Chapter 182 – See You Later
My heart is beating like crazy.
She doesn’t remember how she got back to class.
Joo Hyuk asks me if I’m okay.
Her neck nods on its own.
“…Huh.”
Senior doesn’t leave in my head. I said I didn’t do anything wrong… So, give me a hug… When I’m crying like an idiot, he hugs me without saying anything.
‘No… No, no… You shouldn’t feel this way…’
It’s not like my heart is pounding with some kind of sexual desire. It’s a bit darker than that… And a dense feeling. The emotions I feel every time I see Joo-hyeok, every time my fingertips collide, every time our eyes meet.
I am feeling that feeling right now.
‘It’s strange, it’s strange…!’
Everything is weird
With a senior who suddenly opened his eyes to the castle and helped him, he, he… It’s strange to do that! All of a sudden, feeling that way toward seniors… Everything, everything is strange. I’m glad I’m done with this…
‘Oh, he was very reliable…’
I felt a sense of stability there.
Emotions that I want so much and are always exhausted. The reliability that always completely isolates you from the uneasy surroundings. The kindness that pats my head even when I do that, even when it’s ridiculous. And then… The one who runs underneath that perfectly satisfies a woman, that…
“Whoa… Whoa…”
“Hey… Are you okay?”
“Huh…”
The chaebol daughter next to me looks at me with worried eyes. Reflexively nods her head. When talking to her tycoon, don’t make eye contact with her. Why are you staring at her like that, dragging her into a corner and punching her in the stomach?
Again, again, again and again.
Dark thoughts, ominous thoughts, miserable thoughts, dark thoughts.
“Hey… Hey…”
“I’m fine, I’m fine, I’m really fine.”
“Ah… Uh, yes.”
My heart beats in a different way this time. We’ve only talked once or twice, but it’s like my heart is going to break. Do, help me… Help me…
Seniors.
“…Ah.”
I think of my senior in my mind. The rapidly beating heart quickly subsides. As the unpleasant feelings leave, both eyes light up.
‘…I thought of you first.’
Strange.
Originally, originally… I think of Joo Hyuk first.
The senior came out first.
Then, the senior fills my head again.
“…”
Your face turns red again. It’s been a long time since I forgot about classes. The memories of the moment that keep circling around my heart only beat my heart. And… When I think of my seniors again…
“Haha…”
The bottom… Gets wet.
Every time I think of it, it gets wet. For me, who had never masturbated before, the stimulation exceeded the category of ‘general’. Pleasure out of the norm. When I was with seniors, I felt that pleasure. OK.
Like a drug
I keep reminding myself I’ve only overlapped my body twice, but I can’t get out of that dick. It’s such a pleasant sleep.
I wiggle my thighs and try to hide my wet panties. This time, my heart beats in a different way. It’s like being trapped in a link you can’t get out of.
Reliable, kind, and sexually perfect.
Senior.
‘No… No, no, no again. I have Joo Hyuk…’
I don’t even know if Joo Hyuk likes me or not. Joo Hyuk is everything to me. If I want to love, I want to do it with Joo Hyuk. Weird. This is strange… My chest, my body, something, everything…
Feeling pressured from all sides.
So, the senior is pressuring me from all sides. First stimulus. It’s such a stimulus that I can’t overcome. Both humanly and sexually… I can’t help it, that…
‘Ughhh…!’
Turn one’s head left and right
Unruly hair is scattered all over the place. Dark circles feel more subdued. No matter what, she can’t get her senior out of her head.
The crotch gets wet again. Little by little, the sound of breathing becomes rough.
Foolishly, my body. I want a senior again.
‘Bar, even when we were having sex just before… Seo, it’s because the senior is hot… Why, why did you say that… Ugh. When she just walked out she said ‘again’… Didn’t she?
My uterus is about to melt. The destination of the thought is different from the affair.
‘Because I said I’d do it again… I’m afraid, wouldn’t it be okay?’
Dangerous thoughts pop into your head.
Do it again… Do it again… It’s okay…
“Haha…”
No, no.
The pen I was holding clicked. It breaks.
“…Oh, no.”
Have to be patient
You can’t do anything like this anymore. I hate seniors… Also, because I have Joo and Joo Hyuk…
Have to be patient
Have to be patient
Be patient… Do it.
Please.
It is soggy between the crotch. Little by little, the breath that is panting doesn’t even show any signs of getting better. I just imagined it, but her eyes are blurry, and her heart feels like it’s about to explode.
Tea, you have to be patient…
You’ll be patient
Be patient
Paper hits
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After a long class, after school.
The weather, which had been sleet at first, turned to heavy snow before I knew it, painting the windows pure white. Inside the classroom where all the cadets had left, when they heard footsteps behind them, they quickly put down their phones.
“You’re here.”
“…”
Looking back, Seok Joo-hyeok was standing in an awkward position with a bag on. Even though I said it was okay, is there still something to be wary of?
“…Is it true? Senior.”
“Yes. Take a seat for now.”
During the last break, I briefly called Seok Joo-hyuk.
At first, I was dumbfounded when I said that I would help, but later I noticed that I was worried… After school, I said that I would help, and eventually came to my class.
‘You asked for the bait.’
Let’s make sure the two of us get to know each other.
“Like I told you last break, I’ll help you. To be honest, Joo Hyuk-ah, you like Choi Si-yoon.”
“Yeah… I see. But, how are you going to help me?”
Seok Joo-hyeok looks at me with half-suspect and half-expectation.
“I’ll give you confidence.”
“Yes?”
“This isn’t the end. In addition, I’ll ask Choi Si-yoon right away. Does he have feelings for you?”
“…”
“How is it? It’s okay? As I expected, both of you have already made up your mind. If you only build confidence and get a definite answer from this side, would you confess and start dating right away? You can trust me.”
“However…”
“Huh?”
Seok Joo-hyeok looks at me with eyes full of doubt.
“Why are you helping me so suddenly?”
“Reason? Nothing special. It’s just the same reason I helped you two in the first place.”
“Yes?”
“We’re far away like back then. It’s because we feel a sense of kinship. It was the first time I was wandering around and someone helped me and we started dating.”
It’s a lie.
My girlfriend pushed me and we dated.
Elementary student. Exactly three days after our first eye contact… Suddenly came to our class and said, ‘Where is Kim Tae-ho!’ After hitting the lion’s roar, he grabbed me by the collar and dragged me into the hallway, then kissed me out of the blue.
‘It was love at first sight. Let’s date right away.’
It was the first time a woman had been so powerful. At first, she was embarrassed and refused, but after the same situation happened several times, she gave up and dated him. That was her first relationship with her girlfriend.
…Now compared to then, it’s a lot more harmful. Because her obsession is just as strong as Seol-ah’s. Even so, there was no inconvenience because I had the determination to support my goal and to let go when I had to.
‘…When I felt a sense of crisis, my girlfriend disappeared.’
No, she’s not completely gone. Some still remain. Then… Something happened and I cut off contact with all of them, leaving only one person I didn’t go on a trip with. At the insistence of his girlfriend.
‘She doesn’t even talk to other men besides me.’
Seoha’s gaze is always focused on me. She asked me why in the past, and she said, ‘There’s no one else to care about but you, Taeho.’ The answer came back.
Even so, it was strange to not cross a certain line.
She was worried that there might be wiretaps or hidden cameras, but she waved her hand and said she didn’t use such a thing…
“…A sense of kinship?”
“Ah? Yes.”
I wake up to the sudden sound of a voice. Wait, I was thinking about her girlfriend.
‘I keep in touch from time to time…’
I still miss it.
…I miss my girlfriend. She wants to be held for a while and be fooled. I want to see them hugging each other all day, and I want to eat the rice that my girlfriend makes for me. I want to take a walk in the park at night, I want to ride a wooden horse, I want to look at each other gently at a cafe, I want to wander around the city with my hands on my hands all day long.
Can’t do it now
I get depressed for a moment at the thought of my girlfriend. My girlfriend’s still in the house, and I’m getting fucked by some bad girls here.
For a moment, my mind goes dark.
“Senior… Are you okay?”
“Huh? Uh. Yeah. How far did you talk?”
“A sense of kinship…”
“Oh, right. You know, I have a girlfriend. Just like she just said, she just wants to help. There’s no grand reason other than that.”
“…”
“Is there anything else you’re curious about? It’s a little disappointing. I was thinking of making a confession within today if I had the time.”
“…Yes?”
Seok Joo-hyeok opened and closed his eyes.
“Just forget about it. The goal is to date before winter break. For now, let’s go back here today. Can you give me your phone for a second? We should exchange numbers.”
“Exchanging numbers?”
“It’s late now. If we talk more, the guard will surely say something. Let’s solve it by text message or phone call, and then go home today.”
“Ah yes.”
Seok Joo-hyeok hands over his cell phone. He hurriedly writes down the number and hands it over.
“Call me.”
“Yes.”
“Done.”
Hang up the ringing call right away and save the number.
“Now, let’s go back.”
“I… Senior.”
“Huh?”
Seok Joo-hyeok, who had been glaring at me suspiciously for a while, lowered his gaze for a moment and hesitated.
“No… Uh, thank you. For your help.”
“Yes, yes.”
Seok Joo-hyeok lowered his head obtusely. He nods his head roughly and hurries out of the classroom.
“You must have been embarrassed.”
You have more self-esteem than you think.
Thinking like that, I went down the stairs.
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“…”
“Ughhhhh Taeho. What are you doing here?”
Met again
Post-human high-ranking knight.
Current retired driver.
Jannari.
“Ah… Yes. Hello.”
“Why are you so depressed?! What are you worried about? Noona will listen!!”
No really, why are you doing this all of a sudden?
An empty city bus. Now familiar yellow eyes stare at me with delight.
“Your expression is a bit gloomy? Why? Have you ever been dumped by a girlfriend? Ask this older sister who has lived for over 1000 years! I’ll listen to everything except dating! Because I have the owner. Gup.”
The smell of alcohol wafts.
“…Have you been drinking?”
“~~How did you figure it out?! I drank!! My body is like this, so I don’t drink alcohol! Min! Stomach! Ki!
“…”
I think you’re so damn drunk
“Uh, look at that, I’m going to call my girlfriend again!! Noona! Let Nunna hear it too!! Let’s see how young people these days are dating!”
“No no!! Wait, wait a minute, Knight Jannari?! Cell phone- Fuck the kid!”
“Kkeuheugh… Whew. Uh… Seok Joo-hyuk? Uh… Uh…”
Knight Nari Nari smells of her alcohol and looks at me alternately with her red face.
“You… Did you like men?”
“…No!!”
What the fuck is this all of a sudden!
“It’s okay~~!! It’s okay!! It’s okay!!! It could be that!!”
Knight Janna Rick unknowingly lifts her thumb.
“No! No, no fucking no!!”
“To think Gu Min-yeon-ung was gay…”
“No!!”
Knight Nari Janna-ri drools at her.
“You’re not kidding, are you really drunk?! No, can you go home?!”
“You can go back.”
It’s said that it’s a body that gets drunk, but it must have been drunk after using some kind of magic to make it drunk on its own.
‘It smells like alcohol…’
Tremendous.
“What happened?”
“No hiyaha… Nothing happened? I just had a little fight with my husband…”
It’s such a big deal.
“Your husband?”
“Jakkum, I keep saying it’s my fault… I’m wrong… Everything is my fault… Keuheugh…”
“…”
She closes her eyes after saying that. The sound of breathing tickles my ears as my chest rises and falls quietly.
Husband?
Did you get married
“…It’s the first time I’ve heard of it.”
Thinking like that, the bus arrives at the stop.
“…Ha.”
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Put the driver Jannari down on a bench somewhere. She woke me up and sent me back.
I stayed alone and waited for a bus at the stop for a long time.
Cell phone vibrates
When I answer the phone in a hurry, I hear a welcome voice whenever I hear it.
My girlfriend, stand up
“What’s the matter.?”
[…Won.]
“Huh?”
Both eyes light up.
“What?”
[Taeho. I’ll come see you soon The date of full return is still stable, but it is certain that we have won.]
“You don’t know when you’ll be back?”
[Huh. I’m sure within the next year though. Probably around the middle of next year. It’s actually confirmed, so you can trust it. And I will be going there soon. Free up time on the weekend.]
“Weekend?”
[Did you know that my father stole my passport? Got reissued I’ll be there soon.]
“I was thinking of going there once during winter break too-“
[…Then I’ll go then.]
“…What?”
[Taeho stays still. I’ll take care of everything. It’s just… Taeho just needs to come.]
“Uh…”
[Then see you during winter break. It probably won’t be long after it arrives. Dad’s coming to get me.]
“…”
[…Taeho. Love you. I really, really miss you so much that I’m going crazy. If they are caught later, then they will be taken away smoothly… But there will be no next time. If I go out by force, you will know how far I am serious. And… I’m sorry.]
Take a small breath on the other side of the phone.
[Sorry for coming so late. Let’s start with the wedding right after graduation. Dad would agree. I’ll make that happen.]
[Love you.]
“…I love you too. Seo Ha.”
[I really, really, really, really, really love you like crazy, Taeho.]
A soft laugh is heard over the phone.
[…See you later.]
Pop.
The phone hangs up.
