54 – Taming Her
“So what about Elena?”
She opened her mouth to answer her question, but I could see that it wasn’t a very good choice.
She asked if she had to throw up like that…
Well, it always has been.
Still, she has a pretty face, but everyone runs away because she crumples like that.
“How on earth can you still care about her?
Has that woman still tied you up? Huh?”
“Actually not. I think I can guarantee that.
The red lines that I used to see every time I fell asleep are gone now.
…I can barely hold it in my hand.”
The girl in her dreams who wrapped her body tightly, whispered in my ear and caressed her body is no longer there.
There is only emptiness and darkness.
“Then what the hell are you doing without letting go-“
“If I let go, who will hold her?
Yuliana, you still have me, church, and acquaintances.”
“…Everyone I knew in the village was dead.
Only the lucky few survived.”
The emotions I had been suppressing almost exploded in an instant.
The fact that the fact that the people I was familiar with had died made me feel even more guilty.
Too many people to ignore,
All of them were good people to pretend they didn’t know.
“What crime did those people have,
Did he have to die because of a woman’s greed?
Even if she didn’t,
In the end, it’s true that her lust has killed a lot of people, Niel.
If only the church was normal, I’d gladly slit her neck.”
“…Maybe I tried to stop it.”
“Niel!”
“Yuliana, I’m sorry.
But… I have no choice but to side with her.
She’s the one who lost everything about her because of something she didn’t want.”
Her parents will not be on her side anymore.
Even her friends won’t be able to get close to her.
Also, if her existence was known to the world… I knew very well what would happen.
“Of course it’s her karma,
He came to find me, no one else.
And you’re completely dependent on me.
If I disappear too, the rest of her life will be like hell.”
At least, I didn’t want to ruin someone’s life by giving up.
That’s someone who loves me, and who I… Still cherish.
I didn’t want to be the one who let go of the cliff.
If our relationship breaks down,
I hoped it wasn’t on top of the cliff.
“…That hateful woman should know that feeling.”
“I think you know.
Didn’t you see it too?”
That unfocused gaze that stared blankly at me in a state of disrepair.
If she saw the despair contained in it, she would surely understand my feelings.
However, her stern expression said more than that.
“Why, even if something gets stuck-“
“…I screamed and cried non-stop for three days and three nights.
During the time you passed out.”
In an instant, a piercing pain pierced my head.
This high, shrill sound in my ears couldn’t have been so painful.
“Three…Days? Hold on, I’ve been…”
The sight of her taunting and nervously putting her finger on her own lips made me close my mouth.
The anger and hatred in my eyes made me feel even more uncomfortable in my seat.
At the same time, a little bit of fear.
“After that, he locked himself in his room for a day or two and didn’t come out.
You should have seen the woman the day you reported that you were recovering.”
“Why – “
“My whole body was covered in blood.
That woman was out of her mind even when she was out of her mind.
If it’s because I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have done that in the first place,
After that…
I can still smell the disgusting bloody smell.”
“…Oh my God.”
That day, her black reminded her of losing her hair and regaining her white once again.
There was a girl who apologized to me, bleeding red blood that could be seen even in her darkness.
Making me see her with my own eyes as she cries through her excruciating pain.
“Then… hahahaha, I… Never thought vampires could get sick of their already white skin.
Can you guess why it happened?”
“…How would I know.”
After hesitating, she immediately added a sentence.
“For the whole day, I didn’t sleep and washed my body.
Her own body is too dirty to see you.
You should have seen those crazy eyes.
Rubbing her skin until it bled, she washed away the blood, staring at her own body with her wide eyes.
Bleeding again.
Vampire servants who saw that scene were completely terrified and ran away from waiting in the bathroom as if they were running away.
…You’d still love a crazy woman like that?”
I have no idea where I got this button wrong.
If only I had known, she would have been worried about fixing it.
But that opportunity was taken away from me by Elena’s hand,
Elena knew that, so maybe she was going to torment herself more…
“I…I am.”
A collapsing relationship,
And the hand that tries to let go of itself.
Even if I keep trying to hold onto you,
Will she let it go?
***
In the end, I slowly walked out of the room without even giving Yuliana a definite answer.
‘First of all, if I had to tell you my opinion as an evangelist, I would just say that the church will not intervene any more.
The investigation is over. Even though Benjamin Atkinson is a priest who is a member of the church, there is nothing strange about being excommunicated for inappropriate behavior.
Moreover, ‘officially’, her existence is not related to the vampire attack.
Haa… Like you said, she didn’t do it because she wanted to,
In the end, it’s the vampires’ fault that went on their own.
I don’t think the Atkinsons will be able to pursue you any further than this.
The deeper you dig, the bigger Benjamin Atkinson’s shame will be revealed.
…The Brotherhood might be a little upset.’
She chose to finish her work with her personal feelings in the end.
And I, too, could decide how to end this story.
It is only now that I am acutely realizing that carrying a woman’s life on my back was not a decision to be taken lightly.
In a way, it might be saying that I still lack a lot.
But I don’t intend to bite it now.
…Because I alone was enough for me to live completely alone.
In loneliness, withered in the absence of love,
It is probably enough for me to experience that the support I tasted once disappears at some point.
Her The very moment I chose her as the person I would love in the first place, I might have decided my own destiny.
If I open this door, I am worried about what kind of sight awaits me.
Would her tears be waiting for me?
Is she or is she crying and laughing madly and apologizing on a bed full of blood?
…
But when I opened the door and looked inside, it seems that she chose to sit there blankly.
She was quietly gazing at me while embracing the top I had covered her with.
“…Why?”
Ouch, she said and put strength into her hands.
My top got crumpled by her powers, but the creases were by no means destructive.
Rather like when she hugged me, she was trying to embrace my top more deeply.
“Why… Can’t you… Let go of me? Why?”
She shed tears again.
But I didn’t sniff.
She just wets her cheeks without a slight movement, looking at me, waiting for an answer.
You could tell how big her squirming emotions were by her licking lips.
“…Because I saved you.
Because I accepted you that day.
And… Because I know that if it’s not me, no one will accept you.”
But it’s over, and you didn’t take it off until I gave you an answer…
To the extent that she has completely changed, has her previous personality been shattered beyond recognition?
And when I got my answer, she barely let out a shallow scream and burst into tears again, which was pathetic.
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“I’m sorry, cuckoo, Niel, I – I – oops,”
“It’s okay. It’s okay. But she’s still alive and well.
Both of us… But for now, like this.”
Of course, you can’t give a definitive answer.
But what I can do for sure right now is that I can lean on her and give her arms as much as I can.
“My love at first sight…
I still cherish it.
And I think I wish this was my last love.”
“Eh, ah?”
Even though she was spitting out her words, I thought that a little bit of her would make her uneasy, but as expected, her ominous feeling never escaped.
She immediately twisted her body out of my arms and hugged her as she tried to face me, stroking her hair and continuing her speech.
“It means I don’t want to start this relationship with anyone else.
Even though you say you’ve wronged me countless times, I’m still willing to accept your apology.
And… You seem to be reflecting enough, Elena.”
“Not yet, not yet, no, no -“
…It’s hard for me to catch you when you run amok with such a big size.
I caught her as she almost had a seizure and tried to get out of my arms again and again and hugged her deeper.
“Shhh, even if that’s not enough, don’t do it by giving yourself pain.
Slowly, you said?
First. I remember?”
“…Slowly, over time. Until you’re ready…”
An eye full of desperation.
As tears welled up in her eyes, she wiped them dry by gently placing her fingers on the two eyes that were not closing.
“You remember it well.
So… I hope you will continue to cherish me, Elena.
When I’m good and you’re good, then we’re together.
When I like you and I don’t like it, try to persuade me… Find a compromise, or give up.
Take care of me more gently.
Then I’ll be more gentle with you.”
…It’s like being hugged by a huge wolf.
As soon as she put her period into her sentence, she closed her eyes and laid herself completely in my arms.
She held my shoulders with both of her hands, and was silently hugged.
As I carefully stroked her hair, I slowly began to look down at the nape of my neck.
Neither the skin, nor the sound of her breathing, nor her hair seems to be normal.
I think this is what she desperately needs.
