Chapter 94 – 094 the Inner Mind
Tumbling..
While walking down the street. I glanced at Yoon Hye-yoon next to me.
Her chest protruding from the straps of her bag and her new white long nape.
And even her body odor that subtly emanates from her side.
I was fine because I wasn’t sweating, but Yoon Hye-yoon was covered in sweat all over her body.
Before she left the gym, she took a quick shower.
Thanks to her, her smell tickled my nose every time she walked.
I feel it every time, but I don’t know why a woman’s body smells so good.
Same with Shin Ah-young and Yoon Hye-yoon.
The skin tissue seemed to have a completely different structure.
5 minutes of walking while matching each other’s pace.
When I entered a place with many restaurants, I opened my mouth first.
“Is there anything you want to eat? I’ll buy it for you today.”
“I’m fine with anything, so choose what you want to eat.”
“You know that word is the most difficult menu, right?”
“I know, but… It’s really okay. It’s my personality that doesn’t cover anything.”
A face that will eat whatever I choose.
I started looking through the signs and looking for something suitable.
I just came back from working out, so I could see something that would suit me.
“How about naengmyeon?
“Naengmyeon? Yes. Good. Are there any around here?”
“There’s one over there on the second floor. See the red sign?”
“Oh, there you are. I was craving something cool, but I’ll go right away.”
I wondered what would happen if I refused.
I see you nod your head hard. The menu selection seemed good.
When we entered the restaurant, it was full of people.
I understand it’s dinner time, but seeing that there are so many, it seemed like a pretty good restaurant.
“Welcome! How old are you?”
“Two people.”
“You can go to the table over there.”
“Yes. Thank you.”
When I put my bag down and waited, a young part-timer came and handed me the menu.
I turned it aside so Yoon Hye-yoon could see it too. I looked through it from top to bottom.
Actually, if you come to a naengmyeon restaurant, it’s only natural that you have to order naengmyeon.
It was also fun to see what they were selling.
“I’ll have cold noodles. What about Hye-yoon?”
“I’m cold noodles too.”
“Then I’ll order 2 cold noodles. Excuse me!”
After I placed an order with the part-timer from earlier. The menu was returned.
And the awkwardness came back.
It felt like only the two of us were on an isolated island in a noisy restaurant.
She coaxed her into eating her food to catch her, but even here it wasn’t her topic to talk about.
I poured water and spoke lightly.
“What did you do during the day today?”
“Ah! Thank you. I was the same as usual. I took classes, reviewed for final exams… Um.”
“Did you study a lot? There are about two weeks left.”
“I think I can finish it with just two more subjects.
“That’s what everyone would do? Unless you’re a professor.”
“I see… How good would it be to memorize it all at once?”
As we were chatting, two bowls of naengmyeon arrived on the table.
I think it’s only been 5 minutes since I ordered. I really liked how quickly it came out.
When I stirred it with chopsticks, the noodles turned out to be tougher than I expected.
Yoon Hye-yoon also felt that way, she was acting the same as me.
“Shall I cut it?”
“Ah, yes! Do it twice, please.”
When I asked with her scissors, she held out her bowl towards me.
After cutting the scissors twice as requested. We moved chopsticks together.
Hungry, she mumbled incessantly at her mouth.
It was good to see them eating well, to the point where I wondered if this was the feeling of being full just by watching them eat.
“Ha.. It was delicious. Thank you for buying it.”
“It’s nothing special. He must have been hungrier than that. He ate well.”
“I guess it’s just because I worked hard.”
“Okay?”
When I came out after the calculation, the sky became dark before I knew it.
On the contrary, dazzling lights were illuminating the street.
I think the time has come to talk, I said while pointing in the direction of the park.
“Shall we take a walk?”
“Yes..”
There was a distinctly different atmosphere from before.
Even as I walked, I kept thinking about how to get the words out.
Even though it doesn’t seem like a big deal, the tension made my heart beat faster.
Soon we passed a noisy and colorful place, and entered a place where we could hear grass bugs.
We walked all the way inside, looking for a suitable place.
Soon I was sitting on a bench that was dimly lit by a street lamp.
I tapped her leg and looked at her for a moment.
I started talking quietly.
“Is there anything you’d like to ask?”
“Ah, yes… What is your relationship with Shin Ah-young? The moans I heard that night…”
“To answer the first question… It’s a relationship I can’t exactly define.”
“Yeah? What is that…”
“It’s a mixed relationship. They’re not girlfriends, and the process is a bit complicated.”
“Mixed bodies…”
“Yes. You did not misunderstand what happened that day.”
“As expected..That’s it.”
I knew there would be a reaction, but contrary to what I expected, her expression was calm.
The relationship between me and Yoon Hye-yoon. Because we had sex without dating.
I thought I didn’t understand to some extent.
“To sum it up, we didn’t have girlfriends. We had sex. This is it, right?”
“So…You can see it.”
“Then, the noise all night. Did you really just keep going without a break?”
“Yes. Almost.”
“Ha..”
Pausing for a moment, she looked at me and let out a big sigh.
It didn’t mean disappointment or pathetic, but it seemed to have a strong meaning of being fortunate.
“Well, it’s fine as long as it’s not a girlfriend. Now that I hear it, it’s empty.”
“I thought it was a bit serious because Hyeyoon kept avoiding it.”
“There was a side like that, but… Did it stand out like that?”
“Yes. Anyone would think that, seeing as Shin A-young became contemplative as soon as she saw me in the elevator.”
Haha… Did you feel that way?”
Yoon Hye-yoon slightly turned her head and scratched her head as if she was embarrassed.
She watched the people strolling quietly, and she straightened her hair that was blowing in the wind.
It looked like he had something to say, so I waited patiently, looking at the same place.
After a while Words slowly came out of her mouth, which seemed unwilling to open for a long time.
“Emotions come out on my face. It’s funny even if Woojin sees it, isn’t it?”
“No. Not at all.”
“You don’t have to lie. To be honest, since I was in school, my friends used to tease me a lot about how you show your emotions on your face.”
“Looks like you’ve been like that for a long time.”
“Yes. But I hated it so much. I felt like a toy. So I practiced keeping my expressionless.”
She held her breath for a moment.
She calmed down her quickened tone and spoke again in a calmer tone.
“I’ve been living like that so far, so it didn’t work out. Should I say it’s a bit of a trauma or a weakness… I have to fix it. I was concentrating on pretending to be serious for no reason. I often left out one or two things.”
Hearing her inner thoughts for the first time.
It was the moment when the reason why he behaved 2% less than in a strange place even though he was usually bright and cheerful was revealed.
“I rather liked that look. Don’t think too badly of it.”
“I don’t know because I haven’t experienced it myself. It’s a little stressful when everyone around me makes fun of me every once in a while. It’s hard to pass it over with a smile every time.”
“Everyone does that because Hyeyoon is pretty. She is responsive and cute.”
I honestly admit that I have a taste for teasing.
Even if he acted seriously, it was obvious, and he was joking around because he showed all his thoughts.
I don’t think they meant anything bad either.
That’s how it was in light of my experience.
There are quite a lot of things that come to mind right now.
When I rang the doorbell asking if I needed a drinking buddy.
When you catch me to do yoga together.
When I asked her to watch a movie in her room.
Although the method was clumsy and the intention was obvious.
That kind of absurd side was cute, so I let go of it even though I knew it.
“Not everyone is serious about it. Don’t take it too seriously.”
At my last words, she stared at me for a long time.
And the falling leaves between us seemed to be a signal flare.
He asked in a serious voice.
“Mr. Woojin.”
“Yes.”
“You asked why I was avoiding you earlier. Are you curious?”
“Of course I’m curious.”
It was simply that I was attached to Shin Ah-young.
There was no reason to avoid it so openly.
“First of all, the superficial reason was that I thought I had a girlfriend. Once I have a girlfriend, it’s right to clean up the relationship. As a normal neighbor again.”
“So what’s the real reason?”
“Do you remember what I said last week when you were with me?”
I tried to roll my head as far as I could.
However, too big and many things have happened in the meantime, and the scope of the question was too ambiguous.
Nothing came to mind.
Still, it’s better to be honest than to lie.
I just said I don’t know.
“Sorry. I can’t remember exactly.”
“It’s okay. It could be. Then I suddenly disappear, or do it when I ask. Do you remember when I said this?
“Ah! Yes. I remember.”
“Just a week after you said that. What do you think you would think if you suddenly heard another woman moaning in the room next door?”
“…”
“Of course, we’re not dating. I’m well aware that I’m not in a position to force you to do anything. But… I wonder if it was done to get me away on purpose. That’s what I thought.”
“I’m not at all…”
“I saw that he came to me today too, so I knew he had no intention of doing that. But at that time… Did I do something that would make me sick of him, did he hate me. Am I being abandoned again? I really worried a lot.”
When I heard that, my conscience was pricked.
The words and actions I said lightly.
It seemed to her that it had been a great wound.
“If… Even if I end up continuing with Shin Ah-yeong, can you still .. Relationship with me? I… There’s nothing better than Shin Ah-young. Her face and body ..”
Yoon Hye-yoon looks at me while blurring the end of her words.
I was on the verge of having to say I’m sorry for not caring about you.
Rather, it turned out to be the opposite.
