170 – Death (2)
Gurgling.
I’m crying.
“……”
Choi Si-woo raised his hand.
When I wiped the corners of my mouth, a bright red light was shining even in the darkness.
Look down.
The abdomen, or more precisely, the heart, was completely crushed and stuck like a skewer.
▶Master! Come to your senses! Stop the bleeding right now…
“…Wow.”
The eyelids are closed.
The cold, creepy feeling he had experienced once ran down his spine.
Even though I was aware that the threshold of death was just around the corner, I took one step forward.
“……”
I look at the shaking girl.
She was swinging the sword at herself so violently just now, and at the end, she had such a fearful look on her face that it was hard to believe that she had plunged it into her heart.
Have you been manipulated?
No, there was no such sign.
Perhaps this act itself is the mission for which this child was born and the purpose for which it was designed from the beginning.
Is it scary when you actually commit it?
“……”
Choi Si-woo stretched out his hand.
He grabs the girl’s shoulder with a grip so strong that it’s hard to believe it’s the grip of a dying person.
“……”
“……”
What should I say?
There is no guarantee that this child is mine in the first place.
Isn’t it possible that he was just poking at his most critical weakness just to deceive?
If that was the goal, it would have been sufficiently successful.
‘…… No.’
If it had been such a shallow move, I wouldn’t have been so upset.
She wouldn’t have been treated so helplessly.
Ha……
I don’t know what to say.
I don’t know how to explain it.
The cool-headedness in her head is telling her that this is an incoherent story and that she should focus on treatment right away rather than that.
My heart, my heart even deeper.
I bring out her buried wounds and scream out loud.
Now it’s finally time… I could barely think about it.
Now it’s finally time… I was able to dream of meeting again through Yurika.
Like this… In this bullsh*t way… I didn’t want to meet you.
‘…… sh*t.’
This is no longer the limit.
Knees bend regardless of will.
Belatedly, I thought about activating , But I decided to do something more important than that.
I tried to control my phlegm-filled voice as much as possible and said the words I wanted to say the most.
“…I’m sorry…I’m sorry.”
“……”
The girl’s eyes are crying.
She hesitates.
I let go of the child’s consciousness as she ran away for the last time.
* * *
“……”
It felt like I was underwater.
This feeling of your body floating and being filled with something around you.
I think I’ve experienced it once.
Where was it?
‘… Ah.’
I didn’t experience it, but I saw it firsthand.
The time when Yurikawa Erina went down to an unidentified sea-like place to see the memories of her past life.
Yes, this place felt similar to back then.
‘… After.’
I call K.
There is no answer as if it were obvious.
Luckily, it looks like he didn’t follow along.
Anyway, am I really dead?
It seems a bit vain.
First, stand up.
I don’t know if there is such a thing as a body in the first place, but when I thought about it, my vision turned over and I recognized my surroundings.
I sigh.
I am so confused that my head is about to explode.
There was so much to think about.
A proper investigation into where this is.
Deciding how to proceed? There are plenty of things to say, etc.
“…Choi Haru, Choi Uri.”
I decided to think about the most important things first.
My painful relatives who were not born, could not even see the light, could not be hugged, and could not breastfeed.
I think about those children.
‘… Is that what it looks like growing up?’
Maybe so.
When I thought about it again, the girl looked quite a bit like me. I was so busy fighting that I couldn’t really think about it… Their facial features, especially their eyes, seemed similar.
The boy looks like Yurika.
It is said that a son takes after his mother and a daughter takes after her father… Indeed, it seems that everything the elders said was true.
‘…… ‘
I am also in very serious condition.
It’s gotten to this point, and I’m thinking, ‘What if a bad guy gets along with my daughter?’ What a ridiculous thought.
Was I such a loser?
Was I such a fool?
Only empty laughter continued to flow.
“…Probably No Face did it.”
After some time, I was able to focus again.
I had a guess.
The first night we arrived on a remote island for a survival test.
The appearance of No Face in my dream.
His hair is Erina, his arms are Yuen, his legs are Seolgaram, and… Her face was as if it was modeled after Yurika’s, with an odd and beautiful appearance.
It’s probably related to that.
‘Whoa… ‘
It was surprisingly calm.
Based on common sense, it wouldn’t be strange if people went berserk and shouted ‘You son of a b*tch!’
Surprisingly, he was calm and fine.
Is it because I’ve been through so many sh*tty things?
Or does this place have that effect?
‘… ‘I don’t know.’
―As expected, he is an unusual child. It is like the flame of sanctification that He chose.
That moment.
The husky female voice turns my attention.
She was a blindingly beautiful colorless woman, smiling as if she had been there from the beginning.
The woman wearing one-winged clothing had an unusually high level of exposure.
Even looking at her, I didn’t feel the slightest emotion, such as that she was s*xy or that she was filled with lust.
Thanks to this, Choi Si-woo instinctively realizes that the woman in front of him is a strange being, especially a divine being.
“…Are you a goddess?”
The woman smiled brightly.
“I finally met you. I missed you.”
“…Do you know me?”
“Yes, because I was always watching your every move.”
“…For example?”
“Um… When you take a shower or… When you take off your clothes because it’s too hot during training?”
This is true.
She is a dangerous voyeuristic goddess in many ways.
“Wow, it’s not voyeurism!”
“Do you read our inner thoughts?”
“So this is my space?”
“…If it is space…”
“To be exact, it’s closer to the territory.”
She guessed something from those words.
One of the three main deities mentioned by Irelua.
And Choi Si-woo is also a main character he has never seen before.
“Your guess is probably right.”
The woman smiled and floated around her as if she was swimming.
“Really…Do you know how much I missed you?”
“…Then shouldn’t you just show up?”
“If that were possible, I would have appeared a long time ago. But unfortunately, I cannot manifest freely like my eldest sister or second brother.”
‘… The eldest sister is Irelua… ‘The second brother is Russell, the god of light.’
One keyword left naturally.
“…Is it death?”
The woman’s gums were in full bloom at her question.
Clearing her throat, she spread her arms and flapped her flowing clothes.
“The last three main gods. Leah, the goddess of death.”
That is my name. Young apostle.
*
“Hmm.”
“…Over there…?”
“So?”
“…Huh?”
“No, is there anything else?”
In response to the pitiful response, Goddess Leah said, ‘This isn’t right…’ ‘ He was sweating profusely with an expression like ‘
“…No, I’m a goddess…”
“I know.”
“…It’s also one of the three major gods…”
“I know. It’s common anyway.”
“Huh, it’s not common!”
What do you mean…
“When I fall asleep, I meet Irelua more than twice a week, and she’s always shaking like a nerd… It’s quite inconvenient.”
“……”
“Furthermore, why does the so-called goddess wear such revealing clothes? Isn’t that completely flirting with the male goddess?”
“……”
Goddess Leah’s cheeks gradually swell.
Her eyes fill with tears.
She was angry, but it was true, and Choi Si-woo only shut her up after seeing the goddess with puffy cheeks as if she couldn’t say anything.
“…Well, you’re the third main deity…You’re not angry, are you?”
“…I don’t know! Go back on your own!”
Oh my god, damn it.
She had forgotten for a moment that a goddess was something that got upset so easily.
If Irelua was teased even a little, she would stamp her feet and walk around her saying ‘Puuu~’.
‘I can’t do it.’
After sighing, Siwoo Choi was exhausted from comforting Leah for about 30 minutes after examining her body.
* * *
“…So. This is the border between death and life?”
“That’s right.”
Crying and tearing.
“I don’t understand. Why am I trapped in this gap in the first place?”
“That’s because I called you.”
“…Yes?”
“Uh-huh! The arm has stopped! Massage it more vigorously.”
“…Ha.”
Hesitation, hesitation.
Choi Si-woo massaged Leah’s shoulders diligently.
“Then I’m not dead?”
“Yes. By the way, you are asking so early. I originally thought you would have asked from the beginning.”
“Well…I’ve already experienced it once, so I think it’s a bit dull.”
Leah paused at those words and looked back at Choi Si-woo.
“…I forgot for a moment. The young apostle experienced the miracle of return.”
“To be exact, it’s a parallel world movement.”
“In some ways, it’s even greater. It’s literally the power of miracles that can be done because it’s him.”
It is him.
Irelua said it too.
Let me become a pioneer and a flame of sanctification.
Be the light that guides everyone.
‘… Damn the pioneer… ‘
A topic that leaves one breathless about one’s future.
I visited my dead colleagues only too late.
I can’t say anything to my dead children…… What talent do you have?
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“…You’re blaming yourself.”
“…It’s my fault.”
Leah looked at her blankly and put down her hand as if it was enough.
“Judging by your expression, there are many things I want to ask you, young apostle.”
“…I am the goddess who presides over death. I have many questions to ask, but this is the first of them all.”
Choi Si-woo paused and thought about his two children.
His memories went even further back to the past, reminding him of the time when he was in Yurika’s stomach.
She reminds me of how stupid I was for not being able to say anything to her.
In the end, her pathetic memory of crying and not being able to do anything until the last moment of her death is recreated.
‘…… ‘
Close both eyes.
Nowadays, it is more important to know the truth.
So come to your senses. Choi Si-woo.
“…Are the two children…Are they really my children?”
Even at this moment of asking, I looked at Leah without knowing what answer I was hoping for.
Are you expressing her denial and hoping that it is just her own illusion?
Or…… Do I really have hope that this is my child?
Leah, who was looking at it all, was silent.
“…There’s something I need to explain first, but I’ll have to make it clear first.”
And at the words she heard, she felt her heart sink.
“The boy and the girl are your children, young apostle. They are definitely the two children who were miscarried and never saw the light of day.”
*
“…Have you calmed down?”
“…Yes.”
Choi Si-woo expressed a little gratitude to Leah for waiting.
Wipe down your face.
I try my best to push away the emotions that feel like they might explode at any moment.
Once you know the truth, the right thing to do is to find out the cause of what happened.
“…Why on earth are my children-“
“-Before that. There’s something I need to explain first.”
After speaking, Leah slowly opened her grip.
The space with nothing around is distorted.
I move to a place where countless unidentified spheres are floating.
“…This place.”
“The underworld.”
It is a place where dead souls go.
