Chapter 64 – I’ll Make You a Beast
It was a thought that seemed reasonable.
Didn’t she answer the goddess before when Ha-eun asked about her parents?
… Okay, let’s ask the goddess. But how do we meet?
Come to think of it, there was a time when the goddess heard the sound of my heart and called it out.
Recalling that time, she put her hands together as if praying, and earnestly sought the goddess in her heart.
“…”
Nothing happened. Is the goddess busy?
With that thought, it was a moment when she released her hands that were holding her together.
The huge whirlpool that appeared in front of her sucked in my surroundings, and I saw the goddess floating in the pure white space.
“Goddess!”
“Hello, Dohyeon.
“There is something I want to ask you about Cha Seon-young.”
“Are you talking about Seonyoung? If I can answer anything, I will.”
“Does the Goddess know the relationship between Cha Seon-young and her Jia?”
He knew Ha-eun’s story, so of course he wouldn’t know the mother-daughter story either.
Fortunately, my prediction was right.
“Yeah, I know.”
“Then can you tell me what happened between the two of you?”
“…”
The goddess became silent as if hesitating, but she soon began to explain in a calm voice.
“When Sunyoung was in middle school, she dated a senior at school for a while. One day, the senior persistently demanded a relationship from Seonyoung, who knew nothing about it. The young Sunyeong had no choice but to allow the relationship because she was afraid that the other person’s attitude would change. Then she became pregnant with Jia.”
She thought she had Gia at an early age, but she couldn’t believe she was in high school and she was in middle school.
It’s certainly not something to be shown to the public.
“Her pregnancy was a blessing, but Seonyeong-nim didn’t. Her father, the man, disappeared and had to drop out of school to hide the fact of her pregnancy.”
“…”
“In that way, Seonyeong-nim became her single mother. She safely gave birth to Jia-sama, but Seonyeong-nim could not easily accept the situation.”
It deserves it.
Because being tricked by a trashy man completely changed her life.
“Sunyoung hated her senior who disappeared. The hatred was so deep that it was not easy to even love her senior’s daughter, Jia.
The explanation of her goddess ended with the story that she obtained a high school diploma with her GED, and she finally became a celebrity.
Because the story was darker than expected, I was silently lost in thought.
I thought there might be a reason I don’t know, but I thought it was my hatred for the guy I met in middle school.
Then, whenever Cha Seon-young sees Jia, she thinks of that man, so she couldn’t treat her in a friendly way.
Her heart was heavy when she thought of the hardships she must have suffered in her young age as a middle school student.
But that doesn’t mean I think the current mother-daughter relationship is right.
Cha Seon-yeong said that by putting her distance from her Jia, she would want to escape her memories of the man, but then she felt sorry for her Jia.
“Goddess, let me ask you one more question.”
“It is.”
“If Jia becomes socially successful and proud, will their relationship change?”
“…”
She munches her lips and hesitates.
Her ominous forebodings, which she felt after seeing her, unfortunately did not go astray.
“No. Even if Jia’s social status changes, the relationship between the two of you will not change.”
“Ah…”
She was speechless at the answer she most wanted to hear.
Jia even keeps the picture she took with her mother and she is working hard, but that effort is meaningless.
When Cha Seon-yeong and even the goddess who spoke the truth calmly felt sad for no reason, she opened her mouth.
“But that doesn’t mean the two of you can’t improve your relationship.”
“Yeah? What do you mean?”
“If Seonyeong-nim changes her mind about Jia-nim, the two of you will be able to get closer.”
“Cha Seon-yeong’s thoughts? How?”
“It won’t be easy to change Seonyeong-sama, who has been hardened for a long time. Even her real daughter, Jia-sama, isira. But it will be possible if it’s Dohyeon-sama.”
“Am I?”
Unlike me, who was confused, the goddess was confident.
“Yes. Because Dohyeon has a special power to make the people around him happy.”
That story again
A story that doesn’t make any sense to me.
But even if she asked what it was, it was obvious that she would answer, like the last time, that she would find out someday.
“…I can change Cha Sun-young? How?”
“You don’t have to look for a set answer. Act in Dohyeon’s way. The important thing is not how to convince Seonyeong, but the fact that Dohyeon is the one who persuades.”
“Me…?”
No matter how much I listen, I don’t understand.
However, before I could ask anything, I heard the other person’s voice first.
“I’m sorry. I have an obligation to carry out later, so I don’t think it’s going to be hard to talk about it any more. You may have a lot of worries, but Do-hyun-nim, please believe in yourself. Then I’m done. See you next time.”
—
The next day, I was heading somewhere with a nervous face.
The purpose is to meet Cha Sun-young.
After talking with the goddess yesterday, I thought about it for a long time, and it was with the idea of bumping into it.
Because the goddess said that the important thing is not the method, but the belief in myself.
I made an appointment by contacting him directly by phone.
The day she came to her room, she offered to exchange numbers with me (actually, it was half forced).
Perhaps they intended to spy on me, but they certainly didn’t expect me to contact them first.
The meeting place, the cafe, was a small shop hidden in an alley, and it was a quiet place that would be difficult to find unless you are a regular.
As I waited in a corner in the back of the cafe, someone walked towards me.
A wide-brimmed hat and sunglasses, a mask covering the mouth and a long coat.
It was a suspicious visual at first glance, but I was not surprised because I had already seen it in my own room.
“What’s the matter.”
She asked as she sat across from her, taking off her sunglasses.
There were few people in the cafe and it was in the corner, so it would be okay to take off the mask, but I was quite cautious.
“Are you going to threaten me belatedly with what you did with me?”
As soon as I see it, it scratches people’s nerves.
Still, I tried not to be shaken and looked straight into the eyes of the other person and answered.
“I want to ask you something.”
“What is it? I’m busy, so talk quickly.”
“Do you have a hidden daughter?”
It took a moment for her eyes to waver, but then she regained her pace and let go of her pretense.
“What nonsense. You don’t know who I am?”
If left as it is, she will continue to pretend not to know, so she said firmly.
“I heard from the goddess.”
Cha Seon-young’s eyes widened as if the name Goddess had worked, although she couldn’t reveal the relationship between me and her Jia.
“…What?”
“I know everything and ask, so don’t take it off.”
“What’s your purpose? Are you really trying to blackmail me?”
To be honest, I haven’t thought about it at all.
However, it is useless to force the other person to accept my request.
What Jia wants is the love of a sincere mother, not the forced treatment of a daughter.
“No. I’m not here to threaten you, but to ask for a favor.”
“Please…”
“I heard the whole story from the Goddess. Why is she treating her daughter so coldly?
Her face darkened by my words, she paused for a moment before speaking.
“… Don’t you know my situation? If she reveals that she has a daughter, there will be an uproar everywhere. I’m sorry, but I can’t do that.”
“I don’t mean to make it public. She just needs to be a normal mother to her daughter.”
“Why me? Who are you in the first place, meddling in other people’s affairs?”
“You feel so sorry for your daughter. She’s never been treated as a daughter.”
“What, this kid…”
She looks at me like she can’t understand.
She sighed into her mask as she returned it to her unwavering gaze.
“Haa… How far did you hear from the goddess?”
“Everything. She’s from what you experienced in middle school.”
“Then you must have heard the story of the baby’s father running away? That I hate that human to death.”
I nodded in affirmation, and the other person continued talking as if frustrated.
“And she said to be nice to her daughter?”
“Your daughter is innocent.”
“Yeah, no. So she at least let her live. She said that even though I didn’t mother her, she didn’t make her starve until she went to college. She still says she’s secretly sending her living expenses. You know?”
With his firm attitude, I got frustrated and answered without hesitation.
“You can’t take out your bad feelings on your daughter, she can go to the man and release them.”
“How do I get there? I’m dead.”
“Yes?”
“Didn’t you hear that? I heard he died while driving a motorcycle shortly after he ran away. With that trash guy who said I was crazy…”
“But just because you can’t solve it with dad doesn’t mean you can solve it with her daughter.”
Cha Seon-yeong’s eyes glared at me fiercely.
“Don’t just say Namil. Do you know how I feel every time I see that child? It’s like my stomach is twisted because I’m angry. I can’t stand it.”
“Why go that far…”
“That child’s father is such an animal and trash that I can’t express it all in words. He couldn’t overcome his desire and had sex with a naive girl, and he ran away in fear when he got pregnant. Just thinking about the fact that the blood of such a beast is my daughter makes me shudder.”
“A father is a father and a daughter is a daughter. The daughter did nothing.”
“How do you know? She might be like her father, pretending to be nice in front of her but playing around with a man behind her back. Yes, she’s the daughter of that human being. She’d be fine if she got a job quickly and found her way to live.”
To say such a thing without knowing how hard Jia is working.
She nearly got up from her seat in a fit of rage, but she managed to hold it in by clenching her fists.
“…If you’re a college student, you can have a girlfriend. Is that a bad thing?”
Despite the words she spat while maintaining her rationality as much as possible, Cha Sun-young’s attitude was stubborn.
“Age doesn’t matter. Being able to play with men because you can’t overcome your desires is a problem in itself.”
“Because he did too.”
“I’m different. I was just fooled back then, and since then I’ve never taken my eyes off my studies or work.”
“…What’s the difference? At that time, it wasn’t enough to get tired of it, so I even passed out.”
“That’s you…! What are you arguing about?”
She tried to raise her voice, but she glanced around her and cleared her throat.
“Umm. Anyway, that child inherited his father’s blood, so it’s obvious that he will eventually live like an animal. And I’m different from humans who can’t deny that desire.”
I kept my mouth shut.
Not because I had nothing to say, but because I felt like cursing would come out if I opened my mouth.
“Do you know what this means? That child is not a daughter to me, but a child of an animal. I have nothing to do with her, haha, so don’t mess with her anymore.”
There seems to be no point in talking any further.
I got up from my seat without saying a word, but I heard her voice.
“What are you doing. Are you going? Where are you going! Promise to keep the secret-“
Cooong!
Unbearable, my fist hit the desk.
Surprised, Cha Seon-yeong lost her words, and I continued her words instead.
“I won’t tell anyone, so don’t worry unnecessarily.”
“…”
“If you need a memorandum, I’ll write as many as I can, so call me later. I’ll go home today.”
I think I’ll lose my reason if I talk more, so I have to get out of here.
Leaving her behind her blank face, I hurried her furious steps out of the cafe.
—
A few days later, we met again in the pure white space of the goddess.
In the meantime, there was no request for a memorandum from Cha Sun-young.
It seems like I could feel the sincerity in the words I heard as I left the cafe.
It was the right decision because there was no way I would do something like that without Jia’s permission in the first place.
“You really kept a secret.”
Cha Seon-young’s words from the side.
The goddess is listening quietly, and I answered in a voice that did not resolve the emotion at the time.
“Yes.”
“…Thank you. Seeing that you haven’t talked to me since then, it seems that you understand my situation. I know you want to help others, but sometimes you have to know how to let it go. That’s what being an adult is.”
She must have understood my silence over the past few days as having accepted her words not to be fussy.
But in fact it was the other way around.
“She didn’t understand that.”
“What?”
“It was like that last time. You’re different from beastly humans.”
“…Yes. Why?”
“Then I’ll make you a beast too. So you can get close to your beast-like daughter.”
