103. The age when I know everything
[Episode 103] – The age when I know everything
“Ugh… I can’t leave out the street stalls…”
The day before going to the Snow Festival, Titania was sitting at her desk planning her date. In fact, she had been planning a date ever since the festival started, but it wasn’t easy for her to decide.
Titania tapped her desk a couple of times with her fountain pen and lost herself in her thoughts, then she looked at the date course she had planned. She never imagined that one day would be so short in her life.
‘Go out early in the morning and see the ice sculptures on the lake first. For lunch, she looked around the street food stalls and had a light meal with food sold at street stalls. After that, she looked around the festival street for a bit and then took a walk in the snow with her mother…’
As she read the date course she had planned, Titania’s mouth did not drop. She made a strange laughing noise, and even stamped her feet because her anticipation was so unbearable. What do we do? It’s so good I can’t stand it.
A festival to enjoy just with your mother! The two of you hold hands and go for a walk! Let’s eat snacks together at a street vendor! Dining in a place with a great atmosphere! I was glad that she could share her own wish with her mother. Moreover, if you imagine the skinship with her mother that will occur in the process…
“hehehehe!”
I felt like I could survive the three years of the Academy just with the memories of this festival. When times are hard, I can bear it by remembering my memories with her mother. Imagine holding hands or clasping hands together. I wanted to leave memories that went beyond that, but it wasn’t easy.
Lately, her mother hasn’t kissed her, saying it’s disgusting for a grown child to be hugged. This time, she really hopes to get a kiss. I didn’t even want a kiss in the serious atmosphere of a romance novel. It just seemed like she would have no wish for her mother to give her just one kiss on the cheek.
In fact, when I think about the greed that blooms deep in my heart, a kiss alone was not enough. Because kissing is something only children do. When her lips met her mother’s, she seemed unable to resist opening her lips, so she was content with a kiss on the cheek.
Titania was at an age where she already knew everything.
She knew everything, everything, what kind of skinship people loved each other and what kind of love they shared in bed. And, she even knew how to share that love among women. She knew she could make love even without it.
The source was the red book lent by Viola. A romance novel in which the main characters are not a man and a woman, but rather a woman and a woman. In the book that described the love between women and each other, it even included ways for women to share love with each other. Although I have to keep it a secret because I know my mother will freak out if she asks where it came from.
I knew nothing until I read this book. Even women have skinship with each other, and I learned that there was a way to do that. Did you say that books are food for the mind? Titania read her book, which Viola had lent her, so that it became her own blood and her own flesh.
If he really became a ‘lover’ with his mother like the story in the book, it was clear that this date would end as a sleepover and he would return to the castle the next morning. She must have added two additional words, ‘hotel’ or ‘stay out’, in the last line of the date course she wrote down.
With my mother… A place where things like that happen…
“hehehe…”
Titania’s face heated up as if it was going to explode.
She found it difficult to sit down anymore, so she folded up the paper on which she had written the date course and put it in her pocket, then jumped onto the bed as if she were diving. She then rolled around on her bed, hugging her pillow because of her uncontrollable emotions.
But that is only for a moment. Rolling over on her bed, Titania looked up at her ceiling and sighed heavily. That’s because she knows that the love she wants to receive is a love that cannot be easily achieved. She was Titania and she knew that her love was not ‘normal’.
Who would look at her adoptive mother with the same eyes as herself?
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She even said that she was the princess of a country and her mother was the queen of a country. This was by no means a normal love, and a love that could not be achieved normally. So she had half given up on Titania.
So, it’s okay for her not to receive that kind of affectionate love from her mother, and it’s okay for her not to confess her feelings. She just wished she could live the rest of her life by her mother’s side.
That alone was enough for Titania. No, she could be satisfied with just that. She thought that if she could just give up this greed, she would be able to spend the rest of her life with her mother. She really, she has her whole life together…
Titania muttered in her low voice, hugging her pillow tightly.
“Ha… I hope tomorrow comes quickly…”
Titania woke up in her bed and began to check her dating course again. Is there a better place, is there a better restaurant, is she missing anything, is she sure what to wear tomorrow?
She began to prepare thoroughly so that there would not be a single mistake.
To make happy memories with her mother.
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“…Where did you get clothes like this?”
I looked in the mirror and looked at the clothes I was wearing. The clothes I was wearing in the mirror were simple everyday clothes worn by ordinary people.
Clothes that look like dress shirts, a long skirt in a rough color like brown, clothes that don’t seem to be cloaks or robes to protect against the cold, a leather bag that can be worn sideways, and sturdy leather shoes.
“…The maids will be scared if they see me now.”
If the maids look at me now, they will scream.
What clothes are the queen and princess wearing? It was clear that she would make a fuss to take it off right away. When I turned her head to look at Titania, she was looking at me, dressed familiarly.
“It’s okay. “Mom looks pretty no matter what she wears.”
“That’s not the problem…”
…I wanted to nag Titania about why she had these clothes, but she soon stopped. She didn’t think there was anything wrong with nagging her on a day when we were going out together today, so she kept her mouth shut and sighed softly.
“What, are you ready already?”
As I was looking at Titania’s outfit similar to mine, the terrace door burst open! It opened and Veronica walked out.
There was a small black cat in Veronica’s arms. She knew that Catsy was a cat fairy, but this was her first time seeing her in cat form.
When she waved her hand at Catsy, seeing the cute cat appearance, Catsy turned her head to avoid my gaze, as if she didn’t like me. As I looked sullen at the cold response, Veronica continued her explanation as if she was not interested.
“We will roughly connect the terrace to the festival venue, so when you return, you can enter through the door you came out of. “If anything happens, I will contact Titania, so don’t worry and have fun.”
“……”
“What is it? “Why are you looking at me like that?”
Is there any way not to be worried?
Honestly, it was a big deal because I was so worried.
Is it okay for me to leave this place? Could it be that Katsy is pretending to be me and doing strange things to the maids while I am away? Half doubt and half worry, I couldn’t keep my footing.
I glanced at the clothes Veronica was wearing and made an excuse.
“No… I thought there was something strange about you wearing Titania clothes.”
“Are you trying to say that it doesn’t suit you?”
To be honest, it didn’t suit me.
Even though they have the same face as Titania, why do they look so different from each other? The bright-colored dress with lots of frills and sharp eyes looked like a doll that had been forced to wear it, and I almost laughed. When I tried to laugh, Veronica twitched her eyes in annoyance.
I cleared her throat with a ‘humph’ and asked Veronica.
“Please… You have to stay in your room. “I told the maids never to enter my room except to bring me food… And if you meet anyone, just stay quiet… Don’t say anything… And…”
“How many years have I been growing up in Wangseong? I won’t do anything strange, so just go quickly! Why are you so suspicious?!”
“Now, just a moment! Say hello to Ainsel…!”
I looked away from Veronica and looked at Eincel with her sagging face. Since last week, he has been looking like a beaver whose house has collapsed.
Is it so sad to go to a festival without yourself?
“Ainsel, ainsel. “Can you take a look at me?”
-……
“Please understand Titania… Huh? Next time, let’s all three go together.”
-……
“And… Now might be your chance, right? “A chance to talk to Veronica.”
At her words, Veronica, Eincel raised her head and looked at me. The expression on his face was so sad that he seemed ready to burst into tears at any moment.
I was speechless for a moment at the expression on his face that was a mixture of various emotions, including the sadness of abandoning me and the pain of having to be with Veronica, who was difficult to deal with.
“Ah, anyway… Now is your chance. Let’s talk at least once and get to know each other. Got it?”
-…I don’t know, I’ll just go quickly. The princess is waiting.
Her feet did not fall because of Ain Cell who turned his back on me. She would have liked to go to Aincell with her, but Titania insisted that she go ‘alone’ with her, so she had no choice.
Although Titania tried to persuade Aincel, it didn’t seem to work out well for her. She said Titania would comfort her by going to the festival…
I continued speaking while lightly brushing the edge of Ainsel’s mirror.
“…Okay, I’ll be back. Think carefully about what I said last week. Got it?”
-…Yes, I understand.
When she turned her head, Titania, waiting for me, came into view. Half excited, half worried. This is exactly how I felt right now.
I was excited and looking forward to going to the festival for the first time, but I was also worried about Veronica and Ainsel, who would remain here.
…Ugh, what should I worry about from now on? I sighed again and held out my hand to Titania, who was waiting in front of me. She must be as cold as the snow festival, so you should at least hold her hand.
“Titania, take my hand.”
“……”
“Titania?”
“Oh, no. Yes “I’ll catch you!”
Titania widened her eyes for a moment as if embarrassed, then she came up to me with a gasp and grabbed my hand. Then she looked intently at her hand, which was tightly clasped with mine, and immediately smiled broadly as if she was really happy. Is it really that good…
I turned her head and gave a small wave of her hand to Veronica, who was looking at me and Titania sullenly. Veronica received my greeting and told me to go quickly, crossing her legs and waving her hands.
“Then, I’ll come back. “Take care of your home.”
“Am I the one…?”
Leaving the fussing Veronica behind and passing through the terrace door with Titania, we found ourselves in an alley behind a shopping mall. As I walked towards the place where I could hear the noise of people, a street lined with street vendors came into view.
It was obviously still early, but the streets seemed to have been filled with a festive atmosphere for a long time. When I turned my head to look at Titania, I saw that she was looking around the street with sparkling eyes. If you look at me like this, I feel like a child…
I looked at Titania like that and smiled at her, and then I put my strength into her hand and squeezed it tightly. As I walked out of the alley, Titania followed behind me.
“So, where should we start from? “Let’s go wherever you want.”
