37. Inevitable (6)
An indefinite dispatch to the knight’s grave.
Why did Elijah suddenly make this decision?
What was the reason you strangled me that day?
I don’t know anything yet.
Sure.
“My lady. Let’s talk with me.”
I need to know something first.
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Elijah didn’t answer my question right away.
I just stare at you without saying anything.
This is a technique that is always used when putting pressure on the opponent.
The silence of the authorities.
I have never used it.
I didn’t avoid her and faced her straight at her.
“Whoa.”
Then she let out a sigh of annoyance and winked at Leah.
Please stay out.
Leah quietly left her office.
After the door was closed, Elijah opened her mouth.
“What do you want to talk about?”
The voice coming back is unmatched cold.
“This directive. What does it mean?”
“It’s exactly what it says. I wouldn’t be able to read.”
“… Miss. Do you really think I came here because I couldn’t read this?”
“I don’t know other than that.”
The Knight’s Tomb.
The place name is Bethany.
Deploying troops there is a punishment for sin, and sending troops indefinitely is tantamount to a death sentence.
Of course, few people follow the order to dispatch troops directly.
Most of them try to escape in the middle.
So it is divided into two cases again.
When the owner sends the target to Bethany even after using physical force.
To wish for a complete and painful death.
And the second.
In the case of giving an order to dispatch troops or neglecting them.
It means that it doesn’t matter whether the opponent dies or not.
I am the latter.
“Did I do something wrong?”
“No.”
“Then what the hell do you want from me?”
“Judas. Be clear about what you want. What answer do you want to hear?”
“… ….”
She puts the question away for a while.
It’s not something worth bringing up in this situation.
Elijah is right.
Be clear about what you want.
“Do you want me to die?”
“… ….”
“Are you no longer needed?”
“Hmm.”
Elijah knocked on her table a few times.
With her chin resting on her chin, she looked out the window with a sullen face, then answered.
“Yes.”
“… ….”
“Did you get the answer?”
“… No. It’s hard to understand. It doesn’t make any logical sense. Isn’t it a situation where even one more soldier is needed?”
“I don’t think so.”
“By the way, are you kicking me out of that situation?”
Elijah gently closed her eyes and leaned her body against the backrest.
Then she opens her eyes slowly, looking up at the ceiling.
In my eyes, it was only a reaction that it was annoying to deal with.
She looked at me slowly again and opened her mouth.
“Judas. Do you know about the first Bible?”
“… ?”
“There is a passage like this. Her twisted sun, longing for the moon for her own perfection, will eventually eat it.”
It’s a little different from what I heard from Priest Aquines five years ago, but it’s roughly similar.
“I don’t know if you know. In the meantime, I’ve been by your side, absorbing your power. That magical power resembling the moon.”
“… ….”
“And the mad fire I possess is the force that constantly tests my violence. However, with your power, I could calm it down and control it.”
“Then rather me….”
“By the way, I don’t need it anymore.”
Elijah said nonchalantly.
Your gaze is completely out of the window.
It seems that even the time to explain this is cumbersome.
“My strength is already enough. There is no need for cumbersome troops. Actually, that’s not what’s important. As I said, my violence subsides when you are here. In other words.”
Her eyes returned to mine.
The red eyes stare at me plainly.
Unlike him, his voice is stern.
As if cutting off a connected line.
“Your presence should disturb me.”
“… ….”
“When you are here, my stomach sinks. It can’t be. I can’t let the violence subside when I have to go to war.”
Elijah shrugged her shoulders.
“That’s why. There are weaknesses that bother me, so I just get rid of them. Beyond what you don’t need, it’s cumbersome.”
“So… Were you trying to choke me?”
“… Ah. I didn’t know you were awake. I didn’t know at that time. But now that I think about it, that doesn’t seem like much.”
Elijah smiled at me.
It’s not a friendly smile, it’s a cold, evil laugh that makes it hard to guess what’s inside.
A long time ago, she thought that was the best and most familiar expression for Elijah.
Looks up at me with that creepy smile that is now unfamiliar.
With the face of the villain I was terrified of in the past.
“I have had a hard career, but I should take care of the minimum honor. This dispatch order is for that consideration.”
“… ….”
“Do you understand now?”
“Not yet. Could it be that my magic power has weakened?”
“Hmm.”
Elijah’s calm eyes swept my body up and down.
Then he shrugs her shoulders.
“Not really. You said You yourself are an obstacle to me. Whether or not you become weak in that situation has nothing to do with me.”
“Then why do you need food that is good for magical power….”
“My name was my escort knight, and if I died too easily after going to Bethany, my reputation would be damaged. That’s just why.”
“… ….”
I grabbed my throbbing forehead.
“What we showed at the foundation festival….”
Elijah cut me off with a sigh.
“I was just trying to use you. It was a time when I hadn’t absorbed your power yet. After all, our relationship is just a contract, right?”
“… Is that so.”
“Whether I’m heading to the dispatch site or running away, I won’t interfere. If possible, I wish you would die. I’m in trouble if I ever need your tranquilizer in the middle of the war.”
“… ….”
I let out a deep sigh.
Should I take it out or not?
There is a question that I have been hesitant about for a very long time.
I am hesitating even at this moment.
Even so, if it’s not now, I don’t think I’ll ever be able to confirm it.
I have to tell you.
“… I thought you liked me.”
My voice trembled a little.
It is a miserable feeling.
It’s also funny and childish.
It’s not like a childish complaint.
However, it is a problem that cannot be ignored at all.
Unfortunately, I was worried about her even in this situation.
Sardis.
My question may have reminded you of the trauma of your childhood.
At that time, Elijah’s crying face, trembling body, and even the situation after that.
I am vivid as if it were yesterday.
However, my worries were not of much value.
The corners of Elijah’s mouth twitched.
Her facial expression she made.
The response to my question was ridicule.
She smiles with only one corner of her mouth raised.
“I told you. I was just trying to use you. It’s all made up so that you misunderstand and misunderstand. I learned that men are easy to deal with like that.”
“… ….”
I thought there might be a misunderstanding.
For some reason I couldn’t bear to say it.
I was clumsy as well, so I thought it was a mistake.
So I believed that it could be solved through conversation.
But I was wrong.
The ending that came out at the end of the conversation was not what I expected.
Reason and emotion.
I couldn’t persuade Elijah into any realm, and I couldn’t get into her heart.
But I am. Really you
“I….”
I was about to say something, but I laughed out loud.
It’s all over, but what are we going to do?
I smiled bitterly and wiped my face once.
Elijah just looked up at me with emotionless red eyes.
You are so stubborn, what does my words mean?
“Until now.”
I removed the jewelry that was fastened to the collar of my shirt.
Small jewel decorations, sparkling red like Elijah’s eyes.
The symbol of an escort knight.
I put it on her desk.
“Because I can serve you.”
She took off her necklace.
Artifacts that help you reach each other whenever you want.
Now I don’t have to.
I put down the necklace.
“It was an honor.”
Finally, I bowed politely.
She looked at me with insensitive eyes until the end, then gestured as if telling me to leave.
He obediently obeyed the order.
There was no choice.
In the hour of trying to avoid the tragedy because I had no choice, I came to a very wrong ending.
Once again, this reality was funny.
Her years of wanting to run away put to shame, I was chased by her.
***
Clap.
The door that Judas carefully closed.
Elijah looked at the door with indifferent eyes.
His steps are farther away.
Hearing that, Elijah bit her lip.
The sleek mask shattered in an instant.
I forced myself to hold my breath and covered her face with both hands.
Her hands were moistened with tears from the corners of her eyes.
‘Be patient…. Let’s be patient…. I have to be patient…. Well done, Judas did a good job not noticing….’
It is easy to wear a mask.
Because I wore it for so long, I couldn’t tell the difference between the bare face and the mask.
I thought so.
However, it has been a long time since she wore a mask in front of Judas.
It’s been so long that I don’t even remember when I wore the mask.
I almost showed my bare face several times.
Every time Elijah averted her gaze, closed her eyes, or sighed, averting her danger.
She worked hard in front of him so that the mask would not break.
The result.
It’s a success.
Inconsistent with the feeling the word success gives, it is very successful.
It has to be.
I predicted all the questions he would ask and even prepared answers.
I practiced again and again for today.
In fact, Judas gave out all her words that she predicted.
Even the question he hoped would not come out, Judas, who was transparent and sincere, did not hide it.
She is unlike herself.
‘I thought you liked me.’
She prepared her answer to him, of course.
However, she didn’t have the confidence to answer.
What if I really brought up that question?
I was very worried.
I was crying and the corners of my mouth were twitching, but I managed to sublimate into a mocking smile.
My voice didn’t tremble, and I did a good job with the lies I prepared.
She hid her sincerity that she was of the same mind as him.
She’s glad he didn’t open his eyes when she got on top of him.
I really didn’t know you were awake.
If you’ve seen the crazy fire-obsessed eyes and bewildered expression, you might have doubted the reaction I showed today.
Really, it was fortunate.
Maybe it’s right to consider this situation fortunate.
‘No, good…. It’s done with this….’
I know the heart of Judas.
I didn’t know before, but now I have no choice but to know.
As soon as she became aware of her own feelings, she became aware of Juda’s feelings as well, just as her fruit opened up in clusters.
It’s not just what happened internationally.
There is no way she is unaware of the feelings she has accumulated over the past five years.
How deeply we were stained with each other.
That’s why I had to cut it off more fiercely.
Even though her personality seems dirty, she is stupidly kind, and Judas has to do this.
She also had to hide the truth that she might die.
Because of his personality, he will try to stay by his side even if he dies.
When she scratched with harsh words, her heart was torn as well.
Suddenly, each other has become another name for each other.
I had to do it anyway.
It felt like a duty.
Judas becomes dangerous when she is by her side.
It is not only the damage caused by war.
She might kill him herself.
Its repulsive nature was confirmed by Elijah, and he accepted it with a miserable heart.
If a war breaks out, he will definitely continue to use a lot of magic.
I’m going to find Judas to get out of that crazy fire.
Then again, she hurts him.
If he absorbs the power and eventually runs out of his power, he may die.
He will kill himself.
Hiding it in a cage under a mountain is pointless.
Elijah knows.
She herself can’t stand him.
As long as you know his location, you will impulsively find him at any time.
It is very likely.
Therefore, it is best for both of them to send her away to a place he does not know.
She herself became a dangerous human being to him like a disaster.
‘You can’t be weak…. I can’t be weak….’
As she repeated the words, she made up her mind.
Maybe not go to Bethany.
Will fall in the middle.
I hope so.
Somewhere, she hopes she will live in a place she doesn’t know.
The words that I wish you would die are all lies.
Judas should not know.
‘… Let’s not be weak.’
Killing the Bebel family is his top priority.
For that matter, there is no reason for Judas to sacrifice.
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“Whoa….”
I opened my eyes with a sigh.
What comes into sight is a red cuff and a golden necklace.
What Judas left behind.
“… ….”
I closed my eyes tightly because I started crying again.
I get up and go to the window.
Down there.
You can see the back of Judas who is about to leave.
I am greeting the SS.
‘Enough with this…. Killing the Bebel family is all I do…. That’s it.’
He walks away.
5 Years. Time with him.
Looking back, it was a brilliantly colorful time.
As much as her childhood with her mother.
The 5 years that passed by quickly, the memories, the emotions I realized, are getting farther away.
It feels like a stake has been driven through the heart.
It hurts, but it doesn’t.
The place is open.
He has let go of his whole life once, and he is letting go a second time.
Even so, she couldn’t break down.
You can’t be weak.
I thought about it like an obsession and persevered, albeit dangerously.
Hermis blocked his way to leave.
Looks like they’re trying to say hello.
Elijah opened her eyes and drew back the curtains on her.
My jaw trembled and I bit my lip.
She clenched her hand against the window frame.
“Keuk…. Whoa… !”
In the end, Chimi couldn’t hold back her feelings.
Elijah cried for a long time as she left the window so they couldn’t see each other.
Through the curtain, she doesn’t even know that Judas is looking up at her window.
