Gaiden 5
Ramun and Shadow were born as a pair. They came to the human world one after another. Lucerne from his previous life passed away and passed on his shadow, so Ramun became a complete god.
And one day, God asked Astina of her previous life.
'Won't you really regret it?'
At that time, God was a very perfect golden light. It filled and flooded Astina like the midday sun.
'I have finally reached completion and become a god. If I turn back time, the present perfect me will disappear, so you cannot borrow and use my god-like power.'
Astina replied.
“It's okay.”
'Then wouldn't it be better to turn back the time right after you were born? That makes it easier for me to take care of you.'
Astina shook her head. She has already decided
'If you turn back time. The woman you have the deepest connection with. You have no choice but to turn back time using your mother. Turning back time is like stepping into deep water with a rope tied around your ankles. There is a limit to the amount of time that can be reversed.'
“If I turn back time. Does my mother remember everything?”
'I don't know how far it will be perfect. All the time with a sober mind will be remembered.'
“Good then. Give me back time.”
Around the time you were born. Already her mother was mad. Besides, Lucerne's life is ruined. And so was Astina. Strongly affected by the poison she was exposed to in her womb, and brainwashed by her great-grandfather's drugs, Astina was insane. Too many tragedies had already happened before Astina was born.
Before that. With her thread twisted, she had to go back to before.
'Think carefully.'
Ramun said.
'If your mother, who turned back time, decides she doesn't want to see you, you will never be born. Then your existence.'
“Know. Like nothing from the beginning. That's how it disappears However……. I'm okay. Even if I wasn't born My mother would be fine. You've shown it all through the past. If she succeeds in running away from the Cartier family completely. Even with that……. That's enough.”
Astina patted her mother's letters. Astina has lived an escapism with Nora all her life. During her time abroad, her Nora devotedly cared for Astina.
Nora's love gave Astina courage.
Certainly. She will be able to meet again.
But even if she couldn't, she was fine. She lived her hellish life. If Elisha's life could be different. That wasn't a bad result either.
* * *
And all time turned around. Astina was reborn.
And she's when Astina gets her first cognitive abilities.
When she was two years old. Astina felt the warm embrace and smelled her sunshine.
Two-year-old Astina, fair-cheeked, was hugged by someone. She wore her wavy long blonde hair and a very slight smile at the corners of her mouth.
“Astina.”
“Oh, Boo. Yes.”
“Okay.”
Elisha whispered. Half of Elisha's face was not distorted, and it was flawlessly beautiful. She looked peaceful and happy.
“I waited a very long time to meet you. Dear my dear.”
“…….”
“I only thought of seeing you again.”
If Astina had a little more complete cognitive ability. And if Ramun could still speak, she would have said that to Astina. She wasn't wrong
But two-year-old Astina was too young. She couldn't think long, and as she grew up she forgot what Elisha had told her that day.
* * *
Being her family was the first thing Astina had in her life. Besides, she had an older brother by the time she was born.
“Astina. Cute Astina.”
Ires was like a kind of proof to Astina that her life this time hadn't failed.
Ires does not resemble anyone in her family on the inside. Someone said at first glance that her Ires personality resembled Lucerne's deceased father, Michelan.
Lucerne was similar to her previous life. He was basically a cold person. But he didn't feel like he was in danger, and he was a little more affectionate than when he was a superior. Besides, Astina wasn't afraid of him.
And Elisha…….
“My dear. It's okay?”
“It's okay.”
Astina opened her eyes. Elisha had instructed her maids to prepare breakfast and enter her room.
“You have so much natural strength that you often get sick. You have to be careful.”
Astina was about to say something. Astina knew that her illness would only get worse.
It was something she would go through when she became an adult.
Because she was born with so much magical power, she knew that she would live with headaches and crushing pains all over her body. At least because Ramun was controlling her powers, she was fine now. But she, like a dam that blocks the water, will burst one day.
'It's not a poison inherited from the womb or a brainwashing drug that makes the mind strange.'
It was a simple pain, and considering her past life, it was something she should have experienced.
Said Elisha.
“I have to tell Nora that it is still too early for her sword training.”
“No. Training with her aunt is always good. She's on good terms with her ex and her aunt.”
“Okay. Good thing. But aside from her sword training, can we have tea together with her aunt and her mother?”
“My aunt likes it too. To train me.”
“…… If so, I can't help it.”
Elisha said calmly. Although her face looks cold at first glance, Astina knows how much infinite love flows inside.
Elisha still treated Astina as a child when she was sick. Elisha personally oversaw Astina's breakfast. She said as she wiped Astina's mouth.
“Someone from the temple will come. They say a new saint is coming to greet you.”
Astina hesitated. Astina said she knew about him. Thanks to Rosaria's timely discovery and protection, she was a young saint who was safely protected in the temple.
'If I could turn back time again, I might be able to meet your mate.'
'Do I have a partner too?'
'This is a child who should have been born. She is a child who was almost born as a girl. The matter is long. Okay. She is a child who possesses the power of a god that is unbelievable among humans. Because of your great ability, you live in pain for the rest of your life. My power as a god is strong, so even the healing abilities of the priests of the main god cannot reach it. But only one child was born for you with the healing power to reach you.'
'He……. She was almost born, but died in the end?'
'Okay. If everything works out the way you want, he might even survive.'
No way.
Astina hesitated.
'It's not nice to know her own destiny.'
A new saint entered, surrounded by several priests. She looked six or seven years older than Astina, but she was still a young man.
The new saint, she was told, was of considerable beauty. Green eyes and soft blonde hair. He was the owner of a really neutral beauty, except for his tall height.
'This. Thankfully, he's handsome.'
Astina she wanted to sigh.
“Meet the little princess.”
Said the saint whose name she did not know.
“My name is…….”
Astina thought before she even heard the name. I guess that's my destiny. Would I look crazy if I said that?
* * *
The young saint's name was Zion.
Shion was an expressionless and obedient young man like Elisha. She soon became a frequent visitor to the Duke.
At that time, the problem of treatment of saints, saints, and prophets emerged, so the saints were not severely restricted in their movements as before.
“Princess Minami is of a much more noble status than I am, but I am in love with her.”
A few years later, Shion confessed to Astina. It was the same expression as usual, but Shion's fingertips were shaking.
'I guess I should be the next great pope.'
Astina thought.
Same with the sins committed in the past life. As well as the burden of her duchy. She said that Astina had been thinking about entering the temple since before she had been. Since saints cannot marry, the only way to legally occupy Zion is probably to become the Great Pope.
“Is it okay if something goes wrong?”
“Yes?”
“Even if something goes wrong while we're dating, I don't have the ability to take responsibility and fix it.”
To be precise, this was what Astina meant. 'In this life, Ramun will not be able to fully awaken because he will not get a shadow. She won't have the ability to turn back time. Even if things go wrong between us, there will be no turning back. Are you okay?' That was what he said.
“What's wrong?”
“…….”
“If so. Do you need to fix it Shouldn't a broken person like someone?”
Shion asked calmly and Astina pulled her Shion's collar and kissed her on the lips.
“Shh.”
Zion's eyes widened. Astina shut her Shion's mouth. Beneath the railing they lined up. Lucerne and Elisha were holding hands. Upon closer inspection, they were having a small quarrel.
“It's too bad that you can't even dance with anyone else at the ball.”
“Are you interested in such a thing?”
“I don't have one, but it's unpleasant not having rights.”
“A voice without heart.”
“…… Yes. I hate dancing, but you're too jealous. Do you understand my feelings of wanting to argue sometimes?”
“I can't get used to it even after years. I love you enough to die even if I ask you to die with me right now. Are you going to take responsibility for flirting with me like this? Don't even dream.”
Elisha kissed Lucerne as if she wouldn't listen any more.
In an instant, the kiss became intense and Elisha's back hit the wall. Lucerne's hand dug into Elisha's apron, and Lucerne adjusted the angle of her head.
…… Fortunately, Astina did not see it. It's because Shion covered her eyes.
“Well. Well done. Zion. Let her stay back.”
Astina said. It was a tiny whisper.
But even if it was loud, it didn't matter. Lucerne and Elisha were immersed in their own world, so they couldn't even hear it.
The last words they heard below were:
“You keep your promise once and for all.”
“I heard that if you talk nonsense, cover it with your lips.”
“You are so smart, how could I not love you. Elisha.”
Astina said after slowly walking away from Shion and her.
“Shion, don't worry, our love won't be that intense.”
Astina was smiling before she knew it. Astina recently realized something. Surprisingly. Astina's life this time was wrapped up in her love.
As Elisha wrote in her letter in her previous life. Her mother was a man of promises.
