Chapter 287 – Chapter 287 ― Now Loading (4)
Chapter 287 ― Now Loading (4)
Yongcheol looked into the darkness. The darkness, which had only felt so close until now, felt like the black bottom of an unknown sea.
The chilly energy suddenly made Yongcheol scared.
However, Yongcheol gained courage as he felt the warmth from the light coming from the message flickering in front of his eyes.
It was like drinking a cup of hot drink on a cold winter day, and it felt like the stomach warmed up and the heat gradually spread throughout the body.
The starlight flowed through his veins, making Yongcheol aware of Roan’s body and encouraging him to move and think properly.
The darkness seemed to be unfamiliar with Roan’s appearance, and was immersed in him without blinking an eye.
In the meantime, Roan’s thoughts finally reached what kind of conversation they were having.
“I can see how much you have been observing people. And what you want.”
The being in the dark stared at Roan with twinkling eyes.
“Yes, you are like a shadow. As a life, there is no choice but to create something in order to achieve something, an existence that cannot be avoided in life even if you want to avoid it.
Are you saying you can satisfy our needs to the point where we can forget this suffering?”
“It’s not something I can forget! I take all the suffering, and you only have to pursue what you want!”
“Then…”
Roan’s eyes lit up.
‘Greed’ couldn’t see the message window that Roan was looking at, but he frowned as if the radiance shining in Roan’s purple eyes was similar to the starlight he hated.
“Are we bound to lose everything that arises from that suffering?”
“… Uh, maybe?”
“Then you have no idea what you were trying to take away.”
Yongcheol looked straight into the darkness with his fists clenched.
The fog-like darkness swayed loudly in front of Roan. In terms of people, it’s an act of blinking your eyes.
“People struggle to satisfy their needs. There are times when the desire itself is the purpose, but there are times when you use it as a stepping stone to achieve greater things.
When we try to castrate them all and give only comfort to the subject, we call it breeding.”
“I did not mean to restrict your freedom. When it comes to breeding, yes, it’s just getting what I want and giving you what you want. Is that bad?”
A smile appeared on Roan’s face.
It wasn’t a smile of joy.
It was a smile mixed with regret or pity.
The way ‘greed’ wants something so desperately is because it is not different from humans.
“It’s hard to judge what’s bad. But it’s not natural.”
“Nature… , It’s nice… Is it important?”
“Hmm.”
Roan shook his head.
“People can struggle because of the suffering of not being able to achieve it. Life is so great In other words, what you were trying to take away is a man’s chance to become great.”
Everyone can’t always choose what they want.
Therefore, various efforts have been made.
The mind to know the other person and the environment.
A cold head that wants to figure something out.
Efforts to gather and gather strength.
And hope that one day, you will get what you want. The future that leads to it.
Roan didn’t realize that in the first place he lived, but as he lived his second life with the power of the goddess, he did.
In fact, this second chance came because of the bitterness I got from the first life and the pursuit of the rightness that I had been longing for.
His first life gained meaning from it.
“You may not have it all. But each one does his best and carries on to the next generation. That is how life is lived.”
The message in front of Roan’s eyes was still flickering. Goddess is watching.
‘Greed’ had overwhelming power, but he quietly listened to Roan.
No one had ever said anything like this to him, and in countless hours of observing life, he had never figured it out.
Because he was not life, he had never understood hope.
“You want to grow a tree. That’s why the shadows get bigger. But that, in reality, limits the shape of the world. Not all trees can get enough nutrients and grow huge all together. Some trees die and new ones grow in order to be called a proper forest.”
“You mean, even that woman doesn’t care about dying life?”
“If it is natural. Huh.”
At the question of ‘greed’, Roan nodded his head.
“You said that the goddess is trying to get rid of the shadows, but I don’t agree with that. If the shadows are natural, I don’t think the Goddess will touch them either, nor the unharmed and dying trees in them. Maybe that’s why you didn’t disappear at all and stayed in the world?”
“Did you leave me there on purpose?”
“I can’t make them disappear from the world in the first place.”
Amelie had said.
It was impossible to get rid of ‘greed’, so there was no choice but to seal it.
Now that I think about it, it makes sense.
How can a world without greed be established? The Goddess might have declared that it was impossible on the spot.
Greed is in all of us.
Because it’s instinct
Of course, that instinct has its pros and cons.
Its pros and cons create the life of life.
“But if you take over everything and give each life what it wants, in the end we will disappear. So Goddess, maybe the people at that time thought you were dangerous.”
“Why?
“A person whose instincts are satisfied cannot be said to be human. Even animals don’t kill all animals just because they’re full or because they want to.”
Life is mysterious.
The word ‘greed’ is not wrong.
However, when you try to make something that is not always right, 100%, a bunch arises and the world goes out of order.
Life always wants something in order to live, but ‘greed’ eats the darkness created from it. Conversely, even in the process when someone naturally disappears, good intentions and life arise.
A place where you can’t be completely sure of the result of your actions, where you bite your tail. Wasn’t that the world
Like his life, which always grumbled and flew here because he chose the right direction just once.
You don’t know where the world will bounce, and then you hit the jackpot and that’s it.
All the wishes that everyone wants come true, and then, terribly, I hope to find another one.
It was difficult for Roan to think that he would be happy just repeating that cycle forever.
“A life where you do everything you want. It won’t happen in a person’s lifetime. So be content with what you have and strive for something new. I think struggling like that is life.”
‘Greed’, who had been listening to Roan silently for a while, burst into laughter. The darkness swelled.
Haha, but there were too many people who wanted me to say that.”
Roan shrugged his shoulders.
“Yes, your offer is really sweet. It’s not easy to refuse when they offer something that I can’t achieve on my own.”
“And you?”
Darkness stared blankly at Roan.
“Why do you dare refuse my offer?”
It was dark and the wind started to blow.
In the middle of the night, the cold that you feel when you walk in total darkness began to surround Roan.
Anxiety, loneliness, and fear enveloped Roan.
Roan clenched his fists once more.
The presence of ‘greed’ has grown ever larger.
‘… It looks like it will break.’
Roan swallowed a groan. He did not want to appear weak in the face of ‘greed’.
Like a star, the faintly flickering message in front of his eyes was Roan’s only comfort.
The wind grew stronger.
The storm carried darkness around Roan, and the sound of the wind seemed to blow his ears away.
However, the power of the goddess shining in Roan’s vicinity supported Roan to stand upright.
“How great you are, how great is the strength of that human being, how dare you, who are like my brother, reject me!”
An aura like thunder in a typhoon weighed down Roan.
The rage of ‘greed’ was carried in the blowing gale.
Roan cried out to the evil born of life but rejecting the gods, now regaining great power. He couldn’t quite understand what he was talking about because the sound was deafening.
“I know how precious an opportunity is!”
The darkness rushed at him with the force to tear his body apart. However, Roan believed the light in the message window in front of him.
“If you compromise to get what you want in moderation, you end up being a million years away from what you really want! I know that! Only when I threw away my instincts and greed in front of my eyes did I get a chance! I don’t want to mess with it anymore!”
Who are you talking about?
Yongcheol’s eyes turned red.
‘Greed’ made his eyes shine with interest even in the midst of rage.
Yongcheol’s appearance was large and rugged, but it changed to his own, as if he had gone through the storms of time.
“I only found out after I lost it! Even if I couldn’t meet the satisfaction of the moment, I had to value the time I ran towards what I wanted in it. This time, we will not lose!”
The message window started to disappear.
Precisely, because the background started to turn white, the white letters began to become invisible.
The darkness flinched and retreated.
The wind still raged, but the circle around Roan was no longer narrow.
“Even if I don’t get what I want this time! I’ll try! Because that’s what my life is worth!”
“Useless, stubborn…”
The white background began to expand and the wind continued to recede backwards and backwards. The voice of ‘greed’ started to fade away.
“Yes, there isn’t much left anyway… Which will be faster between her enduring and me growing stronger… Then go and regret it to your heart’s content… !”
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The front of my eyes turned white.
Roan involuntarily closed his eyes.
It felt like a world of light unfolding at the end of a long tunnel.
I opened my eyes softly with the feeling that the presence around me had changed.
The first thing I saw was a new message.
[Message: Loading complete.]
[Message: Second attempt! With your wisdom and courage, I hope you can overcome the ordeal!]
Roan was wearing armor and a courtesy.
It wasn’t the black uniform she usually wore, but pure white.
Because today was a wedding.
She said, ‘She died while wearing this armor.’
It was bittersweet. Roan touched her armor every time and opened her item window with a wry smile.
It was to check how much the growth value of the armor she had been raising had gone back.
Her laugh disappeared, instead her eyes widened.
