’t mean to usurp her sister’s place.
I know that no one like me can ever replace her sister.
However…
Very little of her attention her sister gets…
If you share even just a little…
I also have a feeling that I will be recognized as a family member.
However, her sister’s words that followed crushed her hope.
‘Yeah, that’s fine. So you should come next year too.’
‘Yes… ?’
I couldn’t understand.
No, I didn’t want to understand.
I thought I would finally be released, but to go under her sister again….
‘Uh, unni, what is that…’
‘I feel it every time you answer like that, but you look so stupid. I’m telling you to go to Carnea Academy next year too.’
‘Me, how could someone like me be in Carnea…. It’s too much.’
The first thing I said to my older sister in my life.
‘…Vivian.’
When her name is called by her older sister, her whole body stiffens.
The sister cut her cake with her fork and put it in her mouth.
‘Are you throwing up at my words?’
‘Ah… No. It’s not like that.’
‘Hmm…’
She spins her fork with her fingers, which her sister is holding.
Scary. Scary. Scary.
Her legs arbitrarily end up on her knees.
‘Oh, sister. I was wrong. D, I’ll go in. I’ll get in somehow.’
‘Yeah, of course it should. If I don’t come in, I’ll be in big trouble.’
──Fuck
A fork sticks into a strawberry on top of a cake.
‘I will wait. Vivian.’
‘Yes… Yes… Older sister.’
If that’s the case, don’t even have hope.
It was unbearably sad, but I didn’t even have the freedom to be sad.
‘Smile. Vivian. I’m going to enter the same academy as this proud older sister, so I have to laugh.’
‘Uh..? Heh.. Hehe.. I’m sorry. Sister. I must have shed tears of joy.’
I wiped my tears with my sleeve and forcibly raised my trembling mouth.
Realized once again
That the shadow will never escape her sister her.
***
On the day of the Carnea Academy entrance ceremony, one year after that day.
Having barely entered the school in 150th place, I was sitting at the end of the auditorium.
During the entrance ceremony, nothing was heard.
Because I was so afraid of being in the same school as my sister.
While shivering, the entrance ceremony was over and the students were leaving in groups.
I…. I couldn’t go back to my room.
It was because I was afraid that my sister would come to visit me if I were in the room.
I sat alone until the time the library closed and went back.
As I lay on the bed, tears flowed.
Why am I the only one in so much pain?
I wanted to die, but I didn’t even have the courage to die.
…But I was thankful for the courageous me.
If I had died that day, I would never have met Eugene Calliope.
He helped me without any conditions.
He put my feet together for me who was slow, and he must have been tired too, but he even fell down on purpose for me.
The moment I tried to get him up with a sorry heart, he even sent me a look in my eyes telling me not to worry and run.
It was the first time.
For the first time in my life, I met someone who gave for me, not my sister.
That day, instead of going to the library, I was waiting for him in the lecture hall.
I was concentrating on practicing to say thank you, so I didn’t even notice Eugene approaching….
The moment the door opened, I was so embarrassed that I hid in the cleaning toolbox without realizing it.
And there, I watched Eugene drink the water.
“Big.”
I was happy.
Even if I don’t know if I did it.
I was glad that he drank it.
It felt like I was recognized that I was not a meaningless existence.
The next day, I arrived at the classroom early.
I had the heart to run away from my sister, but I also had the thought that I might be able to meet Eugene.
But Eugene did not come.
‘Aren’t you coming….’
I didn’t even make a promise, but I couldn’t stand it because I couldn’t stand it because I was pathetic.
Then the door opened and someone came in.
It was Eugene Calliope.
I was about to burst out laughing.
I didn’t talk to him, but I was still happy.
While scribbling in a notebook and peeking at his profile his, I dropped my pen.
‘Ah…’
The fallen pen stopped at his feet.
Why do I always make mistakes like this?
While he was rebuking himself, Eugene picked up a pen and handed it to him.
“Now, here.”
“Thank you…”
“It’s nothing.”
A really small kindness.
But it was enough to melt into a dry heart.
From that day on, we talked every morning.
“Oh, it’s a book by Julius Hunley.”
“…Does Julius know?”
“Know. One of my favorite authors.”
It’s a conversation that doesn’t have a mate, but it was the happiest moment of my life.
The fact that I could be this happy was like a dream.
However…
The door opens and you wake up from your dream.
“Ah! It hurts! It hurts.”
“It’s tough. What hurts like this?”
I saw Eugene chatting well with other women, not me.
He is the only precious person to me….
I felt like I was just one of many friends.
Tears come to my eyes when I see him talking to the other kids.
But if she cries now, she embarrasses Yujin.
He bit his lip and held back tears.
What did you expect
What did you wish for?
A subject I knew from the beginning.
…I knew it, but it was so painful.
That I meant nothing to him.
After the lecture, I went back to the dormitory as if running away.
‘…Silly.’
It’s embarrassing to imitate a tragic heroine when no one recognizes that she’s like this.
When I woke up and opened the window to ventilate, there was a letter stuck in the window frame.
It gave me goosebumps.
I was afraid that it might be a letter from my sister.
I opened the letter hoping it wouldn’t be like today, but the contents were even more shocking.
“Dear writer.
It wasn’t long before I discovered this piece.
Took.
I was shocked and dropped the letter.
Last summer.
I’ve made the worst choices ever.
There was a time when I sold an erotic book with me as the main character in a twisted heart, hoping that someone would pay attention to me because it was so painful and sad.
…But the very next day I came to my senses and retrieved all the books.
“Uh… How… “
I thought I had collected all of them, but looking at the letters like this, it was clear that they used the stationery in the book.
It was quite expensive, but in order not to let the family know when a letter came, I put a letter in the back of the book so that it would arrive directly to my room.
“Uh.. What should I do?”
The fact that I sent it using this stationery means that my identity was fortunately not found out, but I go back and forth between the dormitory rooms nervously that someone is looking at my book.
[I went into an old bookstore and chose this book, and I felt my destiny. I’ve read a lot of books, but […
However, along with nervousness, there was also a sense of gratitude.
Having someone read your book and write a letter to you…
Because at least I have meaning to this person.
‘I have to ignore it.’
It’s not an ordinary book, it’s a book like that.
There’s nothing good about being friendly. I know it in my head.
「Then, I will wait for your answer.」
But that phrase in the letter bothered me.
‘…It’s me anyway… You won’t know… Just… Just once.’
Excusing herself, Vivian sat down at her desk.
***
“You look happy. Master.”
Lucia, who was cleaning her room as if it was natural now, said.
Fun. This reply is proof that Vivian’s attack is working properly, so I can’t help but enjoy it.
“… Lucia. You must have done well.”
“Yes! There is no problem as I washed the client several times without getting caught. And judging from the atmosphere, it seemed like it would have happened soon, even if it wasn’t for the master’s order.”
I nodded at Lucia’s answer.
I deliberately lead this situation, but what can I say….
Vivian is in the perfect position to bully.
Since he is an aristocrat, he cannot join the crowd of commoners.
Even so, the Beatrice family was too late to interfere with the gathering of nobles.
Moreover, he has a timid personality, and since he never went to a social club, he has no friends or acquaintances, and his grades for admission are the lowest.
And above all….
The problem is that there are many people who are dissatisfied with Vivian’s older sister, who is talented and unkind in her second year.
Even if she could n’t tell her grievance her directly, her sister her had enough power to bully her.
‘Looking at it this way, her older sister her is almost the source of all evil.’
It is because of her sister that Vivian is not aware of her strength and that she has such a timid personality.
Because of her, having awakened her own abilities at a young age, she harassed, ignored, and bullied Vivien, preventing her from making her own judgments.
‘Tsk tsk, she would have been able to graduate from the academy without her sister her.’
I feel sorry for Vivian, but she will be suffering for some time to come.
‘Well, it’s good for me, but I mean.’
I smile at the thought of tutoring Vivian, who depends on me.
