Chapter 395 – Might Be Real, Family (8)
“In the end, I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t ask to be your daughter, and I couldn’t tell you that I had done that.”
“I can’t speak.”
Eve ran to the pool, crouched down in front of Sellu and muttered in a low voice. She was about to cry, and she held out her wet hand to her face. Water dripped from her wrists and left marks on her Eve’s clothes on her. Eve asked.
“How do you say it? How the hell am I supposed to talk about it? Will the child understand? Can you think I was forced to commit a crime? “
Sellu asked.
“Then how about doing this? You’re asking Matilda to choose. After all, she’s also there for the child to choose her parents, isn’t it? She tells us about our criminal record, and that she can’t be a civil servant, and then she tells us to choose. She will be your daughter I will go into another normal family.”
Eve hated those words.
“You want me to make that choice? See me? Mom. It’s crazy?”
Sellu shook her head as if it were perfectly normal. But Eve couldn’t understand why Shelu said such a thing. It was too calculated, and it was a terrible story to think about. I didn’t want to make such a calculated choice. She didn’t want Matilda to make her weigh either herself or her future her.
“Just, just like this… You don’t have to say anything I’m just living like this for now. Huh? It wasn’t even a family in the first place, and then… She’ll have other people to take better care of Matilda. Aren’t you very childish? Right? Huh? Mom? So, I just need to keep my mouth shut.”
“Do you really think so?”
“Who would like a mother like that? Who would love a half-mermaid with her murderous record her, she says. That, that’s just a label. Labels that don’t help you in life. I’m afraid that someday Matilda will feel me as a burden. She wants me to take care of that child, but she is afraid that he will consider me a nuisance and annoyance.”
Sellu looked at the pool. She was wind blowing over the surface of the pool. She said Sellu.
“Eve. Do you remember when we first met?”
“…Of course.”
“You did that to me. Don’t call me mom because it’s annoying.”
Eve looked around her in surprise, then blushed and panicked at her.
“Oh, Mom! Why are you suddenly saying that here! Yes?”
“The reason I raised you was because I felt sorry for you. Just, just because you were pitiful. I felt so sorry for you who came to me to try to survive while we mermaids were also suffering from hunters. I felt like I would die if I didn’t care for you. That’s why I stayed on the boat with you. That’s why I started a pirate life with you. And.”
Selu took Eve’s hand her. Eve looked into her sellu’s eyes her. The two stayed still for a long while, making eye contact. Eve waited for Sellu to say something. Selou took one more look at her Eve and held her breath. She even seemed to be trying to hold back her crying. The corner of her mouth her quivered and she said her head.
“And that’s why I was going to leave you.”
Eve cried when she said she was about to leave. While her emotions were tightening, she was a little annoyed by the story she brought up.
“Why, why are you talking like that? How much you loved me, why are you bringing up that story? Mom. I don’t understand a little bit. Are you asking me to love Matilda as much? In the end, even my mother wants to leave me…”
Eve shut her mouth. Stories of the past floated in her mind like clouds. Stories with clear shapes echoed like echoes. The place was Mermaid Island. Eve and Sellu were talking together. Lucius was talking to Anne separately, and the two of them were looking at each other from the dinghy.
What was she talking about then?
[I thought I shouldn’t be in the mansion. Because it’s a mermaid. Mermaids live with mermaids, and I thought you should live in a mansion.]
Eve felt her head dizzy. She was Eve and she was trying to understand now. She was trying to get one step closer to the hearts of others. Sellu was crying. She smiled even though she had tears in her eyes. The two men’s hands were intertwined with each other and squeezed tightly.
[I thought I shouldn’t live in the mansion. Because I felt like a stumbling block. I thought it was necessary for people to recognize you as a human being.]
It was a very selfish choice. Eve thought so about Sellu’s choice hers. She thinks that Seluga is so selfish, so cold that she draws a line against herself. But no. She, too, was just too timid. Because she just wished Eve was a little better. Because she wished Eve was happier. She was just trying to make that choice.
Before anyone knew it, Eve was just like Sellou, and she was making her own selfish choices, just like her. Sellu was just blocking her by bringing up the story of her now her her self her. Sellu was also a woman who realized what was right when she was close to her choice. It was she who refused to extend her hand her to correct her mistake.
“…Mom.”
“Yes?”
Eve hugged Sellu tightly without saying a word. Sellu started stroking her Eve’s hair. Her Eve’s shoulders her trembled slightly. Selu felt her tears dripping down one of her shoulders. Eve buried her face in her cellu’s shoulder her and began to sob quietly.
“Mom, so, so what do I do? Is it really, really right to be honest with him?”
At Eve’s question, Sellu patted her on the back of her. Over and over again.
*****
Matilda was showing Elsie her homework her. It took her quite a while as she read to Elsie, who was not very literate. Elsie nodded her head and listened to the ecology of the marimba tribe she narrated.
“Interesting. Hearing it from other people like this makes our tribal culture sound really cool.”
“While doing this homework, I thought the culture of the marimba tribe was very interesting and unique. It’s all thanks to Elsie.”
“I was also happy thanks to you. Then I’ll go out soon…”
Elsie looked out of her window and slurred her words her. She looked back at Matilda and said.
“Not. My mind has changed. I just want to lie down and sleep. It’s good to be lazy sometimes.”
“Yes. Well, good night.”
As Elsie stretched out on her sofa, Matilda gave her her bow to her and then she quickly walked out. She then moved her bold steps toward her front door. This time it was because it was her turn her to show Selu her her papers her. However, as she was about to leave the front door, Matilda was sneakily stopped by Ira, who was standing in front of her door. She grinned and said to Matilda.
“Miss Matilda. Excuse me, could you help me for a minute?”
“Yes? What’s going on? I will help you.”
Matilda glanced at her front door, but she smiled again and said to Ira. Ira took her hand her and headed for the restaurant.
“The kitchen chef was making a new menu and holding a tasting event, and he asked me to evaluate the taste of the food. I think it would be nice to eat with Matilda.”
“Yes! I know!”
Matilda, who had been having a hard time with her cultural narration of her, answered lively, and she clutched her hungry stomach.
*****
Next day. Selou praised her Matilda for her homework in a bright voice. She, the mascot of Peta Youngji, did not forget to praise herself for giving her advice and giving her such good results. Matilda listened with a laugh at her remarks her, a mixture of her boasting her and her praise her.
“Where is Mr. Eve?”
Just as Sellu’s pride was ebbing away, Matilda asked a question. Selou opened her eyes wide once and looked at her office her. Matilda thanked her cellu her, then took her notes and walked her way to her office her. Sellu looked at Matilda’s back with her happy face.
“So, are you going to talk about that?”
“Yes.”
Lucius frowned slightly. Eve knew that was an expression of concern in its own way. Lucius lifted his head, arching his eyebrows again. A knock was heard along with the sound of dainty footsteps.
“Excuse me.”
The sound of a cautious knock on the door. It was Matilda. Eve sat down in her chair with a nervous expression on her face. As soon as Matilda opened her door, she saw Lucius with her face in front of her and bowed her head in greeting. Since Lucius had been at the estate for quite some time during this vacation, Matilda was getting used to Lucius as well. Lucius smiled at her as she greeted her without hesitation.
“Hi. Matilda. How are you today?”
“Today is… I think it’s very good. Lord.”
“Okay. Then Eve. I’ll go out for a while.”
“Ah, yes.”
Lucius stroked Matilda’s head once, opened her door, and disappeared. Eve caught her breath as she watched her office door slam shut. The time had come for her to face her own sins her. Eve carefully dragged the chair.
Matilda whimpered and brought her guest chair to sit next to her Eve her. Eve was about to get up from her seat when she pulled her chair over and sat on it. Matilda was smiling wide with her flushed face. Eve grinned in front of her. And with her fingers trembling slightly, she tensed.
“Matilda. That… How did you decide on your family?”
“Yes?”
Matilda looked blank for a moment at her question her, then nodded her head again.
“Ah, um… I think it’s probably settled.”
And she glanced at Eve. Eve was no fool. She sighed and looked back at Matilda. Matilda was getting restless, with her Eve easily knocking her expression down with just a sigh of hers. Eve said as she took Matilda’s hand hers.
“Matilda. I…”
Upon hearing Eve’s first words, Matilda’s nervousness was evident. She caught her breath and put her hand on her chest.
“I was a criminal. A much more brutal, terrifying criminal than you think.”
Matilda’s face was a bit shocked by those words, but she soon regained her senses. And she said, nodding her head as if she could bear that much.
“It’s okay. Everyone reflects… Because I think I can.”
“…He killed people and raped women. Dozens.”
“…”
Matilda shut her mouth. Eve couldn’t make eye contact with Matilda. Eve continued her speech.
“I was only showing you my cool side, but I was originally such a criminal. I met my husband now and live a good life, but I was originally that kind of person. But…”
Eve thought her heart would burst. Can she be a mother It was because I didn’t know that the word “Her” Could be so difficult. Once again, the unfounded entitlement theory began to weigh on her mind. Eve bowed her head.
“…You are a good boy. Which… I want to take care of you Listen to your concerns, do activities you enjoy together… And, and I want to do what you want to do.”
No reply came from Matilda. Eve wanted to cry. But she shouldn’t have cried. Because it was so ugly She managed to hold back her cries and continue her story her.
“When an ex-convict becomes a mother, they say she can’t take the exam. I mean, wanting to be your mother… So, it’s too greedy. I just want to take care of you even in a country like this. I want you to consider this estate as your home and consider us as family.”
Eve gritted it. A drop of her tear fell. She thought she had many excuses for her own sins her. Looking back, she believed, she could be regal in her own way. But no. Even the unfortunate past, everything felt worthless in this place. She was in this room as a sinner. She said, shaking her head.
“…No, I want you to call me Mom.”
Eve felt that if Matilda said anything bad, she would really cry out loud. So she tried to laugh and stared into her empty space her. She passed, but she could n’t remember what expression was on Matilda’s face her. She raised her voice pretending to be okay.
“Aren’t you shameless? I am that kind of person So, you can quit as much as you like. Sponsorship will not stop. Because I’m in charge of you. I’m not going to be cold to you because I’m looking for another parent. So…”
Matilda reached out her hand. She caressed Eve’s cheek her, and she placed her hand her on her shoulder her. Her weight her rested on her slender arms her around her neck her. I heard Matilda’s crying voice in my ear.
“Mom.”
Eve cried.
