9 – Good Madness
“Wow….”
The way back was a bridge built over the river. The thread of tension suddenly snapped, and my legs relaxed as well. As the strength in her legs, which were already suffering from aftereffects, was relieved, her balance faltered like a candle in front of the wind.
I managed to grab hold of the railing and leaned against it, catching my breath.
Of course, the transformation was canceled.
“I almost died…”
die, die Is it because I’ve been listening to it a lot lately? I didn’t feel good.
Now I know for sure.
Death is truly frightening. The primary purpose of life is survival. For that reason, it has evolved and developed as a society.
So, what I just did is to deny the history of life that has been built up so far.
Suicide, to put it bluntly.
Come to think of it, there was no crazy thing like this.
To charge at constellation-class monsters while still not being able to properly use their powers.
“If it wasn’t for the contradiction, he would have died.”
Keeper of the balance, I have to thank that crazy bastard who is a sexist. In fact, if I had fought with him, the odds of winning might have been surprisingly high. The problem is that even if I beat the two like that, in a one-on-one situation, I’ll be killed by the contradiction.
I bought it thanks to the whim of the dilemma.
It was embarrassing, but I didn’t regret it too much.
Still, that was the best decision I made there.
It left no room for cooperation.
‘Now those crazy bastards won’t suddenly invite you.’
Instead, the fight is confirmed the moment they run into each other on the roadside, but it doesn’t really matter since they’re enemies anyway.
“70 billion…”
Rather, it was the amount that I regretted.
“Didn’t you take it and get it… Mr. Ha… 70 billion…”
I regretted it madly.
As soon as I received it, I thought I would have jumped while riding a bike with Megrez tall.
Of course, if that was the case, Libra, who prefers a fair price, would not have forgiven him.
How many times do I have to touch that kind of money in my life?
It must be money that even a magical girl who appears on the media with advertisements and other things would not be easy to touch.
Even before I was possessed with stupid words.
I…..
“…?”
what did you live for
Oh right. I lived while working part-time and preparing for the exam.
Saying he didn’t want to show his face in front of people at his age, he worked in a dark kitchen or something and studied for the exam in his spare time.
Come to think of it, these are embarrassing memories.
I shook my head and brushed the memory away.
Come to think of it, my life is not that different from Jaejoong Han. I feel a sense of unity.
Did they become possessed because they were so similar?
anyway.
He sang the belt, brooding over the regret of having evaporated 70 billion into the air.
“Hey belt.”
It flew over the river in the form of a smooth iron ball and came right in front of my face at my call.
[What are you doing?]
“Quest reward. Is that a piece of a star?”
Belt answered in a still inorganic voice.
[you’re right. You can obtain and collect star fragments from defeated monsters to finally complete the star.]
“But why didn’t you tell me until now?”
This belt fooled me.
There was such an assumption, but it was another assumption that dominated my head.
[The current Guardian is burdened.]
I’m not at the level where I can afford it yet.
‘I knew it.’
He nodded his head at the answer he expected. I felt sick to my stomach.
Chilseongbogak, which was written with all its might with such anger, has a reproduction rate of only three percent. The most familiar recall rate is 58%.
A disappointing figure.
What if it’s seven stars? The person who uses that power can’t handle even half of it.
In the first place, what was the object I had to recreate?
what is suho?
If I’m not protected now, I’m on the verge of dying.
She was branded as a monster by magical girls, but excluded by Dilemma.
I don’t know who to protect. I wish someone would protect me.
oh so pitiful me
help me.
“Oh no!”
As soon as I had that thought, someone hugged me from behind and pushed me to the floor. what is assassination
I woke up and looked up, and there was a familiar face somewhere.
“…Mr. Vega?”
“Now, no suicide!”
Since the transformation was canceled, there was no such thing as inhumanly fantastic red hair and a conspicuous dress, but it was immediately apparent. With her plain black long hair flowing, she said to me.
“Han Jaejoong, no matter how hard things are, don’t try to die!”
Apparently, they mistook it for suicide when I muttered blankly with my eyes on the river.
“Oh, it’s not like that.”
“Don’t lie! I was about to impulsively drown myself in the river while wandering the streets at night without being able to heal a single wound in my heart because of my poor counseling!”
“Your imagination is specific. I’m not really like that…”
I was talking to Belt. Before that, I was completely exhausted from facing the monster.
‘I’m crazy to say that.’
I’m not advertising because I’m the monster I met today.
I hurriedly picked out the words and spat them out.
“That river… is really pretty… so I was just looking at it…”
It’s a lame lie. I realized it even as I spit it out.
‘Do you believe me…?’
I saw Red Vega with the mind of some kind. She blinked her eyes for a moment and met their gaze. It was so burdensome that when I looked away, I shed tears like chicken droppings.
“Don’t lie…!”
damn it i don’t believe it either
She shed tears, perhaps from embarrassment or surprise, and grabbed my sleeve tightly and wouldn’t let go.
“No really…”
“Death is a very scary thing… It’s very scary… I can’t die…”
“I’m not dying, I’m not dying.”
As long as you don’t attack. I tried to calm her down and tried to calm her down.
“Hey. I’m really fine.”
“I’m such a pathetic person!! I can’t even save people, so I’m disqualified as a magical girl! Now I’m sure I’ll only fail!!!”
“No, there.”
I will turn what to do with this
A man in his mid-20s who is crying Mija late at night. No matter how you look at it, the picture is not very good. I looked around and tried to find a way out.
“Oh, oh, hey!”
“…Neue?”
“Something to eat! You promised to buy me something delicious next week!”
damn tongue. When I lied earlier, it works like this. I cried out, murmuring at my organs.
“Buy that now!”
**
Hurulup.
“…it’s delicious?”
“Wow, that’s awesome.”
He gorged on cup noodles and gave her a thumbs up.
Red Vega’s expression was not very good.
“I could have bought you something better…”
“Is there a restaurant that’s open tonight? Even if it’s open, it’s all bars, so it’s a little hard to get in.”
“Yeah, but! I make good money!”
“That’s right. She’s a magical girl.”
I saw your face a few times today on posters and billboards.
Thanks to that, the inner intimacy built up well.
How much trouble he had to reach an agreement with the convenience store against Vega, who insisted on taking him to the restaurant. No matter how much it is, it’s not like an adult can’t get something from a child.
He seems to have succeeded in turning his nerves around with the scuffle, and he has become much calmer than before.
“Han Jaejoong, do you think it’s him?”
“You’re not legally a kid.”
“But I’m that magical girl! Defeat monsters! Protect people! You don’t need Han Jaejoong-ssi to be considerate of you!”
“Ah, we have to be considerate of each other and live.”
“It means you don’t have to look into the situation!”
I am not a person without hands or feet, and I can live my life without difficulty. I passed Vega’s words off with a shy smile.
“Ah, don’t you still believe it? Okay, let me show you! Here and now what a perfect magical girl I am…”
“Don’t transform. People flock.”
“…Yeah.”
When the red starlight gathered in her hand like a meteor shower, I quickly expressed disapproval. Look at what stands out. It is the light that sucks the lens of the camera like a gravitational field right now.
In this part, you can only be taken care of.
“I’m sorry, but I can’t stand people’s gazes.”
And going up and down someone’s cubby.
It’s an uncomfortable body no matter how you think about it.
No matter who they are with, they are completely at odds with those who shine my light. Personally, I try not to get involved as much as possible.
But then, how do I take care of the magical girls so they don’t die?
‘…I don’t know. I just need to help by fighting.’
If my primary goal is survival and my secondary goal is full control of this power.
The ultimate goal is to change the ending of this world.
I have to get rid of all the variables that get in the way of my survival.
To do this, all the monsters in Dilemma must be killed.
It is possible with the power of the seven stars. I clenched my fist under the table.
“I’m sorry.”
“What do I need to be sorry for? I didn’t know. I would appreciate it if you would be considerate next time.”
Silence rose with the chilly night wind.
The scenery from the consultation today seemed to overlap. Unlike the original, Red Vega stood out for melancholy rather than passion.
It’s probably because of the first defeat I gave her.
I felt guilty.
“That, Mr. Vega.”
If there is one thing all magical girls have in common.
It is a race that feels happy by helping someone.
Such altruism is the key to making the star’s light more beautiful, and an opportunity for them to become different from the monsters.
“It was really cool today. Actually, I was a little hesitant on the river. Thanks to Vega, I knew it well. Death is really scary. I shouldn’t even try that anymore.”
“…! Yes, yes! Really?”
“Thank you so much for saving me today. It’s just as Vega said. It’s definitely better since I’ve been talking to people.”
“hehehehe, what! This is what all magical girls do!”
In other words, you can restore your self-esteem just by knowing that your actions helped someone.
It’s a lie that she attempted suicide, but from her point of view, it must have been the truth. If I, who saved her by throwing herself, would reflect and express my gratitude, it would serve as a great pleasure.
“Don’t do it again next time, okay? Oh, right! Would you like to exchange contact information? Next time, if you have a hard time, I can always consult…”
As expected, Red Vega’s expression improved. I deliberately ignored the gossip and continued to praise.
“I was so scared today just by looking at the bottom of the river, but Mr. Vega is really amazing. Isn’t it definitely scary to fight such a scary monster every day? Even so.”
“Ah. No.”
The boisterous Red Vega scratched his head shyly. It’s a cartoon-like reaction.
“I’m not afraid of monsters! Death, of course!”
“…death?”
Surprised, I asked with sincerity.
“Of course! I’m a magical girl! You can’t hesitate to protect people! Don’t worry, Han Jaejoong! If you get attacked by a monster, I’ll give my life to protect you!”
“Wow… you are really brave…”
“Whoops, right? Right!”
I thought to myself as I clapped for Vega who worked hard to strike a cool pose.
‘Crazy bitch.’
I felt it from the time I saw the original, but all heroes are basically mentally ill.
To throw away one’s self, which should be the top priority for a living being, and choose to save others.
That’s what good madness is.
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Vega, who replied that she would protect people without caring about her own life, was respectful, and on the other hand, it felt pitiful.
What a pitiful situation.
**
Of course, I’m not in a position to sympathize with anyone.
Since it was late, I stepped into an abandoned factory after refusing Vega’s consideration to send me home.
[Confirm multiple star powers.]
It is also the area where monsters are most likely to appear.
When I arrived following the guidance of the belt, it was teeming with C-class monsters.
Today I just gave up on sleeping. I’ll go to the bank early tomorrow, find out my balance, and then I’ll lie down on a park bench.
Instead of giving up sleep, I chose to experiment for that amount of time.
Noticing this, a monster that looked like a beetle started running.
“transform.”
[ASTRONOMICAL OBSERVATION.]
Stars of seven colors poured from the belt and swam in the air. The stars rushed at the monster running towards me and sent it flying away.
Dismissed!
The monster rolled across the floor, spewing sparks and flames. However, there is not much damage on the outside.
‘As expected, it’s impossible to defeat a monster with just a transformation protection attack.’
The star that pushed the monster came back to me and wrapped itself around me.
The green armor and black skin I’m starting to get used to. The red lenses flashed and illuminated them.
[THE BIG DIPPER.]
“Have you ever seen a star?”
He extended his finger and pointed at them. I couldn’t pinpoint exactly one target. Because there are too many, too many I like it even more.
How much can I use this power now, and what is its power?
It is a very interesting subject of inquiry.
“I won’t make you a star.”
He raised the corner of his mouth covered by the mask and lit up the abandoned factory in the night with starlight.
How many hours had it passed?
The abandoned factory, which was teeming with monsters, was full of ashes, and dents and bent steel frames were visible here and there.
Sunlight streamed through the rusty vents.
I woke up in the morning transformed. It was two days in a row.
“Whoa… I’m going to die.”
I pretended to wipe off the non-flowing sweat and trembled. There is still some stamina left in the body. However, the mental fatigue was considerable.
Now that I’ve finished the experiment properly, I was going to cancel the transformation.
again.
The clear sound of shoes tearing at the dawn of the morning stimulated my ears, so I quickly took my hand off my belt.
“Who are you?”
“One of the people you saw yesterday.”
From the shoes on, a chill circulated through my body.
In fact, thick frost was spreading around the shoes.
“I think our juniors took care of me before.
I got goosebumps. It wasn’t because of the cold. because of discomfort.
“I even spoke to him the other day and he was ignored, which is very sad.”
I turned the buckle to use Alkyd right away, but it misfired.
[Quest occurred. The use of ALKAID has been temporarily restricted.]
‘Ha fuck.’
A pale white dress that was not clean. A blue sapphire decorates its center. The silver necklace and earrings hung on her skin, and her skin was as white as her dress. The blue ribbon amplified the elegant atmosphere by extending it long without tying it. Her hair and eyes were as blue as the polar sea.
Blue Sirius.
“Blue Giant Blue Sirius.”
She said while holding up her main weapon, the rapier.
[Run away from Blue Sirius.]
“I will take you down by the starlight.”
I felt like I was going to die of discomfort.
