Chapter 58 – Allegory
“…….”
Violetta woke up with a sound of sleep. Her calmly opened eyes scan the surroundings without saying anything.
None. No traces of someone breaking in last night, no signs of messing up the bed. The room was eerily quiet.
It was a peace that had been repeated for several days already.
Last night, the man had whispered several meaningless words to Violetta. The point of the words is that he will treat you with a little more kindness from now on. He said he would do whatever you want.
Violetta didn’t know why the man who seemed like an idiot from heaven suddenly made such a promise. However, the man had been keeping his words for several days already. He did not use violence or force sexual service. He didn’t even rape her by sneaking into her bedroom while she was sleeping. Considering the progress made so far, it would be good to call it a reformation.
‘Why the hell are you doing this now?’
Violetta curled up against him, nervously biting her nails. She wasn’t particularly upset, but her brain, which had learned her fear, trembled as a reflex and looked around. It was as if a man hiding somewhere would come out and startle her.
Of course that doesn’t happen. The room was still silent, still creepy. Silence and silence do not adapt. Since when has the word peace been so unfamiliar?
“I’m reluctant…….”
Violetta broke her silence by speaking to herself. Small, low voice. The air shuddered and vibrated.
Soon the sound died down, and silence fell again in her room. Violetta lifted herself from her bed as much as she could. She felt lonely every moment as all relationships were severed at the hands of a man. What’s more, the man stopped coming to visit me, so I didn’t have anyone to talk to. It was hard for him to bear the fact that he was alone.
Violetta put on her clothes appropriately and left her bedroom. Wearing a bit of an afterthought. As a woman of the royal family, she was a bit curious about what she would be like, but she didn’t care about Violetta. Anyway, no matter what she wore, the people in the imperial palace accepted her in moderation. She doesn’t even want to try it, but she probably won’t mind walking around the halls naked. The man must have touched something.
She was walking down her aisle for a while. Suddenly she felt something hugging her from behind.
“…… !”
She was so shocked that she couldn’t even scream. It was an accident that happened unexpectedly. Then came a familiar male voice.
“What are you doing in the morning? Dressed like that.”
Pounding- pounding-
My heart, which had not yet been able to contain its surprise, beat with a bat.
“I, I…….”
Violetta tried to answer her with something of her own, but she couldn’t find the right words to say so she kept her mouth shut. A few times she awkwardly licks her lips. So what are you doing at such an early hour? When she belatedly recalled such a reply, she had already missed her timing by a long time.
The man spoke again.
“Are you hungry? I’m in the room. I’ll even bring you a light snack.”
“…….”
Her lips poured out. Unwelcome favor.
Violetta furrowed her eyebrows. She shakes her head after taking a few deep breaths to calm her heart.
“No, it’s okay. I was just out for a quick walk. It’s a little sore to stay in the room.”
“At dawn like this?”
“…… My eyes open early today. Why are you pacing the hallways at this time of day?”
“I usually don’t sleep much. Even if you close your eyes just a little, you’ll wake up quickly. It’s a good way to kill time, idly walking around the halls.”
“Then you often stared at me while I was sleeping.”
“It is also a hobby of its own. If you do, time will pass.”
“…… Don’t arbitrarily make me your hobby. What’s the fun in looking at a sleeping person’s face?”
The man shrugged his shoulders to answer. He never said no. At that action, Violetta frowned at her and let out a sigh.
There hadn’t been a man breaking into her room without permission for the past few days. Is it something he doesn’t know? He wondered if he was still staring at her sleeping face.
Suddenly, I feel a burdensome gaze. While she was organizing her thoughts, the man was staring at Violetta. As she turns her head, her eyes meet. She was an unpredictable pupil.
“What, is there anything you want to say?”
“…….”
The man takes a step towards Violetta without answering.
Violetta reflexively took a step back.
“What, what is it?”
“…….”
“If you have something to say, say it. Don’t look at me with bad eyes.”
“…….”
The man said nothing. Every time he took a step closer, Violetta’s heart thumped loudly. Her heartbeat was as loud as the sound of thunder, and she couldn’t come to her senses. She was soon driven to her wall. As the man approaches her, she closes her eyes tightly.
‘I’ve been patient with the subject for a long time.’
I thought so. It seems that he will finally stop laughing at his freedom and kindness and reveal his true colors again.
But even if you wait a long time. He had no sign of doing anything serious. A sudden laugh was heard. Violetta opened her eyes, which had been quietly closed. The man was already far behind. I passed Violetta just as I was approaching, and headed to the other side of her hallway.
Her heartbeat quieted down. Her tension melted away. Only then did she realize that she had been made fun of, so Violetta bit her lip.
I wanted to scream, but my voice echoed loudly in the hallway at dawn. Violetta, not wanting to make a fuss, had no choice but to stare at his back.
After a long time passed, Violetta started going on her way again. With no particular destination in mind, she continued her thoughts, moving wherever her legs took her.
‘What on earth does that man want to do?’
It was hard to guess what he was thinking. There is no one else who lives as selfishly as he does.
Even when she ran into her in the hallway, her heart was anxious that she might be disadvantaged, but the man let her go unexpectedly. Although she has been teased in small ways, it is literally minor. Compared to usual, she didn’t even get into a mischievous axis. Deep down, she was even worried that her clothes would come off in her hallway and be used as her pacifier.
Do you have any special intentions? Is there anything you want to gain by leaving yourself alone like this? It was hard for Violetta to even guess.
‘You mean you’re really just trying to win my heart? That man knows how to use lukewarm methods like this?’
In the first place, the current situation is so contrary to the way she understands the behavior of men. He wasn’t the type to do things deliberately. If there is something he wants to do, he does it once. He doesn’t know patience. Such was his life-long lifestyle, but a man with abilities close to omnipotence did not know how to consider the very option of waiting.
‘But you neglect and endure to get what you want from me?’
That…… Nonsense.
How about making another hypothesis?
Suddenly, he wondered if the man had finally grown tired of him.
‘I’ve done my best every day to be fussy, so I’m sure I’ll get tired of it.’
Isn’t this a man who can get what he wants without lifting a finger? It’s full of women who would be willing to die for a single command.
Just as the grapes that foxes cannot eat are defined as sour grapes. I wonder if that selfish man has finally come to have such thoughts.
It was the scenario she had longed for. Wouldn’t it be nice to have a little hope?
Humans tend to think only what is good for them. So did she.
***
After a few more days, Violetta had no choice but to admit that she was completely wrong.
Her man didn’t treat her harshly anymore, but he didn’t particularly neglect her either.
When he was bored, he came to talk and even tried to do favors to the extent that it was a bit burdensome.
I wonder if the obsession I’ve shown so far was a normal obsession. I got tired of it so easily and couldn’t let it go. Violetta knew it well. She just held out a little hope.
‘Rather than that, the current situation.’
Breaking out of her confined room and going for daily walks, she was able to regain some of her former lucidity.
She thought, trying to clear her uneasy distorted state of mind.
I also understood why the man would do such awkward things.
He chose the way of the sun instead of the way of the north wind to undress the traveler. In the meantime, he couldn’t win his heart no matter how much he whipped him, so now he wants to win the other person’s heart with warm favor.
‘Come now?’
In the end, Violetta thought, everything was futile. This wretched body had already been trained by his hands. If you just had sex every day as usual, you might have heard about the love affair someday, even if it was impossible to fall in love. After all, she can’t help but fall in love when men and women make her children and mix her flesh.
But she’ll get her love with a favor. It was already too late for her to see. It felt a little bit like it. It’s like she’s been convincing me that she’ll treat me well after doing such things.
‘Still…… It does show a bit of humanity.’
I thought she was a very inhuman person.
It also felt a bit silly.
“Two days ago, you said you wanted to try Henar’s dessert. I hired someone to find a cook. Let’s have some tea and wait until the refreshments are served.”
The man said with an expressionless expression on his face.
Violetta nodded her head obediently.
For the past few days, he had been willing to do anything Violetta asked for. It was nothing too difficult for her on his part.
Violetta was unaware that she was gradually unraveling. She wasn’t particularly calculating that her man was trying to catch her off guard. She just naturally became that way. Originally, people tend to easily forget the pain of the past and become absorbed in comfort. This would also be a type of defense mechanism.
Violetta suddenly thought. Perhaps, he thought that it would be possible for him to take the initiative in this relationship as it is.
It was impossible to shake off a man’s obsession anyway. If so, I’d rather have a relationship while holding the initiative…… Wouldn’t she be able to use her fearful and reluctant abilities for her own sake?
As much as he suffered, he was quickly getting drunk on comfort. For a moment, I forgot what kind of person he was and he had such thoughts.
