148 – All you need is a little money and a place to live tomorrow (10)
Even two days after the kidnapping, Seolhwa Yun did not go out. She asked Han Jaejoong if missing work for two days in a row was dangerous, and she was worried. She knew she shouldn’t do this to herself.
Nevertheless, Yun Seol-hwa did not move her feet outside of her.
Even Yun Seol-hwa herself knows that her own actions are contradictory.
The purpose of kidnapping Han Jaejoong was to keep him safe.
As his life is constantly threatened by various monsters, he is isolated from the world and then disposes of the dangerous elements.
The goal itself is simple, but the level of difficulty is equally difficult. That was the goal.
The kidnapping and confinement of Han Jae-joong, which was the most difficult task, was successful.
Of course, realistically speaking, kidnapping itself is not that difficult.
Care was taken to avoid being seen on CCTV, and his unconscious body was moved to a fairly high altitude.
Considering that he is her ex-lover and that he has always been close to the bottom, even if he does not see her face for a few days, he will not be reported if she gives a word of testimony.
The level of difficulty of kidnapping was based solely on psychological resistance.
They hurt their loved ones with their own hands and suppress their freedom.
He who thought it would be nice to fly like a bird and freely roam the sky, must break his wings with his own hands.
How terrible this is. Can something like this really be called love? Love requires respect and respect for each other, but isn’t this just selfishness?
Yun Seol-hwa’s love was respect. She wants to be respected herself, so she respects her partner. She doesn’t want to be hated, so she doesn’t do things that make her hateful.
For Yun Seol-hwa, respecting her self was extremely difficult. Even when her lover manipulated her media and ran away from home without a single word of consultation, she was the one who did nothing when he was told not to correct her and not to search for her.
At first, it was an act to protect her self-esteem, but when this became extreme, it became a damage to her ego.
For her, it was very difficult for her to trample on her other self due to her selfishness and not her self-esteem.
But she had to do it.
Because Han Jaejoong could die. Because his life was more important than not being hated.
Yun Seol-hwa even prepared himself to endure all the insults in the world and did so. But what she returned to him was not insults, but love and understanding.
Han Jaejoong accepted this kidnapping without any complaints. The determination was almost laughable.
Yun Seol-hwa felt even more guilty when she saw him not blaming her. It would have been better if I had just cursed. Although he committed a crime, he did not receive any punishment, which caused a significant psychological burden.
On the other hand, you may have unconsciously thought this. ‘Uh? ‘Is it okay to cross the line like this?’
Once you try it, it’s not difficult to try it twice.
Yun Seol-hwa’s psychological resistance has weakened.
If she had been insulted by him as expected, she would have used that anger as a medium to go on a rampage to catch and kill the monster. But there was no insult.
The anger that had been stored up in advance was lost, and Yun Seol-hwa also felt a little shaken.
Is it okay for me to be a little more selfish?
According to the original plan, as soon as Han Jae-joong regained consciousness, he would have given only an explanation and then immediately gone out to exterminate the monster.
However, when Han Jae-joong treated her kindly, Yun Seol-hwa was shaken.
Wouldn’t it be okay if we stayed together a little longer and then left?
Stories that were not told, stories that were upsetting, stories that were suppressed. It wasn’t for talking about things like that.
I just wanted to talk honestly together. We talked about trivial things, talked about memories, leaned on each other without saying a word, and so on. Thinking back to a time when she didn’t even know how long ago, Yun Seol-hwa wanted to recreate that time.
Originally, I had planned to only do this until the afternoon. I have to go out in the afternoon. But I have to make dinner. It would be uncomfortable to wear chains. Then let’s go out. I go out at night.
Oh, you can get attacked at night. I was careful not to be followed, but you never know. Because it’s always time to be careful of monsters running rampant at night. Yes, we leave when dawn breaks.
However, even when the morning came, the afternoon of that day, and even when night came again, Yun Seol-hwa did not go out.
Making up new excuses, making new excuses, making new excuses, my legs were firmly planted in the room.
It wasn’t because she didn’t trust Han Jaejoong. It wasn’t that she was afraid that he would disappear while she was gone. He was afraid that a monster would attack while he was away. Actually there was a little bit of that. Since the last attack happened while I was at home, the possibility of a monster attacking here is not zero.
But the probability is low. It is impossible to keep Han Jaejoong imprisoned here forever.
Rather than staying here for fear of attack, it would be quicker to go outside and hit the monster’s head right now.
In fact, Yun Seol-hwa herself is also aware of this.
I am so happy that I am running away from what I have to do right now.
There are no windows, TV or internet. You can’t see the world, and the world can’t see this place either. A place isolated from reality.
There are no obligations weighing down on the shoulders, no sirens, dispatch signals, someone crying or cheering that tightens the heart.
Only quiet happiness remains here.
In the meantime, a signal was heard that could not be ignored.
The mascot’s eyes light up and blink like a siren. It even lasts for several minutes. A clear emergency dispatch signal.
An emergency signal that must be dispatched even if a magical girl is on vacation or far away from a different jurisdiction.
[Guardian… Don’t you still need to receive at least the details?]
Afraid to unfold the contents, Yun Seol-hwa refused to connect her unicorn’s voice with her mascot.
That was a kind of Pandora’s box. The moment you open it out of curiosity, something uncontrollable happens.
“But….”
Yun Seol-hwa was in agony. The moment you hear that urgent matter, it is impossible to turn away.
If you look at it, you will know it, and if you know it, you cannot ignore it. It will remain in a corner of your heart and leave its mark on you for the rest of your life.
“…But.”
If I go out like this, obligations will weigh me down again. There will be people who criticize why the dispatch was so late, and there will be someone who criticizes those who criticize them again.
Many people who suffered from the monster will cling to one person and beg for their life, and the empty eyes of those who have already lost everything will cut themselves to pieces.
I’m not that great of a person to begin with. I’m not the kind of person to get together in groups and curse, I’m not the type of person to be cheered on, and I’m not the type of person who has the right to save or kill someone. It’s really not that big of a deal, he’s just a person.
He is the kind of person who can be completely satisfied as long as he is with the one person he loves.
If you have the ability, use it. It is said that it is selfish to have something and not give it back. Seolhwa Yoon also agrees with him. If you have the power to protect people, you should use it.
But why did it have to be me?
If you were going to give it power, you should have given it a desire to match that power. How could such an unqualified person have so much power?
But without this power, Jaejoong would have died. My body was torn apart by a monster, just as miserable as my parents who I couldn’t protect.
Then is this the price of saving his life? Is this duty taken on to repay the price of this life?
I don’t know. I don’t know. I don’t know what is what. Should I have this power, and what should I do?
[…Guardian.]
“I am.”
Yun Seol-hwa looked at the mascot and muttered.
“I am not a guardian….”
This hesitation right now was proof of that. What guardian in the world would hesitate like this? A person who hesitates at an important time has no such qualifications.
“It’s a snowflake.”
At that time, Han Jaejoong opened his mouth.
“Has something important happened?”
He was the one who worked hard to support me when I was a magical girl. We know that the mascot exists and that a dispatch signal is sent from the mascot. So, you can guess this right away.
“…Oh, no. “Something more important than you…”
Yun Seol-hwa hesitated before finishing her last words.
“…No.”
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Han Jaejoong stared at her with his serious eyes. The two blue eyes swayed back and forth and eventually avoided Han Jaejoong’s gaze. Han Jaejoong once again opened his mouth to something he would never have done under normal circumstances.
“Really?”
“….”
“…It’s a folktale.”
He moved his body a little closer to Yun Seol-hwa. He placed his hand on the back of his cold sweaty hand.
“Why did you say you weren’t a guardian earlier?”
“…That.”
There was silence for a moment as I chose to speak. Han Jae-joong waited patiently until Yoon Seol-hwa opened her mouth again.
“That’s because… I, I’m not qualified…”
“What qualifications?”
“Well, as I said before, all I need is you… How can I save and protect other people’s lives… That’s such a burden. I don’t like cheering either. I hate selling even more. I’m not a great person. I’m just….”
The cold sweat evaporated and the cold body temperature dropped further.
“He’s just a stupid and useless person.”
Han Jaejoong held his hand more tightly, as if sharing his warmth so that his hand would not be cold.
“It’s a snowflake. I don’t think so. “You are a great person.”
“…What are you talking about to the kidnapper?”
“To me, you are not a kidnapper. Just Seolhwa Yoon. It’s just Yun Seol-hwa who protected me. Seolhwa, don’t misunderstand. I am not at all offended by this confinement. “On the contrary, it’s a bit burdensome because it’s all about extravagant furniture.”
“….”
“Seolhwa, I’ll say it again. Do not misunderstand. You said before that it was okay for you to hate me as much as you wanted, right? “That is the biggest misunderstanding.”
Han Jae-joong quietly stared at Yun Seol-hwa. Yun Seol-hwa still looked young. Even though she is the same age, if you walk by her street, you will see her as younger than her.
Perhaps it wasn’t just her appearance that made her young.
“I don’t hate you. “No matter what you do, even if you take my life, I don’t hate you.”
She was still a girl.
It was no different from when Han Jaejoong left at the age of 18. He stayed at that time and did not grow up.
At that time, I waited for him with the same appearance and same heart, without any change.
A kind of foolishness and stupidity. At the same time, pure. In a way, it was supreme and pure.
“So, Seolhwa, have confidence. You are a great person. Someone who will receive infinite love from me. “Love you as much as I love you.”
Han Jaejoong truly pitied her. The agony she must have felt before making the decision to kidnap her, and the agony she must be going through now. There was not an iota of resentment or anger in her compassion.
“It may seem a bit self-conscious, but I thought you would listen if I said this. And Seolhwa, you protected me.”
Until now, and always.
“You took care of me after losing my parents. It became a star to protect me when I was attacked by a monster. So you are my guardian. Forever, forever.”
The more Han Jaejoong said something, the more he felt like he was being promoted, which made him feel embarrassed. So he smiled slightly.
“So, Seolhwa, if you’re sad, I think I’ll be really sad too. Because my shining star is gradually getting darker. Because the light that will accompany my path is fading. Uh… So, what I want to say is.”
Yun Seol-hwa also laughed together.
“Don’t make a choice you will regret. And don’t forget that you have allies. Oh, that’s right, and you never know if it’s an order to dispatch a monster. “I wonder if the monster you promised to defeat is now your enemy.”
“…Yes.”
“Seolhwa, if you are having a hard time, always rely on me. And you can always use me as an excuse. If you want to run away, you can run away. If you want to move forward, you can move forward.”
“Yes.”
Yun Seolhwa nodded her head confidently.
“It’s okay now.”
“Have you decided?”
“I’m sorry for hesitating.”
She lifted Han Jae-joong’s hand, placed a small kiss on the back of it, and then stood up.
“Please wait a moment, I’ll be back soon.”
“Okay, okay.”
Yun Seol-hwa ran away without looking back. I could see twinkling starlight beyond the front door.
“…They say he’s not a guardian.”
If there is an excuse to run, how can someone who runs at any time not be a hero? Han Jaejoong chuckled.
“Then we just have to wait now.”
In his haste to leave, Han Jae-joong’s neck was clean and without any decorations, as if he had forgotten what he had promised. In the end, Han Jae-joong himself took his chain and hung it around his neck.
[Are you serious?]
“What?”
[You won’t run away?]
“No, that’s how the quest came out~”
Han Jaejoong responded, shaking the heavy chain as if it were his necklace.
[That’s not what the quest was about… No, it’s done. Any further interference than this would be a breach of duty.]
“Okay, let’s shut up.”
[I suddenly wanted to talk.]
“That’s really rebellious.”
[Probably not as good as the Guardian.]
“Hey, I’m somewhat normal.”
[….]
“Now it’s all over again. “I’m really going to spin.”
While I was chatting with Belt like that, I heard a warning voice from Belt.
[Wait a minute.]
“Why?”
[Starlight has been detected.]
“…It’s not a folktale, is it? “To pick up something I forgot…”
[This is not a joke.]
“You didn’t come.”
Han Jae-joong also heightened his vigilance.
“What kind of monster is this now…?”
[No, it’s not a monster.]
“What?”
[The one coming now is a magical girl… Oh my. It gets closer.]
Quaaang! The front door was opened roughly.
“Gyeonwoo appears!”
hahahahaha, an uninvited guest came in with a loud smile.
“It’s been a while, Aniki!”
“…Dabih?”
White Dabih has invaded.
How on earth?
