165 – I am not in my right mind
Water was sprayed in the air. The water droplets that sparkled in the sunlight gathered together and fell down. The direction is above Han Jaejoong’s face.
Wow.
The cool sound of water tapped my tightly closed eyelids. Water entering the respiratory tract interfered with breathing, and water evaporating took away body heat. Above all, the pain of being hit by water was enough to make me run away from the surface.
With my consciousness restored, I overcame the mounting headache and opened my eyes.
“You guys are so cold….”
“Oh, you didn’t search?”
“I see you woke up.”
As soon as I woke up, what I saw were disgusting faces. It was uncomfortable to stare at this monster due to its uniquely hideous appearance.
Han Jaejoong pushed his wet hair back from his forehead and sighed heavily.
“hehehe… Wake up the crazy people normally.”
“No, you should not get up properly.”
The archer threw the bucket he was holding. The bucket, which had just been filled with water, rolled to the floor with a clinking sound.
“By the way, I stopped you.”
“Is this bastard a traitor?!”
It was difficult to hear loud noises as soon as I woke up. Han Jaejoong pressed his forehead and groaned in pain. This headache wasn’t just because of that.
“How long have you been passed out?”
“I didn’t sleep that much. “About an hour?”
“I really didn’t sleep much….”
Han Jaejoong sighed again. His body temperature dropped along with the water droplets dripping from his hair, and on the contrary, his heart began to beat rapidly, warming his body. He fired his will.
“f*cking bastard, I will definitely kill you….”
I will kill the contradictions that have ruined me. That was all I could think about right now.
“Hey, really, what is that guy? It looked so f*cking dangerous. “Why are you hanging out with such dangerous people?”
“You are that dangerous bastard too.”
“Ah, I guess that’s why it’s romantic. “The thrill of deliberately going through a dangerous place….”
“Romance is a plague. “I don’t have anything like that.”
I stumbled while trying to get up. Jason grabbed Han Jaejoong’s arm.
“Ike, be careful.”
“Okay… Thank you.”
“But is this really true? “The life expectancy has become even shorter than it is now…”
Han Jaejoong looked at his belt.
[…It’s true. The current guardian’s life expectancy is exactly 30 days.]
“Ha, it’s going to turn, really….”
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The belt told us about our future lifespan, as if the security of the information had already become meaningless after hearing it from the monster. I didn’t want to believe it, but when he said that, I had no choice but to believe it.
The remaining lifespan is thirty days. Exactly one month.
It is too short a time to be called the life of a young man in his twenties.
Even if you learn something, it’s not enough to master it, and it’s only a short amount of time to pursue a hobby.
You’re really screwed up.
With mixed feelings, I repeated dry washing my face several times.
“Looking at that reaction, I guess it’s true.”
“It’s Jjin.”
“I never thought it would really shorten one’s lifespan. No, in the first place, how was that contradictory man able to control animals…”
Jason and Archer also had no choice but to admit it after seeing their reactions. He has little life left. While Han Jaejoong was dry washing his face, silence fell.
Soon he lowered his palm. Han Jaejoong opened his lips, raising his face that was heated by frictional heat.
“No, this is an opportunity.”
“Are you crazy?”
“No, this guy is crazy too.”
The more negatively you think, the more disadvantaged you become. Rather than being buried in depression, it would be better to be crazy about positivity.
“I was in a situation where I didn’t know the day I would lose anyway. I was thinking that there was nothing I could do if I died tomorrow, but now I know the detailed date. That’s all? “A way to increase lifespan was also clearly presented.”
It is no different from a life that was once killed in the first place.
‘No, it’s a life that has died twice.’
Once when Virgo formed a group and attacked him, and twice after he became a monster and attempted suicide. I have already experienced the natural loss of breath several times. But I am still standing here alive.
In fact, life now is like a bonus. So, even if I die tomorrow, I have no regrets. It was okay if I didn’t originally receive it, but I got it in addition.
‘Oh, it’s positive. Yes, this is the attitude to life.’
[I’m sorry, but is it okay if I call you a crazy bastard instead of a guardian from now on?]
I have already earned my life, but I need to use it effectively.
“The life ahead is all about killing scorpions.”
Scorpions were dangerous enemies even in the original work. As it was one of the three beasts that used the power of the galaxy, it caused many casualties. This is an enemy that should have been dealt with anyway.
But you can also get additional lifespan? What could be better than this?
Han Jaejoong suddenly ran to the window and screamed.
“Thank you, you idiot!” “Thanks to you, I have a longer lifespan!”
And then he burst into laughter.
I knew clearly that the purpose of the contradiction was to burn one’s will, but it couldn’t help but suit me. The will to survive takes precedence over discomfort.
‘You’re the one who hates me, you bastard.’
Archer and Jason looked at him and took a step back.
The sight of him continuously breathing heavily was no different from that of a mad animal under the moonlight.
“The cub of the beast was here….”
“How about you just call yourself a monster from now on?”
Han Jaejoong immediately turned around and stared at them.
“You guys are going to help too, right? Of course I should help. “Otherwise, I will start by destroying you with my own hands.”
“Well, I would be crazy if I told you I had 30 days left to live. “It must be desperate.”
“Hmm, that’s true too. “I guess it was a humane rebuke.”
Han Jaejoong nodded his head as a sign of recognition.
“Yes, I chose well.”
“I didn’t say a single f*cking word.”
“Of course I will help. After all, it is a crisis for our comrades!”
The archer frowned in displeasure, and Jason proudly struck his chest.
“Huh? Don’t you help me? “Then I won’t help you either.”
“What kind of help can I get from someone who has become a real mayfly?”
“You know what?”
You’re saying you can’t get help? You don’t know what. Even if you become a month-old human, you are not dead yet. Han Jaejoong immediately cut him off.
“The monster’s abilities are related not only to his constellation but also to his purpose. When you have time to dig, why not find out more about your abilities? “It will be of some help.”
It was a dry tone, but the content was by no means light.
“…There is such a thing?”
“Okay then.”
In fact, it is not an established theory, but it is still reliable information. In the original work, there was not a single monster that did not fall under this interpretation.
“You’re being rude!”
“Well, then the force that causes me to lose my way is also related to my purpose… No way! My purpose may have been to make someone wander…”
“I guess that’s not true?”
This is a very intuitive interpretation.
“Jason, do you have a name for your abilities?”
“…I don’t know.”
“There are still many mysteries about your abilities. Is it just that one ability? “The last time there was a flood, you never lost your way even though you moved from place to place.”
Rather, I continued to visit only the right people.
“There are more than just one or two strange things. “There are times when it was day before the move and then it became night after the move… Well, it makes sense if you interpret this as getting lost and losing time.”
Besides, I experienced moving twice last time. This was also during the flood.
Before going to the rooftop where Odette was, Jaejoong Han moved to Blue Sirius’ side alone. And when I moved, I found myself on the rooftop with other groups.
Jason himself did not seem to know or induce this.
“Think about it carefully. “The only people who can get lost are those who have a path.”
If you are a person who has no path to follow from the beginning, you cannot use the word wandering.
“Wow, my power certainly has no name. There is a possibility that I mistakenly believed that it was just me who had the ability to make people lose their way… Ah, no, there was another power besides the power to make them lose their way… Ah, maybe I was the strongest….”
Jason, who heard Han Jaejoong’s words, lowered his head and began to think deeply.
“You speak well. But hey, I don’t know where I heard that information, but it’s bullsh*t. A monster’s abilities and goals match? “It can’t be real.”
“Why are you there again?”
“No, does that make sense? My only ability is shooting an archery. How do you interpret this? Ability to hit exactly where? Is that so…”
“What bullsh*t.”
You are more deaf than I imagined. I already have a headache, but it just got worse.
“Why is your skill at archery?”
“No, you are saying bullsh*t. “Then if this isn’t an ability, then what…”
“Do you think that my swinging an axe is the ability of a monster?”
The archer stopped talking.
“A monster’s ability is a miracle. A miracle that only he can do. The contradiction we mentioned earlier can also be transformed into a shield and used as a spear. These are weapons and technology, not miracles. Even I have an axe. Next to you, Jason also has a dagger that resembles a pointer.”
“….”
“Since when did technology become a miracle?”
Whoa, Jaejoong Han continued to sigh.
“You idiot. Do some thinking. Archery is something of your identity, but it’s not an ability. “Technology honed to the limit may seem like a miracle, but it is not a miracle.”
“Oh, no, this is….”
“The miracle you possess is not archery.”
Han Jaejoong touched the corner of my eye with his finger. Using the middle finger was never intentional.
“It’s your eyes. You mentioned the contradiction earlier. “You found this place by copying the snow.”
The archer instantly became dumbfounded. He has thought of his abilities as archery until now. Archery that can be used no matter how far away the opponent is. Various arrows. I thought this could be called a miracle.
“Looking at that, you thought those eyes were just a physical ability?”
“Then… Isn’t it?”
“No. No matter how unique a monster’s body is, it cannot have that level of function. “That is an ability that only you have, and it is a miracle.”
“These eyes?”
“Hmm, okay then… You should think about this from now on.”
Han Jaejoong pointed to Archer’s eyes with the finger that was pointing to his own eyes.
“What did you want to see with those eyes?”
Eyes that see what others cannot see, that penetrate and capture all things. The most important body organ that supports an archer’s archery skills. That strange archery technique, where an arrow travels ten thousand miles and reaches even in the opposite direction, was made possible thanks to these eyes.
But arts were merely secondary powers. What really matters are the eyes. These eyes visualize everything, including sounds, smells, and touch. Its original use is, of course, for viewing.
‘What did you want to see? I?’
Was that the romantic era you had always dreamed of? No. Something seemed a little fundamentally different. The archer traced his memories of the past.
What did you feel when you were a boy meeting Sky Polaris?
There is still no answer.
It was quiet. Han Jaejoong was satisfied because no one was shouting as loudly as before. Looking at the expression on his face, I could tell that this was enough for hunsu.
“I guess this would have been helpful enough, right?”
“Ah.”
“It is prepaid. Of course, I’ll help you more later. But now you have to help me.”
I am more helpful. So save me. Han Jaejoong seemed to say that.
“Even for a scorpion, it’s a bit overwhelming to be alone.”
There was no trace of draw in his eyes. Victory, that alone was on fire.
He was truly trying to kill one of the three beasts.
Jaejoong turned his steps behind them who were still in agony.
“Where are you going?”
The archer, who still looked distraught, asked.
“To the person I rely on the most.”
Han Jaejoong took his steps towards his only companion.
***
“You too…?”
Jo Ayun asked, dumbfounded. Since when? How could you do something I didn’t even know? I felt a little jealous. Then, I became disillusioned with myself for feeling jealous over stories where people’s lives were at stake.
“Ah, ahahahaha… It’s just a rumor. Hmm, I overheard a little conversation between monsters. “Watcher, my rival is a bit, what should I say, not that long left to live…”
Baek Ah-hee put special emphasis on the word ‘rival.’ As if he were defining his relationship with himself.
“Me too, really! I heard it by chance. I don’t know, but… Oh, no, why did we bring this up while talking about Jaejoong? I don’t know either hahahahaha…”
He smiled bitterly and waved his hands. Behind Baek Ah-hee’s actions, rather than a request to ‘please don’t interrogate me,’ I felt the consideration of ‘I don’t want to offend you.’
This is because I was secretly sorry for finding out about this before Jo Ayun, who was the closest person to Han Jaejoong. But that doesn’t mean I couldn’t let anyone know this fact. Baek Ah-hee also felt quite uncomfortable.
“I see…Yeah…Well….”
Joa Yoon nodded his head and agreed. Considering that Baek Ah-hee decided that it was a coincidence, it was definitely a coincidence. At least in this regard, I know that I am not a liar.
‘…He must have had a hard time too.’
He pretends to deny the truth about Han Jae-joong and Watcher, but the truth is clear. She was the one who often hung out with Han Jaejoong. She showered him with affection in many ways, as if she were vicariously satisfied with her lost father or her non-existent brother.
‘I must have been mulling over the pain alone.’
How heartbroken she must have been when she heard the news that her Han Jae-joong had died.
‘Even if it wasn’t as difficult as I felt, it would have been difficult in its own way.’
Affection comes first. Jo Ayun made sure to do this.
“Well, then, Ah-hee, that….”
Jo A-yoon began to feel a sense of kinship and closeness to her. A colleague who knows the same thing. A person with whom you have no problem sharing secrets. What a reliable person this is.
She smiled and vaguely asked Baek Ah-hee.
“Do you have any intention of helping that monster called Watcher…? You say you’re a rival, and I don’t want such a meaningless ending. Huh? Therefore….”
“No.”
But what came back was a firm refusal.
“I’m not helping.”
Jo Ayun’s smile became distorted. My pupils trembled. His beautiful hands also trembled.
Why? I wanted to ask, but my lips wouldn’t even open. You’re so close to me, but then you let me die behind your back? It feels like the question becomes a hammer and hits me on the head.
‘Hey, are all kids this duplicitous these days…?!’
There was no time to feel disappointment, disillusionment, or betrayal. It was shocking. All other emotions were swept away by the shock, so I couldn’t feel them right now. Even if I saw Baek Ah-hee going in and out of a man’s house at night and having a wild time, it wouldn’t be as shocking as it is now.
“He and I are definitely enemies. “It’s rude to easily offer a hand of sympathy.”
What followed was even more shocking.
“Isn’t he a monster in the first place? Helping me is no different from betrayal. Moreover, since we are rivals, we will have to fight for our lives at some point…”
Baek A-hee smiled.
“I will be thankful if he dies alone.”
Is this how you feel when you see a girl smiling innocently in front of a corpse? Jo Ah-yoon felt fear when she saw Baek A-hee like that.
‘Oppa, you crazy b*tch, run away….’
I am not in my right mind.
