125. Crossroads of choice
Static. Silence that cannot be expressed in words becomes poison and reaches everyone present.
France’s chains gradually loosened, and soon the bonds were released, and everyone regained freedom of movement.
“It doesn’t make sense… ….”
France couldn’t say anything. Because he saw firsthand how much Jin was hurting and heard him scream.
But is it because of you? France was confused.
“What do you mean, if you stay with me, your disease will get worse…” ? Kazar, tell me. “What do you mean?”
Not only did I lose my temper and stutter, but even my voice changed.
“I don’t really know what the disease is. Mr. Jin said. “The worsening condition of the disease is being with the Duke.”
The curse of confession does not activate. This is also true.
“… ….”
I am devastated.
France looked at the table with his head down, as if he had lost everything. Lips that tremble and eyes that have no place to go.
‘It was because of me? That is?’
It was because of him that he was bleeding from his mouth and nose and screaming like a dismembered person?
I felt guilty and had many thoughts.
I hope that you will remain by my side even when death approaches.
Disgust with oneself for being able to think that way even though the person you love could die.
These two thoughts collided and I was at a loss as to whether it would be a good idea.
“I won’t be particularly angry about what happened today. “It’s true that we understood the duke’s feelings, but it’s true that we were also deceived.”
What France did today was that she lost her reason and poor judgment, threatening everyone’s lives and placing a curse on them. It was something that should not have been done.
But she decided not to question anyone in particular.
Because I knew how much the character Jin was in her life.
Even though they knew this, they deceived France.
There was a mistake here too.
“… ….”
France is speechless. The silence continues, with no sound, and the air is cool.
In the silence, not knowing what to do, everyone just exchanged glances and looked at France’s thoughts.
That moment.
“Even if I die… ….”
France quietly muttered.
“Even if you die, you should have been by my side.”
Suddenly. Pop…. A voice that has lost its vitality and is even cold along with the flowing tears.
“If only I had deciphered it sooner…” ….”
France raised her head and looked at Ka-Jar with bloodshot eyes.
“Kazar.”
“… Yes?”
“Soul binding magic.”
“… ….”
Ttogak. Again. France walked slowly and stood in front of Kazar.
“You can use it, right? “Soul binding magic.”
Kazar’s pupils began to shake as if there had been an earthquake.
“If I have that, I don’t care if Jin dies. “If I die together, we will meet again.”
Shocked. Everyone looked at France with wide eyes. Is this duke sane now?
“If we destroy everything we have achieved so far, won’t Jin come back?”
France, who had come up with a plan, burst out laughing and nodded.
“Okay. If I self-destruct and become destroyed, Jin will inevitably come back. “Then she just needs to cast the soul binding spell, right?”
France said to Kazar, “Is that so? “Am I right?” He said, pushing his head in.
“… “It’s a bad choice.”
“What is a bad choice?”
Ha, Kazar let out a sigh and explained.
“It’s about erasing Jin’s traces.”
For a moment, France’s eyebrows twitched and her lips slightly parted. Kazar continued.
“Are you breaking everything to get that person back? “Then what becomes of Mr. Jin, who risked his life to create what is now?”
Because it was a straightforward opinion, France could not refute it.
France’s status, power, and wealth. All of these are traces created by Jin.
It is so heartbreaking to destroy this.
The memories until now are disappearing.
“But…” ….”
However, France, who said this, only pursed her lips and could not continue speaking. Kazar stood up and hugged France.
“That person hoped that the duke would live well in the future. He sees something new, feels something new, and creates a connection. “You have worked hard for this.”
Quuk. France’s fists were clenched. This feeling that cannot be expressed in words, this feeling of loss that cannot be described.
“For now, I’ll think about it for now.”
France stumbles and moves with Helena’s support. Kazar, Radea, and Kale looked at her back in silence.
“… ….”
“… ….”
“… ….”
France’s figure disappeared completely, and Ka-Jar let out a sigh of relief. La Dea’s complexity was clearly visible on her face, and even Cale, who did not care about this, was making an unpleasant face.
“Maybe it’s good now? “If I’m in that state, I don’t think I’ll be able to do anything for a while.”
“Why? “The duke must pray for himself to get his mind right.”
“Wouldn’t it have been better to have been able to share a letter with Mr. Jin?”
Kazar shook her head at La Dea’s words.
“Then the longing will only grow bigger. Mr. Jin knew that, so he disappeared at once without saying a word to leave no room for harm.”
Jin would have had no choice but to disappear.
If you share letters from far away, you will miss each other and miss each other, which will worsen your mental illness.
But if you leave until the end, death awaits you. Jin might not have cared if she died. However, he probably thought that if France saw this, there would be a problem.
“Radea, all we can do is help the duke get his mind together.”
Cale agreed with this by nodding her head.
“That is correct. Didn’t Jin tell us too? “I believe she will take good care of the Duke.”
The atmosphere became solemn in an instant. Jin’s void was too big for them to fill.
“Ha… ….”
Suddenly, Kazar sighed.
“That person is so…. “If I was going to leave like that, if I knew it would end up like this, I shouldn’t have given you affection, I shouldn’t have given you any room.”
Soon, she swept her hand down her face.
“Why didn’t someone who works so well and prepares well do something like this?”
Ka-Zar shakes his head and sighs. Radea watched her carefully and spoke carefully.
“Couldn’t Jin have no choice but to love the Duke? ? A person’s heart is not really something that can be done as one wishes…….”
Kazar pressed his throbbing temples.
“Yes, it’s not because he wants to do that either.”
Although she resented Jin like that, she couldn’t curse. Kazar had known about his pain and chronic illness for a long time.
“It’s complicated. “What should I do with this?”
Jin is not that thoughtless and deceives people. At least that was the case with Jin that Kazar knew.
He must have thought this. He tells his loved ones that he would rather leave than show them writhing in pain and dying.
“He is a truly sinful man.”
Ka-Zar leaned back in his chair, tilted his head and looked at the ceiling. The chandelier looked particularly sad today.
“What will you do if you are ordered to find Jin?”
Kale asked.
“You won’t be able to find it. “To find that person, I need Exceed’s help, but I doubt Exceed will grant me the once-in-a-lifetime favor.”
The continent is large, and Jin is a first-class assassin, capable of killing anyone in sight. It means that if you put your mind to it, you can live without a rumor.
Without the help of a top-notch dark guild like Exceed, you will never be able to track it down.
“Just wait for now. “When the duke makes a decision, as long as it doesn’t cross the line, we will respect that opinion as much as possible.”
Kale and Ladea nodded and agreed.
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“Of course.”
“Yes.”
Kazar swallowed a sigh that was about to burst out. The current situation was more difficult than any other magic ceremony.
* * *
France, with a blank face, quietly looked out her window in her bedroom. A scene she always saw together. It feels like it will come back through this window at any moment.
Jin, who always sat in front of her and looked at her with a smile, has disappeared.
She looked at the letter. Looking at it again, it was a message of a perfect breakup.
“Jin… ….”
I feel like tears will burst out at any moment. Miss you. I want to find it.
I can’t see it. Can’t find it.
According to Ka-Zar’s words, she is the one who kills Jin.
The memories of that time are still vivid.
Jin curled up with a headache and unable to do anything.
Jin is here, groaning in pain and bleeding.
‘How can I look at you in such pain…’ ….’
France adjusted her emerald necklace that Jean had given her. A gift that is rough, but with his delicate touch.
His heart sank.
‘What should I do, Jin?’
France bent down like a shrimp, holding her necklace in her arms. Transparent tears flowed from her tear ducts.
“Jin…… !”
My heart was beating quickly, my emotions were so intense, my breathing became rough. The hiccups do not stop and symptoms of hyperventilation appear.
“Ugh, Jin… Jin, Jin… !”
I feel a lump in my throat. Her heart feels cold and feels like it might break at any moment. An unbearable sense of loss and self-blame. And longing enveloped my whole body.
Even when I was ostracized by Descartes, when I was harassed by servants and ignored by knights, and when I heard all kinds of gossip in social circles, I did not feel this much pain.
“Please come back…” ….”
I got everything.
I lost everything.
What I wanted so much has come true.
She was unable to achieve what she wanted so much.
I feel dizzy from the pain that feels like my heart is falling apart.
Jin’s image and voice came to mind, and I felt as if he was whispering to me next to me. But no matter how much I tried to meet them again in memory, reality was infinitely cold.
“Ah… ….”
Of course, there is a way to end this pain.
All you have to do is find Jin and sing , Which transcends life and death. Then we’ll meet again somehow.
‘But… ….’
When the wound in her own heart heals, Jin’s life is in danger.
I simply did not have the courage to watch him writhing in pain and dying before my eyes.
How can you just watch the person you love scream and bleed in pain?
It was an extremely selfish thought.
‘Jin, tell me. Maybe I like it? ‘What do you want me to do?’
Even when I looked at the necklace, I couldn’t find an answer. France had no choice. She doesn’t have Jin who always makes decisions and guides her direction.
Now he can’t live without him.
Neither the teachings I had received from Jin nor the experience she had accumulated were helpful.
Crossroads of choice.
Are you going to use your selfish mind to get her Jin back just for yourself?
Or should I give up on his life and just keep it as a memory?
Now it is up to you to decide.
“… ….”
Anguish.
France adjusted her emerald necklace and thought of Jin, whom she had reunited with.
Jin, whom he loves more than anyone else, is in pain, bleeding, and screaming. The sight of him gradually dying in front of him is blank.
‘Jin, maybe I like it?’
Please.
Answer me.
