Chapter 50 – Be Honest in Any Situation
Returning to her own room, Jia couldn’t shake the futility.
It felt like the world I knew had completely changed.
She was so distraught that she sat on the bed, forgetting to tidy her shoes or change her clothes.
‘Mr. Dohyun…’
She can’t believe it no matter how many times she goes back to it.
Dohyun’s expression towards her was always straight and honest.
Seeing that consistent appearance, Jia let her guard down and finally gave up her heart.
‘She slept with Haeun… ?’
Haeun said clearly. She says that although he asked her to have a relationship with her, Do-hyeon only thinks of her as her younger sister.
But is it possible for her to have sex with a woman she feels is her sister?
It could never be the case, and Do-hyeon must have had her rational mind for her Ha-eun, her common sense of Jia whispered to her.
She understood it with her head, but it didn’t mean she could accept it emotionally either.
“Nonsense…”
Jia was drawing a future with Dohyeon.
She said that although she hadn’t gotten pregnant from her previous relationship, she wanted to have a child with him someday and live happily ever after.
However, what settled in her heart now was not rosy hope, but a sense of betrayal and futility toward the man she trusted.
‘As long as you’ve been with me…’
I lay down on her bed and bury her face.
Although the soft sheets and blankets covered her body, all sorts of negative emotions mixed in her head.
‘Haeun is prettier than me. She’s also cute when she talks…’
Unspeakable sense of loss and self-loathing.
‘It’s only natural that Dohyeon’s heart goes out to him.’
Even if you try to rationalize it like that, it only increases your sadness and is not comforting at all.
Jia, unable to control her feelings for the first time in her life, hugged her pillow until she fell asleep exhausted from shedding her tears.
—
As the day passed, her Jia’s mood was still subdued.
The difference is that, unlike last night when I was afraid to see Dohyeon, today I am thinking of meeting him and hearing his circumstances.
She might have circumstances of her own that she doesn’t know about.
Of course, it seemed very unlikely that the situation was something plausible that she could understand and that everything would work out.
Even so, it was hard for Jia to give up her relationship with Dohyeon, as much as she wanted to lean on that low probability.
So same evening.
Jia picked up her phone.
To invite Dohyeon to his room.
To hear directly from him.
She forced her trembling fingers to dial her number, waiting for the phone to her ear to stop ringing.
“…Dohyun, I have something to ask you.”
—
After dinner, Do-hyeon took a shower and brushed his teeth, and sat down at his desk.
Originally, he would have gone to the gym at this time, but today he had other plans.
‘Today is the time to tell Jia honestly about Ha-eun.’
A decision that I couldn’t keep even though I had already repeated it in my mind several times.
But she was sincere this time.
The more you procrastinate, the more you hide, the bigger the wounds each other will receive.
And it’s a story that’s close to an excuse, but Dohyeon has made an effort that he can do in his own way.
She has been avoiding a private relationship with her since about a month ago when she rejected Ha-eun’s invitation to go to her motel.
Still, she couldn’t refuse the request of her goddess, which was often done, so she usually did her best to satisfy her Ha-eun so that her desire would not arise.
Of course, that alone would not justify the actions so far.
‘I’m going to ask for forgiveness from Jia and reveal everything to Ha-eun.’
Wei Ying.
“Uh?”
Could heaven help him with his decision? Just then, I got a call from Jia.
Do-hyeon made up his mind once again and answered the phone.
—
Jia’s room where Dohyeon entered was quiet.
Her atmosphere, which seems stiff today.
He was worried about what he said over the phone, but Dohyeon tried to ignore it.
It was because it seemed that if I was swayed by other thoughts, my hard-won resolution would be shaken again.
For the same reason, Dohyeon spoke first before Jia brought up the main topic.
“It’s amazing. I also had something to say to Jia.”
“…Is it so?”
Fortunately, Jia shows interest in the words of this side.
Do-hyeon stood in front of Jia, who was standing with an unknown expression on his face, and he spat out the words he had swallowed several times.
“Actually… I’ve had relationships with other women besides Jia.”
Jia tried hard to hide the sign of her heart sinking.
I was taken aback because I didn’t know Dohyeon would speak about it first, but he calmly kept his mouth shut and waited for the next words.
Dohyeon was also embarrassed by the unexpected silence, but he soon calmed down and continued his confession.
“At first, she couldn’t help it because of her goddess’ request. On the day she had her first relationship with that woman, she tried to tell Mr. Jia the truth… But for some reason, she was scared and couldn’t. I’m so sorry.”
Jia just listened quietly.
She didn’t reveal that she had already heard from Ha-eun, because she wanted to hear Do-hyeon’s sincerity.
Understanding her silence as a message to keep talking, Do-hyun lowered his head and spoke again.
“The request of her goddess is unavoidable, and she thought of Jia, so she at least tried to avoid having a personal relationship with her. But…”
Dohyun tried hard to suppress his pounding heart and explained in as much detail as possible.
The fact that Ha-eun, who was living apart from her parents, felt sorry for her and treated her well.
She even heard from the goddess that her parents had abandoned her.
The fact that her unaware Ha-eun told her the truth before she received a bigger wound, and the thing she had a bed with to comfort her greatly shocked, everything.
“She’s completely alone without me, so I couldn’t say no. I’m so sorry.”
“…”
Silence weighed down on her shoulders.
Dohyeon kept shaking his head.
Now that he has conveyed his true feelings, he is prepared to face Jia’s anger head-on.
However, what he heard was different from what he expected.
“Dohyun-ssi… Why is Dohyeon-ssi so kind?”
“…Yes?”
“If you say you’re sorry when you’re so honest, what are you going to do with me? You can’t be angry.”
“No. It’s my fault, so please be angry with me. I’ll take it for granted even if you hit me.”
Jia, who had tears in her eyes before she knew it, shouted.
“How is that! She said that she felt sorry for the child and was nice to her! How could she be angry with such a nice person…”
“Mr. Jia.”
“…Actually, I knew about Ha-eun.”
A look of embarrassment spread across Dohyeon’s face.
“I beg your pardon?”
“There was an opportunity and we became close a month ago. And yesterday I heard Ha-eun talking about Do-hyun. So I knew.”
“…”
“At first, I was so angry and felt betrayed. I hated myself because I thought I was an easy girl to play with. So today, after listening to Dohyeon’s story, if he really played with me, I tried to curse and beat him as much as I wanted. But…”
“Jia-san…”
“Ugh, ugh…”
Jia can’t control her emotions and cries.
Still, she forced herself to swallow and continued.
“I feel so sorry for Ha-eun. Because of me, I can’t properly connect with the person I like. But what should I do?
“It’s my fault, so please be angry. It’s all my fault that I didn’t tell Jia-san from the beginning and that I couldn’t clearly draw a line with Ha-eun, so please beat me until I feel 120009.”
Her heart aches for her guilt and sorry.
Rather, Dohyeon was hoping that Jia would really damage him.
He lowered his head as a sign of his heart, but what returned was not a fist but a trembling voice.
“Dohyun… What do you think of that child? A younger sister or a girl?”
“… To be honest, I think of her as a woman. But I won’t be like that anymore. After confessing to Jia, I was going to tell her too.
“…Ugh, ugh.”
Jia, who hugged her knees as if they were collapsing, sobbed in a sad voice.
Dohyeon stood still, unable to approach and hug him or pat him on the shoulder.
He just regretted his past choices and cursed himself in his heart.
It was a time when the two were buried in their respective emotions.
A pure white light suddenly emanated from one side of the room.
The two looked at the place, forgetting what they had just said, and an unexpected person was standing in the place where the light was gone.
“…Haeun?”
“Huh? Oppa! Does Jia have an unnie?”
“Ha, Ha Eun-ah.”
“She cries sister? Why does she cry. She doesn’t cry!”
Ha-eun ran to the crouching Jia and lowered her body together, hugging her.
It seemed to her that the fact that her beloved sister was crying was more important to her than figuring out her situation.
Dohyeon, who had been watching him blankly, came to his senses belatedly and asked.
“Haeun-ah, how did this happen?”
“I don’t know. The Goddess suddenly appeared and said that there was a place I had to go to. So… Did her brother come because of the Goddess? But why is she…”
“She was sent by the Goddess?”
After a while, Dohyeon immediately realized the goddess’ intentions.
‘You’re telling me to tie the knot here.’
There is no certainty.
But Dohyeon thought that was the only reason.
Because the goddess who is always sorry and doesn’t know what to do probably didn’t send her Ha-eun with the intention of creating a mess for her.
Having thought that far, he made up his mind and opened his mouth, which did not come off easily.
“Haeun, I have something to tell you.”
The confession was as detailed and discreet as it was to her Jia.
Before Ha-eun, she met the goddess with Jia.
Even before she met Ha-eun, she had a crush on Jia.
They became very close now, until she felt guilty towards Jia for having a relationship with Ha-eun.
Ha-eun didn’t say a word while the story continued.
Perhaps because so many facts suddenly came into her head, she blankly looked up at Do-hyeon while holding Jia.
However, Dohyeon could not stop.
In the end, it was a truth that Ha-eun also needed to know, so she forced her lips to harden.
“I honestly told Jia everything about our business. I should have told Jia and Ha-eun earlier… I’m really sorry.”
“Then… Does Jia unnie like her brother too?”
“…”
“Your brother likes Jia’s sister too?”
Instead of Jia not answering, Dohyun nodded.
And now it was time for him to bring out what he really wanted to convey to Ha-eun.
Let’s stay as close brothers and sisters, not an abnormal relationship where we mix bodies even though we’re not lovers.
Even now she sees herself through her innocent eyes, afraid to hurt her, but even so, she couldn’t avoid it anymore.
“… Ha Eun-ah.”
“Wait a minute, Dohyun.”
Jia, who had been quiet, stood up from her seat.
Her firm expression showed that she knew what Dohyeon was trying to say.
“Mr. Dohyeon. Do you also have feelings for Haeun?”
“…Yes. But now, clean up-.”
“No.”
After cutting off Dohyeon’s words, Jia continued.
“I’ll give up.”
“I beg your pardon?”
“Sister…?”
“Mr. Do-hyeon said. Ha-eun said that without Mr. Do-hyeon, she would be completely alone. How could she stand to see that happen?”
Jia’s voice was determined, as if she had already made up her mind.
But it couldn’t stop the water droplets around her eyes from getting bigger and bigger.
“Since I’m fine, Dohyun-ssi, please stay by Haeun’s side.”
Leaving behind Do-hyeon, whose hair was white and her mouth was pouting, Jia turned her head to Ha-eun.
“Haeun-ah, my brother said he was worried because he only saw you as a younger sister. You don’t have to worry about that anymore. Mr. Dohyeon did it because I was in love with him, so he’ll be honest with you from now on.”
“Then what about your sister…?”
“I’m fine. It’s just going back to the old days…”
“…”
Silence to the point of suffocating.
Jia held back her tears, fearing shed tears, and Dohyeon couldn’t believe the situation and couldn’t say anything.
It was none other than Haeun who broke the silence.
“Ah!”
Dohyeon and Jia’s eyes gather at the sudden outburst.
For some reason, Ha-eun’s voice that followed was lively, unlike the situation.
“The Goddess knew what she meant!”
“What is that…”
Jia muttered in bewilderment, but a smile spread across Haeun’s bright expression.
“Because the goddess said that when she sent me here! Whatever the situation, tell me honestly what I want. And now I’ve remembered what I want to do! Unnie Jia!”
Jia, who called her name, as well as Dohyeon looked at her questioning faces, and Haeun shouted without hesitation.
“Let’s go out with Dohyeon oppa!”
