It’s not okay, la.
It was nonsense. No one else knew, but this woman in front of her could not do that.
This kid is really making fun of me. So, even with such a lie, you can do it casually without changing a single expression on your face.
“Did anything bad happen? Did you even fight Dojin?”
He said while pressing his hand on his moving neck.
“Whatever it is, shouldn’t we keep the minimum courtesy? It’s difficult for me to come here every weekend morning and do this.”
“⋯⋯.”
“You know you are busy these days. Do I really need to come and talk to me on a day off like this? Are you hurting each other?”
“A day off, yo.”
Ga-ryun Yu, who spoke like a spit, walked inside and then began to step towards the living room.
“No, what are you doing-”
“sister.”
Chae Seol-ha followed with an annoyed expression, and Yu Ga-ryun opened her mouth, looking at her with cold, subdued eyes.
“Is this a break?”
In Yu Ga-ryun’s hand was an ashtray full of curled cigarette butts.
what.
Did you smoke that much?
Chaseol-ha looked at the ashtray slowly with bewildered eyes, as if he couldn’t believe it himself.
“If you are going to lie, do it plausibly.”
Yu Ga-ryun opened the curtain with those words, and then a strong flash of light came through the window, accompanied by pain as if it had cut out her eyes.
Now, all the darkness that had fallen deep in the woman’s room was gone. So,
A chair leaning to the left with a broken leg, an upside-down TV with a crack, a bottle of wine rolling about on the floor, torn and disorganized clothes, and packs of cigarettes strewn all over the room. also.
It was a sound that showed it very clearly.
Then the window opened with a bang.
The wind from beyond the blue sky blew into her nose the musty smell of cigarettes and alcohol stuck in Chae Seol-ha’s room.
It was time to wake up.
“⋯⋯.”
Actually it wasn’t okay. If I didn’t smoke because of an unknown feeling of nervousness, my hands and feet were shaking all day long, and I couldn’t sleep without alcohol at night.
What’s more, he felt like he was about to break himself if he didn’t break something every two days because of the rage that was boiling in his heart all the time.
delinquent, or virtuous person (棄人). It was none other than herself who knew her condition best.
But how? All of them were caused by their own karma.
So I tried to understand. No matter how painful it was, I tried to accept it with patience.
But she was not Prometheus. She was just a person.
Even if he tries to pretend to be detached, he is an insignificant and weak person who cannot hide the filthy emotions that flow from within.
Yu Ga-ryun was frustrated with Chae Seol-ha like that. And somehow, I was angry with myself, who seemed to understand that feeling.
“⋯⋯If you repeat lies that you don’t even want in that way.”
Ga-ryun Yoo, who was approaching her, wrapped her arms around Chae Seol-ha.
“Are you thinking that one day everything will be resolved?”
A single word, a lie, pierced Chae Seol-ha’s heart. It was also heard that he did not give up even after showing such an ugly appearance.
“Nothing⋯⋯.”
He licked his lips as if to make an excuse. The words came out of reflex out of shame.
“Without knowing anything⋯⋯.”
Don’t be rude. The words she had in her heart were always the same.
No matter how much garbage you have, you have a sense of humor. But why didn’t everyone understand his heart and his resolve?
Oh Min-seo, whom I met last time at the hospital, and Yu Ga-ryun, who is acting in front of me right now, why are they in such a hurry to ignore me and ridicule me?
actually knowing everything.
If you’ve ever had a person in your heart, you’d know for sure.
“Don’t talk recklessly on topics you don’t know anything about.”
But before the words could be finished, Yu Ga-ryun cut off the horse’s waist.
“Your sister.”
Then he stared at Chae Seol-ha with those powerful eyes.
“You must have thought that everything would be resolved if you just give up on yourself.”
“⋯⋯.”
Chuck was once again a shrewd doctor, and anger erupted at the younger woman who revealed every bit of darkness in her heart, but there was nothing she should say back.
because it was true
Ga-ryun Yu continued talking while watching Seol-ha Chae, who was staring at her with a red face.
“Yeah, I like him. Okay, I think I’m going crazy.”
Red veins appeared in Chae Seol-ha’s eyes. It was a fact I knew in the evening, but it was another matter to hear it through my lips so proudly.
“⋯⋯Then you know well why I am doing this.”
“Right.”
Yu Ga-ryun whispered quietly as she pushed her face closer.
“So that makes it even hotter.”
“What?”
“You know what?”
Yu Ga-ryun reached out and grabbed Cha Seol-ha, who was trying to pull her face out of the strange pressure.
“My sister doesn’t look at her face when talking to people.”
“You, you⋯⋯.”
“You don’t know what the face of the person in front of you is making your own judgment, running away, and hiding.”
Towards Chae Seol-ha, who was struggling, Ga-ryun Yu said in a cold voice.
“If I lie about giving up on a topic I haven’t given up at all, try to hide it, try to laugh forcibly, try not to say anything because I’m afraid it will be revealed in the dark, and end up in a corner like this, pretending to be someone I don’t have from the beginning, will I be happy if I do that? Now that the disturbers are gone, can we live happily ever after?”
Yu Ga-ryun’s hand, which was holding Chae Seol-ha’s face, bounced off with a rough hand. But that gaze still had the momentum to pierce Chae Seol-ha’s eyes.
“Don’t look down on people.”
“Then what are you going to do?”
“If you like it, you can say you like it!”
“Then you!”
Chae Seol-ha exhaled a colorful breath and said as if squeezing.
“It’s because of you, it’s because of you that I’m doing this right now!”
“Don’t blame others!”
Chae Seol-ha’s eyes widened at the first time she heard her brother’s enraged voice.
“Do you think it will be over someday if you just spend time blaming others like that? Do you think it will disappear like that after a while, as if it did not exist from the beginning?”
“⋯⋯.”
“It’s all lies. No matter how much time passes⋯⋯.”
Ga-ryun Yu’s sharp fingers pierced the center of Chae Seol-ha’s chest.
“It remains, here.”
Hearing those words that pressed against his chest and ripped his heart out, he couldn’t even move.
“It will remain for me, my brother, and everyone else.”
can’t go back
Even if you come here and do a show called Atonement, you can’t make everything as if it didn’t exist in the first place.
I knew the truth. And he was fully aware that that absurd act would hurt everyone and block the way forward.
In the end, the reason she refused Yu-jin’s confession was simply because she was afraid.
Even if we dated, it was obvious that we would end up breaking up. Because he can’t overcome his bad temper and it’s sure to end badly. I’m going to hurt him again and roll him up.
The courage to overcome the obvious hardships did not exist in the woman who told her to dig.
If so, I wanted to pretend to be audacious at the very least. Although he committed countless evil deeds, in the end, he wanted to remain in his memory as a woman who reflects.
“⋯⋯Then.”
But what about them?
After all, I have nothing left of myself. I’ve never received anything.
Then you might be able to concede at least one small thing like that.
“Are you telling me to make sacrifices for you?”
“I beg your pardon?”
“Why do I have to be on a ship that is sure to sink?”
“What else is that ⋯⋯!”
“It’s great, you.”
Chae Seol-ha said while pushing Yu Ga-ryun’s chest.
“Because I have never been sober. I could have brought it if I wanted, so I can say such carefree things⋯⋯.”
But he was different. If he had come and confessed his heart now, it was obvious that he would not be able to defeat Yu Ga-ryun or the other people hanging around him. As always.
“To be honest, you want to see me break up and cry. ‘Cause you’ve been tormented by me for so long Is not it? I mean⋯⋯.”
Chae Seol-ha smirked.
“I hate b*tches like you the most. I was pitiful, so I played with him a little bit, but he didn’t know from what point he started climbing and he looked down and ignored people as if he knew everything.”
As he looked at Yu Ga-ryun’s face, which grew more miserable as the words continued, he raised the poison in his heart.
“I have no intention of doing that, so stop preaching the damn thing—”
“sister.”
As soon as he saw the hand that flew with the sound of shouts, he closed his eyes tightly. yes, this is what it was made of
However, what he felt was not a pain, but a warm warmth felt near his chest.
“I have already gone too far.”
There were good memories as much as there were bad memories, and the affection that permeated as deeply as the hateful poison was evident in their hearts.
It takes time and effort to cut the hardened cement.
“⋯⋯If you really want to end it, please come up with a valid reason and convince me.”
Those words that seemed to appease a lying child, with a somewhat lonely scent, gently caressed Chae Seol-ha’s poisonous lips.
And not long after, a thunderbolt-like sound resounded throughout the room.
“⋯⋯Get out.”
Chae Seol-ha said to Yu Ga-ryun, who looked at her while holding her cheeks that began to bloom red.
“I will come again.”
“Get out!”
“Keep going.”
He sat down in front of the door just as he had chased away Yu Ga-ryun.
It was funny. The world that used to clench its teeth when they wanted to be loved, now doesn’t hate them even if they slap them on the cheek.
Then how the hell do you get hated? How the hell do you think you can deceive others?
“⋯⋯, wow.”
If you do something wrong, you should be punished. By doing so, we must continue the Atonement. That fact doesn’t change.
But now that even that single ray of light is blocked, what should he do? How can I bear the sins I have committed?
I do not know.
And probably nobody will tell you.
She rubbed her tightly closed eyes and tried to scrape away the tears that leaked out, but it was almost impossible to wipe away all the sticky tears that were constantly flowing.
