160 – 48. Your Meaning
“… Lady? Are you okay?”
The first thing Elijah saw when he opened his eyes were purple eyes.
Erydice had already arrived and was calling out to her with concern.
“What’s wrong with you all of a sudden? “Are you in any pain?”
“… “How much time has passed?”
“Huh? “Time?”
Elijah blinked and looked around.
The scene was not much different from before she glimpsed Judah’s memories.
‘Has it not been long?’
Eurydice said.
“I don’t know what time it was, but the lady’s eyes suddenly turned golden and she was mesmerized. So why were you calling me….”
It means that only a few seconds have passed.
Elijah squeezed her hand and brought her back to reality.
Although she only saw it sparingly, she was able to peek into someone else’s memories that were decades old.
Her head was dizzy.
‘I’m glad you came back soon….’
However, a momentary feeling of discomfort arises.
It was like an uncontrollable fear that came from the conviction that I could not understand this world.
‘This place…’ . FALSE….’
The person who was born and raised in this world is also not a real being.
It is a created virtual personality.
Nevertheless, the sensation is so vivid.
The time she shared with him and the emotions of those days.
Even her sorry feelings and deep regret are as clear as cold ice and hot fire.
She
She didn’t know how to take it.
I just felt vaguely afraid.
If there is no meaning to the world itself beyond life, then what the hell….
“Where does it hurt? Why all of a sudden….”
The moment Eurydice speaks of.
I flinch.
Judah’s fingertips moved.
“… !”
Three people in the room looked at him at the same time.
Hermis quickly shouted.
“I think I’m coming back to consciousness! “I’ll get the council member!”
The place left after making a fuss.
Eurydice calmly watched Judas.
Meanwhile, Elijah tried to hold his hand but stopped.
‘Is it okay for me to be by your side?’ ?’
You did such a terrible thing to Judas.
I felt like I had to get out of this place.
He himself is a sinner.
A sinner should not dare to be next to him.
Besides, he himself is not a real person.
This is a fictional character.
Not only yourself, but also Eurydice in front of you and this entire world.
Judas encountered himself as such a person.
I’m scared to face him.
Just as she was about to run away.
Tap! Do.
Judah’s hand grabbed Elijah’s wrist.
With your eyes still closed, you speak in a subdued voice.
“After seeing all the memories of others, where are you going?” .”
“… !”
While Elijah was looking at Judah’s memories, Judah was also watching.
Thanks to this, she learned everything about the past of the original owner of the body she had possessed.
He laughed inwardly.
Why are you possessing this person and putting me through this trouble?
On the other hand, this situation felt familiar for some reason.
I remembered the reason.
The future I saw on the day of my investiture.
He himself had collapsed.
The scene called Elijah’s comedy.
I think I now understand why it was a comedy.
Because of this very moment.
Elijah, who hesitated, took his hand.
I was careful as if handling cracked glass.
He asks in a more dangerous voice.
“Judas…. I, I, I don’t hate it… ?”
Judah slowly opens his eyes.
Golden eyes look up.
A slightly different face from the character Kang Je-won.
But he was clearly the Judas he knew.
Judas laughed weakly.
“If you’ve seen it all, you’ll know….”
“… ….”
It’s just as they say.
You can’t not know.
Until the end, how much he cherished himself.
“Why, why me like that…. I did something terrible to you….”
“It’s no one’s fault.”
“… ….”
“It’s absurd why it happened like this, but it’s not your fault or mine.”
It was all my fault.
Judas ended up like this.
My mother, who was alive and well, was virtually as good as dead.
Elijah dismissed it all as her own fault.
That way she felt at ease.
If it wasn’t anyone’s fault, she didn’t know where to channel her resentment.
So Elijah chose her self-loathing.
However, Judah corrected that it was no one’s fault.
She had no one to blame.
“This is just an unlucky fate and tragedy….”
She blamed herself because she needed someone to blame, but Judas took that responsibility away.
However.
Fear still remained in Elijah’s heart.
“Judas. I am… What is yours? Are you a real person or….”
I can’t forget the scene I saw in my memory.
What does Judah think of himself?
I know half the answer.
But she wanted confirmation.
Judas looked up at her through her squinted eyes.
She stares still, as if time has stopped, and then speaks.
“I can see it.”
She grabbed her hand and pulled it.
Elijah is drawn.
She fell into his chest, and Judah placed her head on his and took a deep breath from her.
“I will take charge of it.”
Elijah suppressed her bitter cries.
Breathing became rough.
Judah interrupted her for a moment and then she said.
“I can even hear breathing.”
I hold her tighter in my chest.
“I can feel her body temperature by touching it.”
“… ….”
“If it’s not real, what is it?”
I knew.
Now that she had glimpsed Judah’s memories, she had no choice but to know.
He treated himself like a real person.
Maybe it was before the possession.
Ever since I was possessed, I have never ignored this world or myself, calling it virtual.
Not even once.
I received confirmation even though I knew it.
And it was recognized.
Those words were like salvation.
Who am I?
What constitutes a being called Elijah?
How do you define who you really are?
I decided to get rid of complicated questions.
Judas said that he was the real Elijah.
Then he himself could be the real Elijah.
That’s enough.
It is more than enough.
Feel his body temperature, see his face, hear his voice, and smell his arms.
All senses come alive.
I, the one who receives his love, am the real Elijah.
Elijah was confident.
She entrusted her existence to him. She chose to depend.
“For such a young lady, what am I?”
Judas asked.
She knows that Elijah peeked into her memories, but he doesn’t know her thoughts or feelings.
He was also curious.
Kang Je-won. Judah.
A person who encountered this world through games.
What would Elijah think of himself?
“You….”
Elijah lifted her head.
Answer with a smiling face while crying.
“This is the person I know and have experienced.”
Color. Weakness. World. Universe.
Judas. Kang Je-won.
You can describe him with countless words, but no words can contain him.
To her, he was not something that could be defined simply through words.
The essence was not important.
Whether he is Kang Kang-won or not. Judas or something.
Experience precedes essence.
The person who protected him.
Affection for yourself and the object of your affection.
A name is just a means of calling.
Nevertheless, a name defines a person in some way.
“You are my Judas.”
It was one word that encapsulated the years we experienced together.
Even if this world was fake, the experiences and emotions I shared with him were all real.
He also recognized himself as the real person.
Then, this world becomes real.
Judas sighed in relief and hugged her shoulders.
That’s enough.
If Elijah thought of her that way, she didn’t have to worry about herself.
It was a very dependent and weak way of thinking.
His existence was confined to the judgment of others.
But if both people want him.
If he was satisfied with that, there was no reason to blame him.
If we both acknowledged it, it was essentially an issue that didn’t matter.
“… “I’m sorry for not being honest in advance.”
When he found out that he was Elijah’s assassin.
If he had said it right away, he might not have ended up like this.
That bothered Judas the whole time.
“Huh… !”
Elijah bit her lip, taking in her breath.
It’s her own fault, so why are you apologizing?
I was so thankful that he was so kind and loving during this time, and I felt sorry for him as if my heart would break.
“Ugh… !”
Judah gently patted and hugged Elijah, who was sobbing.
I’m holding you so quietly….
“… Big, big! Hmm!”
Yuri Dicke cleared her throat, making her presence known.
“Ugh?!”
Judas was surprised as he muttered his food.
“Uh, uhhu, surprise…. U, Eurydice? Ah, there you are…. Since when, I’m sorry….”
Unlike him, who was embarrassed by her half-rising body, Elijah was hugged to his chest like a cicada.
It was very comfortable.
“Ugh…. From earlier…. Well, there’s nothing to be sorry about. Hmm. Unlike young people these days, he’s hot and, uh, nice to look at. Haha….”
Yuri Dicke cooled her flushed face with her hand fan.
I don’t know what the two talked about, but it was a very passionate and passionate confession.
And I intuited it right next to me.
It was shameful, embarrassing, and somehow complicated.
“I thought there was a misunderstanding between the two, so I came to resolve it, but…. It looks like you two worked it out well…. Umm….”
“Yeah, well…” . Um, hmm….”
Then boom! And the door opened roughly.
“Judas! It’s okay….”
Hermis came running in a panic and stopped.
We see Judah standing up and Elijah being hugged by him.
“… “It’s time.”
“Rather than worrying, maybe….”
Judas was embarrassed and scratched the back of his neck.
Still, council members May and Gayle did their job.
I looked at the injured area and checked to see if there was anything else on the body.
During the examination, Judah looked forward.
A large crystal leaning against the wall facing the bed.
A person trapped in translucent light blue ice.
Maria.
Her own dagger is stuck in her chest.
Judah sighed inside her.
‘I guess I can save it…’ . There will be.’
Two lawmakers completed the examination.
To be honest, Elijah clinging to me was a little annoying, but I wasn’t in the mood to get out of the way.
Fortunately, his physical condition was quite fine.
“There are no noticeable abnormalities. But he had a pretty deep injury and had just woken up, so he shouldn’t overdo it….”
While May was explaining, Elijah looked down at his palms.
‘This is…’ ?’
The brilliant gold that had stained the surface of my skin last time was spreading even further.
At that time, she was also the one holding hands with Judas.
“Miss? “Why are you doing this?”
When Judah asked and tried to look, Elijah hastily hid her hand.
“Ugh, it’s nothing.”
I didn’t want to worry someone who had just woken up.
Actually, it won’t be a big deal.
It doesn’t hurt.
At that time, Judah spoke carefully.
“Perhaps Yuel… Are you okay?”
Then Elijah saw Hermis.
Hermis nodded her head and then explained for her.
“You can rest assured. The injured area was completely healed. But….”
“No way, there is a disability…” .”
“No. Hair does not grow on the area of the buttocks where the injury occurred. “It’s like there’s a pink hole exposing the insides.”
“That’s….”
I’m sorry, but Judah thought it was a cute scar.
“Anyway, you’re fine.”
“Yes, that’s right. “Her movement is not affected at all.”
“Thank goodness…” .”
“It was thanks to Yuel that I discovered Yuda.”
Hermis, Shylock, Richard, Lindell, Dyke.
The five knights were drawing attention from other places to help Judas.
In the meantime, the limping Yuel came to them.
“I followed Yuel and found Yuda who had fallen and was injured.”
Thanks to Yuel, we were able to quickly move Yuda to the mansion.
“A remarkable guy…. “I also have to say thank you to the five people who helped me.”
“It’s no big deal.”
“Then what happened to the imperial army?”
This time Elijah answered.
“They took the sun statue and retreated. After that, I don’t know much because I’ve always been by your side….”
Just then Eurydice intervened.
“I know something about the actions of the imperial army. Recently, thousands of residents of the imperial capital Yggdrasil suddenly disappeared.”
“There are thousands… ?”
“Yes. Because they restricted her traffic, she couldn’t look into it in detail….”
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While she was still talking.
Someone knocked harshly on the door.
When Hermis opened it, Dylan appeared.
He only greeted Judah with a wink and spoke to Elijah.
“There is a guest who has come to visit the Duke.”
“Me?”
“Yes. He introduced himself as the magic tower lord.”
“… Epona?”
Elijah told them to bring her.
Epona appeared immediately.
She must have been in a hurry, so her green hair was all messed up.
“Elijah! “We’re in big trouble!”
“… ?”
“The emperor is now…” !”
