Episode 108. Thanks to you, I feel energized.
-Chijik.
The ember that burns the end of the cigarette in your mouth.
At the same time, I felt the smoke in my mouth sting my lungs, and I leaned my tired upper body against the roof railing.
Crossing his arms around his chin.
“It’s a filthy big school.”
In the field of staring, the surroundings of this school, and furthermore, the city that exists beyond it could be seen.
As expected, the sky is wrapped in the sunset after school.
“A dirty big city.”
Yes, it is a very large city no matter when you look at it.
So many people have gathered here in pursuit of peace.
For political reasons, fighting for so long that even hatred for what has been through so far is crumbled, dragging out time…….
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In the end, even the borders were torn down around this place, and they prepared to enjoy peace.
“… After all, even if a new era opens, the nature will not change.”
Yeah, everyone is tired, so we’re just taking a break.
If you overheat even a little bit, you will want to spread your hatred towards someone again.
Because you can forget all the worries and worries you have by pouring hatred on them.
Still, adults may have a reason, but children learn even the hatred they exude transparently.
I wonder if I could at least explain it, but adults don’t explain things to children.
Why is that person being beaten like that? To the question, the adults answer, ‘Because he’s a bad child.
Gets annoyed when asked why. He denigrates the ignorance of not understanding what is taken for granted in his position, and explains the opinion in abbreviated form with anger.
‘For now, just do as I am told. You’ll understand everything when you grow up.’
If you don’t follow it, you become a bad person, so the child reluctantly follows it.
As they said, when I became an adult, I didn’t know that people who said the same thing as them were filling my surroundings…
Perhaps the reason the war lasted 50 years was because such a legacy could not be broken.
Until the traces of those who inherited it in the first place are completely gone, I tried to find the reason why we should hate each other through learning from the past.
“…For a teacher to wield violence against a student, would that be a disciplinary action?”
You know all of that and still do this.
It’s been awhile since I let out such self-deprecating laughter.
“You don’t have to worry about that part.”
While I was smoking a cigarette on the roof, someone who opened the entrance slowly began to approach me.
A young man in a white uniform approaches with his hands behind his back. It was Waden, the lead manager.
“Kids who have realized something are usually cautious. Although you may not understand all of the meaning because you are immature right now, if you give yourself time to self-reflection, you will surely realize your mistakes.”
“…… Hee hee, will it be as easy as you think? Since you are a child of a royal family, you must be very proud.”
“The motive itself is derived from the desire for honor to correct injustice, so if you scold that the act is not honorable, you will surely realize it. Some of the students I encountered as a leader were like that.”
Is it comfort from experience?
Anyway, she’s more professional than me when it comes to handling problem children. When I thought that it would be okay if I trusted him, a faint smile naturally drew on my lips.
“From my point of view, what worries me is the teacher rather than the child… …. Are you okay?”
“It’s okay. This much.”
It’s not a lie.
It’s just bittersweet.
“…… Are you really okay?”
Can’t even see such bitterness?
To be honest, I just want to keep my mouth shut here…
“I felt nostalgic about the situation I just had.”
It would be nothing but an old-fashioned way to threaten someone like that.
Everyone has a different experience, but it would be terribly stupid to not acknowledge the difference and claim that you have an edge based only on time.
“Perfume, you mean?”
“I thought everything was over, but why is it still repeating itself?”
Hasn’t it been a long time since even the heart to be ashamed of in the first place has already been crumbled?
In that case, let’s say it calmly.
To my disciple, boldly tell me the shameful part of me.
“Why do you, who shouldn’t know anything, have to be swayed by the decisions of adults who still haven’t forgotten that period?”
“That… ….”
“No way, beans grow where beans are planted.”
Cigarette smoke bursting out with a snort.
“Even if the war is over, the adults who have experienced that era will guide you guys. No matter how much I try not to teach you, everything that is revealed implicitly will be handed down to you.”
If it was a game, it would end the moment I said it was over, but ironically, I was in reality.
Life is a series of present progressive tense.
The end is just something that each other decided to do, and a society and country is a gathering of such people.
The only way to change into a larger group is to tear down the borders…
“Just because you say it’s over doesn’t mean it’s over. It is the era.”
In the end, it won’t go away unless the underlying problem is addressed.
But even I, who lived two lives, did not know the answer to that question.
It’s the same that I couldn’t find such an answer in my past life.
A little more backward or uncivilized…….
It’s just a difference in degree, isn’t this kind of problem occurring in the original world as well?
“…Even though I don’t understand all of the struggles you’ve been through.”
But maybe it’s because I couldn’t leave even such a helpless and foolish me alone.
Weyden, who was still standing there, began to continue his comments, clutching the cigarette that was in his mouth.
“Still, I don’t think the teacher from earlier was wrong. If you insist on an eye for an eye, in the end everyone in the world will just become blind. As long as you don’t know where that hatred will turn, if you’re swept away by the group’s madness, you’ll have no choice but to become a victim.”
Chacha carefully.
Takes the cigarette out of my hand.
“In order to break that cycle, I’m betting we need people who take on the work that someone else should be doing. If each of us takes on our own roles, it will be possible to allay the current madness of the group even if we cannot control individual hatred.”
Looking down at the cigarette in her hand like that, Waden Smith, my disciple, pulled the tip out with the hand that had accumulated mana.
And the leading manager who protects Maris.
“Even though Sensei was swayed by emotions contrary to his thoughts, that also means that Sensei is a human with limitations. I have a lot of respect for a teacher who has such a humaneness.”
Such a child is talking.
Respect…
Things you shouldn’t say to an adult who can’t talk like this.
“Yes, I respect you. To the extent that it is my dream to become an adult like you.”
Then Wayden took off his hat and held it to his chest, revealing his own face.
“If an army is needed even in a time of peace like this…”
A face with a smile on it.
“I aim to become a soldier protecting the country I live in, and if the time comes and I get discharged… I want to teach what I learned there to someone who will come after me.”
I didn’t feel it when I first met him.
A smile with a very refreshing smile.
“Following in your footsteps, becoming a teacher like you.”
“… ….”
“…… Do you think my goal is wrong?”
However, I don’t feel certain about the question that follows.
What if I deny this? As if you’re worried about that.
“Yes. What did you say?”
Nothing. I’m not an adult yet, so it’s only natural that I do this.
The coming-of-age ceremony will be held in half a year, but are you still a child? As much as you have little experience, it is natural that you are not sure about your convictions.
“This bastard. How big is the age difference between you and the teacher, do you think the teacher will blink an eye if you try to flirt with such words?”
“I didn’t say that for that reason, but…”
“And I’m sorry, but the teacher has a taste for associations. If you want to win the teacher’s heart, you should be 30 years older.”
“… Thirty is almost fifty, isn’t it?”
“Yes, you should eat just that much.”
When I was young, I wanted to be a middle-aged person, but ironically, now I have become a middle-aged person.
So, in my eyes, such a young kid is not even noticeable.
If you’re a mental magpie, you’re almost 30 years old.
“As expected, this kind of talk was burdensome… ….”
Still, there is no age for learning.
That would be the same for encouragement.
“… Teacher?”
“Thank you. Thank you for cheering me up.”
So a little bit.
For this moment, let her admit her own weakness and rest her head on this child’s chest for a moment.
At least that’s how you get rid of this self-torture.
I want to express my gratitude towards this child who has set her own path with my teaching… ….
Further revealing her respect for me, she vowed to become a teacher worthy of this child.
-Kiik.
A door on the roof opens just in time.
The person who came inside with him soon started approaching Weyden, who was embracing me.
A female student wearing glasses with impressive blue hair.
“Wayden, when I blew into the lead room, they said you were on this side… …. Hmm?”
But is it because he couldn’t overlook me in his arms? Soon, her gaze, recognizing me, opened sharply.
The thing hanging from the chest is the symbol of the second year of high school.
And the thing hanging on my arm is the mark that symbolizes Maris……. Oops, it looks like you belong to the student council.
A member of the student council found a male student hugging a teacher on the roof. Wouldn’t it be that there would be a lot of misunderstandings if the lead manager in charge of Maris’ public order and public morals had done such a thing?
“…… Wayden.”
“Maya, it is a misunderstanding.”
“Even though they are leaders, having a tryst in a place like this…….”
“It’s a misunderstanding, calm down. I’ll explain right away.”
Wayden is flustered uncharacteristically.
I looked back at the female student who was glaring at her Weiden, gently removing her head from her arms.
“Girlfriend?”
“No.”
I see.
If you dare to argue, the two would be close to a master-servant relationship.
According to the description of the student council I heard when I was living with Waden, maybe.
“Uh, health teacher?”
And the happening is only for a moment.
Soon the student council president recognized me and began to turn his attention to me, raising his glasses.
“Oh, yes. It’s Seine, a health teacher. Was this the first time you met face-to-face like this?”
“Oh, yes. That… …. How’s Dale doing?”
“Well, I’m doing well.”
Are you asking about Dale right after meeting him?
I didn’t ask properly, but it seemed that I received a lot of love when I was indebted to the student council.
Fortunately, in this academy with many enemies, there is someone I can call an ally.
“Ah, yes… …. Okay. Thank god.”
But is there something unclear about the current answer?
Her tired face gradually turned sullen, and eventually even her shoulders began to droop.
“Something seems off.”
“Yes? No, what is that……. In fact, she had some business with the health teacher, so she was going to visit her after finishing her business in the leading department……. Because you can’t hear it right away? Should I say I’m sorry that I didn’t get a chance to say hello to that child…….”
Ah, yes.
Is this a pity that we couldn’t meet in person?
“Yes, I am relieved that you are doing well… …. Hmm?”
While expressing such feelings without regret, the student council president’s gaze was suddenly directed to the head of the lead department next to me.
Two eyes gleaming from the shadows cast under the hat.
This is the face that smelled the smell of s*xual intercourse.
“Maya.”
“What, what are those eyes.”
“As the student council president, you can’t…….”
“Oh, misunderstanding!!”
Your voice is booming for something like that.
Anyway, young things.
