88 – Where are you (3)
How many minutes had passed since Jung-gyeom disappeared?
After coming to her senses, Soo-yeon Song gives strength to her trembling legs and stands up.
“I’m sorry…!”
In the process, her legs gave way a couple of times and she fell down, but she supported herself to the end and got out of the building.
“uncle Uncle….”
Tears flowed endlessly from both eyes.
I didn’t even wear shoes, so my feet froze on the cold floor.
However, Song Su-yeon did not care about anything.
I started wandering around, hoping to see Jung-gyeom at the end of my eyes.
where did he go
Should I go left or should I go right?
can’t miss him now don’t know when you’ll be back
I had to get down on my knees and beg and beg again.
I had to ask myself to believe.
I did it because I love you I had to tell him until he believed that he was precious.
Song Soo-yeon stops at a nearby convenience store.
If you need something from time to time, this is where Jeong-gyeom always stopped by.
-Titling!
A part-timer who was surprised to see his appearance. Undeterred by him, Song Soo-yeon ran into the store and looked around.
There was no Jeong-gyeom.
She immediately left the convenience store and walked along the familiar promenade.
-Calm! Crack! Crack!
Soft feet make noise as they hit the cold sidewalk blocks.
A walk that started in the name of fixing male hatred.
I have fond memories of holding his hand on this road.
But even here, Jeong-gyeom was not there.
Playground after that.
The mart where I used to shop.
Bus stop.
I looked everywhere he might be, but couldn’t find him.
“Ugh…! Whoa…!”
The longer I can’t find him, the more pain I feel in my heart.
Anxiety and fear also increased in size.
Could it be that I can’t see him like this?
Thoughts that should not have occurred to her gradually settled in her head.
Song Soo-yeon shook her head. I didn’t want to have any bad thoughts.
“hahahaha….”
Eventually she gets there.
Jung-gyeom’s shop.
Another home where many memories were made.
Until a month ago, when I came here, Jeong-gyeom always greeted me with a smile.
“…..mister…..?”
Song Soo-yeon already knew.
The fire is also out. That there was no way Jeong-gyeom would be in the broken store.
The space of memories turned to dust, and it was so different from before.
Nevertheless, Song Su-yeon dragged her bloody feet toward the store.
“mister…..?”
I call the unlikely Jeong-gyeom.
And no matter how long I wait, the answer never comes back.
Jeong-gyeom was nowhere to be found.
*****
With familiar hand gestures, Song Soo-yeon repeated the same action.
‘After the beep sound…’
-Tip. Tiff.
‘After the beep sound…’
He sat helplessly in Jeong-gyeom’s studio and moved only his fingers.
I knew long ago that it was a meaningless action.
Jeong-gyeom’s cell phone was smashed and lay right next to it.
But Song Soo-yeon had only this.
I couldn’t find Jeong-gyeom anywhere.
It’s a meaningless act, but craving him even like this makes me feel at ease.
The blood that flowed from the torn feet had already hardened.
I felt a throbbing pain, but compared to the pain I felt in my heart, it was weak.
It’s hard to breathe, the sharp pain keeps piercing my heart.
There is no end to that pain.
never get used to it
‘Couldn’t connect…’
– Knock.
Unexpectedly disconnected call.
Song Soo-yeon looked down at her phone.
The battery runs out and the phone turns off.
“……”
Song Soo-yeon’s hands lose strength.
– Took.
Her cell phone fell to the floor.
Only then does Song Soo-yeon think of looking around.
messy room. A cake, a watch, and Jeong-gyeom’s wish bracelet were scattered on the floor.
Blue sunlight seeps in through the broken windows.
It was dawn.
She didn’t even know it, but she had been calling Jeong-gyeom for almost 6 hours.
Song Soo-yeon looked at the door of the studio.
Why won’t Jeong-gyeom come?
It was late.
It’s time to come
It would be cold to sleep outside.
I think you’ll come back with a smile any time soon.
It was a hard day.
I woke up early in the morning, finished the battle with Solas, and have been doing this ever since.
It was emotionally and physically limiting.
Her eyelids started to close.
Soon after, she falls asleep.
.
.
.
“Suyeon-ah.”
Hearing that voice momentarily, Song Su-yeon wakes up from sleep.
“Oh, mister…?”
She looked around with unfocused eyes.
There was no one.
Like a bad prank, she finds herself sitting in her studio alone.
I had heard his voice by mistake.
“……”
Song Soo-yeon looked at the wall clock.
It was nine o’clock. Birds were chirping outside, as if to indicate that it was morning.
Still, Jeong-gyeom did not return.
“…”
Song Soo-yeon accepts the bitter truth alone.
My throat started to choke again. I force myself to hold back the tears.
Interestingly, once I fell asleep, I became more willing to hold back my tears.
Is my heart a little dead?
I didn’t know.
Anyway, she knew she shouldn’t cry anymore.
I knew that if I cried like that, I would collapse.
– Swish. Swish.
Song Soo-yeon hugged my knee.
‘Uncle will be back.’
Without any basis, she repeated herself.
Because if I believed that, my heart would be more comfortable.
furthermore.
No matter how much Jeong-gyeom is, he has to come home.
I waited for him to return one day.
However, her thoughts changed so easily over time.
10 o’clock.
12 o’clock.
14 o’clock.
16 o’clock.
18 o’clock.
20 o’clock.
until 22 o’clock.
Song Soo-yeon’s despair did not know that it would end.
Jeong-gyeom did not come back today.
As time passed, her breathing quickened.
It’s getting harder and harder to hold on.
“…….no.”
she makes up her mind again
Spit it out firmly, comforting yourself.
“no. Uncle will be back.”
There is no one, but I talk to myself like a crazy person.
24 o’clock.
“……Huh…”
The tears I had been holding back began to flow again.
I couldn’t stand it any longer.
It’s so hard to accept the fact that Jung-gyeom left him.
It’s hard to believe that Jeong-gyeom, who was the only one on his side, left him.
But the bitter reality rubs her face.
“…haa…haa…huh…haa…extremely…”
Tears flowed endlessly down my vacant eyes.
I tried to hold back the tears by biting my lip, but I couldn’t.
A crushing loneliness found her.
My heart felt like it would break.
It is a loneliness that I could forget because of Jung-gyeom.
If he was there, he didn’t need anyone else. I didn’t feel lonely when he was there.
but now i’m alone
In this wide world, I was left alone.
I couldn’t believe this at all.
How did you survive before that?
I can’t remember the world without Jeong-gyeom… and I’m so afraid.
Is it really over with Jeong-gyeom?
Will there be nothing to meet with that person who was everything until he dies?
Doesn’t he give you a pat on the back when you’re having a hard time?
Why don’t you smile when happy things happen?
Will I no longer be able to hear greetings to say good-bye and good-bye?
“…No…Huh…No…”
She just shook her head and said no.
There were still so many things I wanted to do with him.
I wanted to laugh and cry with him all my life.
I wanted to be a lover with him.
I wanted to marry him.
I wanted to have a child together and grow old slowly.
But now it seemed that it was all over.
As he left, he ripped out my heart.
I already knew that this huge hole would not be filled no matter what I did.
It would have been impossible if it wasn’t for Jeong-gyeom’s return.
Song Soo-yeon looked down blankly at her hand.
Check out what’s left.
……..there was nothing.
Really, nothing.
Money has lost its meaning now that Jeong-gyeom is no longer there.
I felt like I knew what Jeong-gyeom often said, what it means to buy happiness when you can buy it.
You won’t be able to buy happiness now.
Song Soo-yeon grabbed her chest.
I can’t. I really can’t.
it’s too hard.
It’s so painful.
She plugged her phone into the charger and turned it on.
In the end, her earnest head came to mind.
……It was Stella.
I think I should see Jeonggyeom even in my dreams.
Otherwise, I think I will die now.
I called Stella and tried to find out where she was.
“hahahaha….”
One day later, Song Soo-yeon’s cell phone turns on.
I even think of a foolish thought that Jeong-gyeom might not have contacted me.
Even though his broken phone is right next to him, he is delusional.
-Titling!
“….uh?”
And as soon as the phone was turned on, the alarm went off.
Dozens of missed calls from unknown numbers.
“….mister…?”
Song Soo-yeon was surprised and hurriedly unlocked the screen.
Jeong-gyeom’s brightly smiling face looked at the background picture with tears in his eyes, and quickly dialed an unknown number.
I don’t know who this phone call is from… but it’s meaningless unless it’s from Jeong-gyeom.
-Turrr. Tick.
A phone call coming soon.
Song Soo-yeon trembled and asked.
“………mister….?”
“-Luna!”
A loud cry breaks out.
Song Soo-yeon’s heart plummets to the floor again.
Not ‘Suyeonah’, but ‘Luna.’ It’s like looking back at the sins you’ve committed.
“Luna…! Why didn’t you contact me? are you okay?”
Song Soo-yeon immediately recognized the voice.
It was Liem.
“Luna….! Please try to answer…! are you okay?”
Not okay. I feel like dying. So I called to live.
Song Soo-yeon even pretends to care. I had no choice but to do so in order to achieve my dream.
“…why are you doing that?”
“Ahh…! thank god…! Luna, Papa, we need to get together quickly…! Ah… hurry up…!”
Song Soo-yeon frowned at the embarrassed voice. I ask, wiping the tears with the back of my hand.
“…any explanation-“
“-Sah, I’m being hunted…!”
Liem’s voice in panic.
It was the first time Liem was so afraid of something.
“…….yes?”
Song Soo-yeon could not understand Liem’s words.
She also added an explanation.
“It may come out of the blue, but I, really…! Ooh, we’re being targeted…!”
Song Soo-yeon was puzzled.
Who the hell is the Villain Alliance being hunted by?
The other villains are stuck in the villain alliance.
He also won yesterday’s battle against the heroes.
Solas would still be injured.
It means that there is no force that can check the villain alliance in the country.
So there’s no reason to suddenly be like this.
“…to whom?”
Song Soo-yeon asks. It seemed to me that in order to understand, I had to first hear who the enemy was.
Liem replied, terrified.
“S-Stella says Dice…”
