176 – 55. Gift (1)
Elijah cries.
I sat down on the floor.
Cover your face.
Shaking her shoulders.
The sound of her whimpering while sobbing bitterly seems like she is trying to hold back her cries somehow.
She decided to run away.
She must run away.
Because she will kill me.
She must have come to kill me.
I’m sure that’s the case, but it’s strange.
Her reaction isn’t the only thing that’s strange.
It’s strange to me too.
Her feet can’t move at all.
I can’t leave.
No, I don’t want to leave.
‘The reason you cry….’
I don’t want to see it.
I feel so frustrated and depressed inside.
‘You laugh a lot more than you cry…’ .’
It’s pretty.
This is a ridiculous idea.
The fact that smiling is prettier than crying means that I have seen Elijah cry and laugh.
Elijah.
There is no way that evil Elijah would have shown such an appearance in front of me.
‘But why…? .’
Ever since she ran away from Elijah, she has experienced strange situations.
People around me act as if I have lost my memory.
That was my reaction too.
My heart feels empty and empty.
Elijah keeps dreaming about her.
Every time I wake up in the morning, I look for her necklace or check the flower pot on the window sill.
I have never had a necklace or a flower pot on a window sill.
‘If I lost my memory….’
So if you are doing this.
What kind of relationship were we…? .
Elijah gently lowered her hand.
Only her big, red eyes are revealed.
She slowly lifts her head and looks up at me.
My eyes are shaking.
Big, clear eyes cry.
I hated that look.
I think you cried a few times.
What I especially remember is when I was young.
Sardis.
Who was that?
And the assassin.
Someone tried to kill you, and I stabbed you instead….
“… ….”
When I came to my senses, I was already in front of Elijah.
She twitched her eyes.
“… Judah?”
The calling voice trembled violently.
It was the sound of being thirsty again.
I knelt down on one knee in front of her.
We set eye level.
“Lady.”
I stretched out my hand carefully.
I touched Elijah’s face.
I don’t know why I’m doing this.
I just wanted to wipe away my tears like this.
Just like the old days.
Elijah’s lips trembled.
Her chin also vibrates slightly.
His eyes get bigger and bigger, and he grabs my wrist.
White, soft hands hold strong.
It is a force that feels persistent, as if it will never let go again.
Just like she did, she placed her face in my hand and rubbed it.
It looks like a cute cat.
This can’t be happening.
I know you….
Is the you I remember really you?
“Judas….”
“… Yes. Miss.”
Elijah asked, putting his cheek in my hand.
Tears are still flowing endlessly.
The young emotion in the moist eyes seems to be either fear or anticipation.
“Do you remember me?”
The Elijah I remember is a wicked woman.
A madman who does not know emotions and has a contempt for people’s lives.
But, I don’t think that’s really the Elijah I know.
“I….”
A feeling of longing, as if I knew it.
I frowned without realizing it.
Elijah’s hand approaches cautiously.
For some reason, I didn’t want to avoid her hand.
A soft hand caressed my forehead.
He smooths out the frown lines and strokes her face.
Be careful as if handling something very precious.
That touch.
The expression on his face that makes him smile as if he is happy, even as he sheds sad tears.
Those eyes that look at me lovingly.
It should be unfamiliar.
It should be awkward.
I was happy and happy to meet you.
“I don’t remember…. I don’t think I can. However….”
I took out each word with great difficulty.
“I don’t think the you I remember right now is the real you. Me too…. So, I used to, no, we were….”
I couldn’t continue talking.
“Inhale!”
My mouth was closed.
By the lips of Elijah.
Elijah, who was listening to her story, jumped at me.
With her hand that was touching her face, he grabs her neck and pins it down, then presses his lips against hers.
Time passed slowly for a moment.
Hair flying from jumping.
A face approached her with her eyes tightly closed while crying.
Warm, soft, soft texture that touches your mouth.
At that moment, I remembered.
At Bevel’s home, the moment I kissed her for the first time.
And from then on, I remember secretly hoping for a deeper contact than that.
As she ran towards me, I, who was kneeling down on one knee, fell behind her.
Naturally, she got on top of me.
It was as if Elijah had fallen on me.
‘Black sun….’
I took out Elijah, who had locked himself inside.
In a land full of anemones, I hugged her as she fell like flower petals.
The memories come back one by one.
Like a video played in reverse.
Black sun. Ballack. Hell. God.
Elijah co-annihilated the evil spirit.
We met, then fell apart.
Misunderstandings built up and then resolved.
Elijah and I repeated.
The memories that flooded in quickly made me feel so uncomfortable.
Why did I continue to feel cold, as if a corner of my heart was empty?
Why could I not leave after seeing Elijah crying?
‘Ah.’
It made everyone realize.
‘I, you….’
The confession that you said you liked it.
A promise in the afterlife that I would never forget.
I forgot that moment.
Elijah kissed my mouth roughly as if she was going to dig into it with her lips.
Her arms holding her neck are strong.
As if I could never let go of this narrowly narrowed distance.
I am not unfamiliar with you, who clings to me so persistently, and who rushes in and hugs me at no time. Now.
I quietly closed my eyes.
I was willing to live up to this feeling and her expectations.
I wanted to do that.
It might be a little awkward since it’s your first time.
I wrapped my arms around her waist with careful hands.
And then she moved her lips.
I don’t know how to do it, but just like she did.
In an instant, Elijah’s body flinched.
He was probably surprised by my sudden response.
The act of lusting after her lips also stopped for a moment.
But I didn’t stop.
He twisted her head and pulled her lips as if to suck them.
Then she also longed for me.
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She sticks close to her like a thirsty person sticking her head into a spring of water.
She must have been out of breath, so sometimes she parted her lips and took a sharp breath.
That moment was very short.
As soon as you breathe in and out, it sticks again.
The sound was like someone swimming.
That’s how she fell into me, and I fell into Elijah.
Meanwhile, Elijah’s body continued to shake.
It is crying.
Tears are still falling down my face.
“Ugh…. Hmm….”
Even though she was having difficulty breathing due to crying, she had no intention of falling.
She slowly removed her face as if she couldn’t bear it any longer.
The red eyes were wet with tears.
Lips wet with saliva are shiny.
Elijah glanced at her lips, and she spoke in a trembling voice.
“Judas…. Me, me, remember… ?”
I carefully captured that face in her eyes.
The reason Elijah’s vision was blurred was because his tears had fallen. Maybe.
“I remembered… ?”
I hugged her after she sighed deeply.
Elijah calmly leaned his face into my arms.
The voice that came out was a little choked and trembled.
“… Yes. Miss.”
It was terrible.
I finally became afraid again.
I have forgotten this Elijah.
She almost forgot and lived on.
What God said comes to mind.
‘You said you would take away memories that can no longer be the same as you are now.’
It may be part or all of it.
And in return, I only lost her memories of being with Elijah.
Only the moments when we met, experienced events, and shared and felt emotions little by little have disappeared.
Then I really became no longer the person I used to be.
I even thought that the world I experienced was completely fake.
Elijah is the greatest central axis of the people called me.
I almost forgot about her.
Her chances were low, but she almost came close to leaving her behind.
I smoothed Elijah’s hair.
Soft.
I took a deep breath.
Her rich scent fills her lungs.
I was about to say I was sorry for not remembering.
I pictured how she felt when she looked at me.
Conversely, if Elijah lost her memories and I kept those feelings to myself.
It must have been indescribably terrible.
I did that.
I know too.
There was nothing I could do at that time.
It was the best.
Someone of the two had to do it.
I decided on her behalf and carried out her unconsciousness.
I felt sorry because I felt like it was my fault for experiencing such pain.
I know it’s not entirely my fault.
Because it’s not me who decides which memories to take.
Still, I felt sorry.
But, if I were Elijah right now, I don’t think I would want to hear that I’m sorry.
It is not just a feeling, but a conviction.
Because we can think like that.
So I decided to tell you what you wanted to hear.
I hugged her tighter.
“I missed you.”
“… Black!”
It’s not a lie.
Even while I had no memory of her, I always thought of her.
I dreamed of her often.
I finally realize the reason.
I missed her.
I missed you.
“I missed you very, very much.”
“Ugh-! Okay… !”
Elijah whimpered as if he was in pain.
“Aaaaa!”
She cried like a child.
“Me too, me too… ! Hehehehehe! I really, really missed you too… !”
He buries his face in my arms and continues to speak even though he is sobbing.
I gently stroked and patted her complaining back.
“I’ve been missing you for a week… ! In order to make it easy for Judah to come, there are a lot of things that need to be done… ! So I was very tired… !”
“Yes, yes, I did.”
I saw Elijah crying and Elijah quietly grumbling several times.
But this is my first time seeing someone cry out loud like she did today and openly whine like a child.
It is probably the only sight in the world that only I can see.
I still don’t know everything about Elijah.
For me too, there will be a new side of me that I am not aware of.
So from now on, I want to get to know her and let her know me through her happy heart.
An alley in Jericho.
It is a bit of a shabby place to reunite with the empress who established the order of the new era.
But the space itself is not that important.
As long as I’m with Elijah, I don’t care where it is.
Elijah probably feels the same way as me.
I can be sure.
Overcoming the birth that tried to define our existence, we defined ourselves as each other.
Elijah, who was crying and talking, hugged my neck and squirmed.
She was waiting for something, and she put a necklace around my neck.
The golden necklace I had forgotten about.
“You can’t run away now even if you want to.”
She lifted her head, sniffed her nose, and grinned.
The red, swollen eyes and nose from crying are quite cute.
I was thinking of running away anyway….
“I improved this necklace so that only I can take it off. “I worked hard to make it strong so it wouldn’t break or break.”
“… ….”
“So, no matter what happens, I will never be able to escape. “Don’t let me go anymore.”
Seeing how his persistent expression of affection is just cute and adorable, I think I’ve gone as far as I can.
“Oh my. “I was planning on running away, but I guess I’ll have to scrap it.”
Elijah just laughed at my joke.
She kisses her again naturally.
But.
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Thunder rumbled in Elijah’s boat.
“… ….”
Elijah’s eyes twitched as he pressed his lips to hers.
Her face, already red from crying, became even redder.
“… Why. What.”
It’s obvious even if you don’t look at it.
You must have been starving without me.
I stroked Elijah’s head as she hid her face in my arms.
“Shall we start by eating?”
Then Elijah avoided her gaze as if embarrassed, and she spoke softly.
“Not that one.”
“Yes?”
“What’s more important… there is.”
