27 – The meaning of Suho (5)
The sunset scene covered the world. it was red The stream of light pouring through the window soaked the belt red. There was even a hint of blood. It was hard to breathe. It was because of the tension. The frequent chirping of birds disturbed the silence.
[Do you want to accept?]
Belt asked again. I remembered the first night that could not have been the first day, being chased by a monster without knowing anything.
If there is a difference from that time, then transformation was the way to escape the limbs, but now transformation is the way to walk into the limbs.
I don’t know if it’s a simple rescue or endurance. repulse?
Will I be able to succeed? Right after seeing the power of Libra. Pseudo-divine power. It was impossible to be sure of victory even if you maxed out all seven stars.
My head hurt. He wiped his face with trembling hands. Even with such a small action, my shoulders ached and my body ached. Although the wound healed quickly, it was not cured.
There are many excuses. It’s about the justification to run away, about the justification to give up, overflowing.
Sick body, lack of strength, death when defeated…
The fact that the person you are going to rescue now is a hero, not an ordinary citizen.
The faces of watching civilians and reporters caught on the screen in the TV. There was a glimpse of worry or anxiety in that expression, but beyond that, there was also a weak trust.
‘A magical girl will do something for me.’ trust like that.
In a world where heroism prevails, people take the hero’s sacrifice for granted. even themselves.
My memories before being possessed may be fake, but I still have those values. It was awkward to take a child who hadn’t yet had a proper place in society and have him fight for his life.
Magical girls are girls because all magical girls gain their powers before they become adults.
colorful boy soldier.
I despised the immoral treatment, but on the other hand, I understood it. Because they have power. Because it has a special power like the starlight in the night sky, which is different from the citizens who tremble when they are killed by monsters.
I will yearn for it, I will be jealous of it in a corner of my heart, and I will depend on it in the end. will expect that she would save them. Even if it means sacrificing my own life, they will realize this expectation.
It is a vicarious satisfaction obtained by projecting oneself onto the hero.
Because that’s the weight a hero must carry.
Because being a hero is not only carrying the lives of others, but also carrying their expectations.
People saw the light, not the stars.
I can’t relate to it because I’m far away, I don’t know, and I just shine for a while.
Someday, if it is covered by the majestic light of the day, if it is covered by the artificial light at night, if it is covered by the clouds, and if there is no starlight, it is a heartless gaze that averts its eyes. While the light was floating, it was a self-satisfied gaze that envyed for a long time.
Do only those who see the light have that envy? Wouldn’t the light themselves not have it?
Red Vega’s words came to mind. A maddening saying that one would risk one’s life to protect someone.
The good madness that sustains this world. Leaning on it, she will burn her life today.
I have already suffered defeat several times. I won’t give up even if I come. There is no turning back for those who fight to protect it. Those who have more to lose are more desperate than those who have nothing to lose.
mortal death.
I’m even ready for death.
“Whoa…”
I took a deep breath and exhaled. I rubbed my face with my palms. I was tired. I was sick too. I trembled in fear and suppressed my nausea several times from the trauma.
death is scary
However, that was no reason for me not to act.
[Guardian, please choose.]
I finally realized why I am a Guardian.
After thinking through my fears several times, I came to a conclusion.
I knew the value of my life, I knew what was precious, and I knew my current situation.
Knowing that, I knew that the weight of the words I spit out now was never light.
“Accept.”
I have no regrets about this answer.
The resolution made in fear is firm.
Because it is the answer I came up with knowing the value of my life, the answer is clearer than life.
The shaking of his hands stopped. But the heartbeat was still there. The beat gradually got louder.
My heart beat with excitement.
I woke up on a slightly hard bed in the hospital. Compared to the place where I slept, it was like heaven. It was very unfortunate.
**
I went up to the roof of the hospital and looked down. The cool autumn wind chilled the body even more in a time when the glory of the sun had been lost. It was painful enough to wear thin hospital clothes.
I grabbed the sphere-shaped belt that was floating around.
There is no going back now.
But no regrets.
The belt, which skillfully transformed, suddenly became a buckle resembling a telescope rather than a sphere. I wore it around my waist. The location sent to the brain clearly marked the way.
In fact, I didn’t even need that information. Fireworks erupted between the buildings over there. Someone might have seen it as an ignition of courage, but to me it looked like a beacon.
At the place where the flames spewed out, there is a barrier that only blocks magical girls. Ordinary people can move freely, but there were only people who wanted the barrier removed, and they did not dare to muster up the courage to save those kidnapped inside the barrier.
The way to go was clear.
I grabbed the buckle and attached it to my waist. Cheer up. The wire from the buckle went around the waist and secured it tightly.
The heavy belt made around my waist proved that I, too, had escaped the box of common people. It is power.
I have a special power different from others.
It’s different from those who don’t have power and just want to put themselves in the hero or to be in the same position as themselves.
Even though it is a barrier that they can enter, they are different from those who dare not dare to do so and are only shaking their feet from afar.
Admit it. Asking for courage from them is tyranny. It’s no different from saying that you can’t stand against the monster and die meaninglessly.
But I’m different. There is power.
It might be the same power as the monster. However, the use of that power depends on the user’s inclination.
This power that could easily take someone’s life. The direction of use has already been determined from the past.
He looked up at the darkened sky and murmured.
“Did I see the stars?”
Using the engine-like heartbeat as the sound of transformation, I put my hand on my belt.
“Now, I won’t look away.”
I will find you even in fear.
my ideal.
In order to do that, I had to change this weak body and fragile mind.
that’s why i cried
“transform.”
The protection I have to do.
Only I could do this.
Because I came from a place where this world and values are different, I know that the obvious is not the obvious.
Even if this memory is false, my heart will not change.
Suho is only allowed to me, not to people of this age who take the sacrifice and brilliance of magical girls for granted.
Knowing that they are girls before magical girls, knowing that they are multi-faceted human beings who can be hurt. I know that they are children who should enjoy happiness because they are still too young to shoulder the hard work.
only me
I am the only one who knows the hero’s mental illness and madness.
You may feel the need to protect them.
i saw the stars
[ASTRONOMICAL OBSERVATION.]
observed the stars.
I saw loneliness, not the twinkling of stars.
I watched the fall of the stars.
Knowing their backside, I saw their ending.
I knew it because I could observe it, and because I knew it, I could move on the right path.
If the hero is the guardian who protects the citizens.
Who will protect that guardian?
In a society where the hero’s sacrifice is natural, and even the hero throws away his own life easily, who will protect them?
I will take on that role.
I will become the guardian of the guardian.
I’m not a star. There is no need for the twinkling of stars. There is no need for envy or longing.
Not a star, but a person who sees it.
observer.
Seeing, realizing.
Not those who turn their eyes away in disappointment even when the stars are obscured by darkness, but those who see the stars forever and remember the value of their light.
Those who remember and keep that light.
One who observes and protects.
this is my ideal
I just realized
I just remembered
Starlight filled the belt. Like a star that had sunk in the dark sea rising up, deep and heavy. It contains the vastness of the sea.
In the past, when I was covered in blood and water under an underpass and laughed at by a monster, I was afraid of death, and I was afraid of something else.
Blue Sirius. I was afraid of her guilt. I was afraid of her who would blame herself for something that wasn’t her fault and who would be so sad.
That sadness was fear.
Not just her, but all magical girls. They will not seek compensation for their hardships and sacrifices, but will only miss life like the grains of sand they have missed.
It was compassion that reached the end of the pain, and at the end of that compassion, I saw a constellation.
[THE BIG DIPPER.]
Big Dipper.
A group of stars that guided the lost. He looked at it and stretched out his hand.
You can take your life just give me strength May you live among them and give them the strength to pursue a path that will not make them sad.
Holding the star in my hand like that, I survived. He gained strength and was able to survive among the monsters.
I wasn’t ruled by the stars, nor was I chosen by the stars.
i picked a star
What I carry is neither desire nor duty, but will and responsibility.
the stars are merciless
The price for giving strength is definitely paid.
If you don’t move, you will only die. If you break your promise, you will die. Only receive the delayed death there.
this is my origin
[ORIGIN.]
transformation or death.
Know the origin, know the ideal, know what to do. It was a firm resolution found in fear.
Seven stars rose from the belt, crossed the sky, and touched my body again.
Clear armor appeared in the haze, and they wrapped around my body.
It was an armor with cracks everywhere, as if it would collapse at any moment. But this insecurity was not a reason to back down.
There is no hesitation in this step.
I was sure of the way I was going.
**
Red Vega swung his fist. In addition to the momentum of the flame, it was a fist with the power to easily break down the wall of a building.
However, Libra accepted it with her heart.
“You are helpless!”
He also raised his fist and hit Red Vega in the stomach. A groan of pain came out of his mouth, accompanied by a grotesque sound like leather being twisted.
“Big, black…”
Unable to overcome the shock, Red Vega flew away from the sky. It wasn’t the flight he intended.
Like all wingless beasts, Red Vega’s body, which swooped up and returned to the ground, rolled violently on the ground.
At that point, there were citizens who needed to be protected.
“Red Vega…”
anxious voice. It means that you are not good at the present time. Red Vega burned its will again.
“it’s okay!”
He took a deep breath and stood up again, clenching his fists.
[tutelar….]
Red Vega gritted his teeth.
Do I have to write this number after all? But now there was no turning back. Endurance is also limited. Reinforcements show no signs of coming.
If he was a hero, he had to risk his life.
[Sue, Guardian, no way… No! If you do that, you…]
“Sorry Ribbon.”
Red Vega grinned.
“I don’t think I can keep my promise.”
In the center of the ribbon at the nape of her neck, the jewel there burned like lava.
“I’m here… huh?”
Kwaaang!!!
Huge flames spewed towards Libra. It wasn’t from Red Vega. Right next to her, to the right, red-green flames rose viciously.
“You’re still weak.”
A man walked out, scattering the flames.
“Get out of the way, poor thing.”
A green giant wearing the sign of the Big Dipper on his belt. Although she was wearing red armor now, she was not mistaken.
“That guy is my enemy.”
A monster who has helped her countless times.
The monster from the Big Dipper is here.
