98. Tobacco (4)
1.
When a problem arises, just trying to avoid it is the worst option.
Young children can get away with it moderately well just by running away, but avoiding the problem is not the answer unless that is the case.
… ….
Sure.
I, who spyed on Seung-gi’s shower and turned off my phone because I was afraid of the aftermath, means that I submitted the perfect answer.
He was a very clumsy person.
After clumsily running away from a problem situation like that, I couldn’t sleep properly all day and was trembling by myself.
I was still uncomfortable, but since it continued to rain until dawn, I felt like I was going crazy because of the atmosphere.
If Seung-gi didn’t seem to notice the video call in the first place, he would hang up appropriately, wondering why he watched it all the way.
Besides…… , Maybe. If you think about Seung-gi’s usual personality.
Even if such a situation occurred, wouldn’t it be a problem that could be solved with a proper apology?
Even if I regret my stupidity, it’s already too late.
I just went to school, so I was waiting for the victory.
Seunggi usually goes to school at an early hour, similar to me, and every morning the two of us would monopolize the classroom.
I thought it would be right to borrow that opportunity and hand over a sincere apology.
It’s already too late, but I couldn’t make things worse here.
However, Seung-gi did not enter the classroom.
I kept waiting, but I was the only one who monopolized the classroom.
After more time passed, another guy other than Seung-gi entered the classroom.
It was the same again after that.
I was getting more and more anxious.
Something was going wrong.
Seung-gi’s routine has changed from usual.
Time continues to pass, and the classroom is already full of children.
No matter how late, Seunggi isn’t the kind of person who goes to school this late.
Something must have happened to him.
And, speaking of what happened yesterday…….
It must be ‘that incident’.
A cold sweat began to flow.
My hands were shaking little by little, beads of sweat were forming on the bridge of my nose.
Like that, with about 5 minutes left before school start time, I heard the sound of the classroom door being opened violently.
Seung-gi, with a scary expression on his face somewhere, stepped into the classroom.
Seunggi is basically a person who doesn’t change his expression much.
When he talks to me, he still smiles to some extent, but sometimes he shows shyness. He doesn’t show much more than that.
Besides, his face is so gentle that I rarely think of him as being afraid.
Just like now, Seunggi was as expressionless as usual.
But the feeling was completely different.
Seung-gi seemed to be angry somewhere. I think it’s probably for sure.
The tightly closed mouth and wrinkles between the eyebrows were proof of that.
… ….
f*cked.
Really.
2.
Wow, this.
I feel like I haven’t felt this in a long time.
My mind was hazy, I wondered if this is exactly what it feels like to do drugs.
This is true. When I catch a bad cold, I feel bad, but the feeling of being floating is fun.
It can be said that it is the only drug permitted by the state.
… ….
No. My body hurts, so I can’t say anything.
It seems that people have become a bit strange.
The road to school was quite difficult.
My body started to ache as a side effect of my hard work at dawn, and I started getting sicker from a cold that got worse.
Besides, why does summer weather appear in May? The air was so filthy and humid that I felt like going crazy.
I’d rather be patient if it hurts.
After arriving at school, I unpacked my things and exchanged greetings with Min Ah-rin.
Min Ah-rin’s reaction was somehow strange, but how could she not pay attention to her.
After that, I just hung my chin and passed the time hitting the bruises.
In the morning assembly and first period, I continued to bruise like that, and during breaks, I lay down on my desk and slept.
Starting from the second period, he hid behind Cheon Se-jun’s suspiciously wide back and began to sleep.
Perhaps it’s because I didn’t do anything, the time went by so fast.
Because the 3rd period was over before I knew it.
By the way…….
This seems to be a growing problem.
The feeling of getting worse in real time.
Now, even when I was breathing, my body was hurting.
During the break of the 3rd period, I was bruised for a while.
I wanted to find out my physical condition a little more accurately.
I had no intention of spending my time ignorantly like this.
It’s already been established that I have to leave early.
I think leaving early is better than being absent, but if I had known this would happen, I would have just left school without notice.
After sitting on the chair for a few minutes, I got up.
Since it’s the 4th period soon, I was wondering if I should go eat lunch, but I thought it would be better to leave immediately.
When I went to the teacher’s office and told the situation, permission to leave early fell in an instant.
Looks like the teacher was in very bad shape.
Since I came to school, I went home after taking medicine at the health room.
Because it hurts like this, there was nothing like depression or stress.
Because I didn’t have the time to think like that.
I really need to get some rest today.
3.
I couldn’t help but listen to the class.
Today, there was no time to mix words with Seung-gi.
No matter what he wanted to say, Seung-gi just kept lying down, and the atmosphere seemed quite serious.
Seung-gi, who stayed like that until the 3rd period, suddenly left early during the break of the 3rd period.
Just when I went to the bathroom for a while, he disappeared, so I couldn’t say goodbye until the end.
Actually, I did have that suspicion.
If you think about Seung-gi’s personality, it seemed that there was no way he wouldn’t exchange words with me because of yesterday’s ‘that incident’.
It was at a level different from the s*xual harassment I usually committed, but maybe it was just my self-brainwashing.
Seung-gi As an authority on statistics, Seung-gi’s mood seemed much worse than I predicted.
I don’t know.
No matter what the answer is, first of all, it was right for me to apologize for my actions. Because the quicker the apology, the better.
… ….
I’m worried.
I wonder if I deserve to be worried. In fact, today’s victory was so heterogeneous.
Apart from my worries, time continued to flow, and the 7th period ended before I knew it, and it was time for the closing ceremony.
I didn’t hear a single word from the teacher.
I was listening, but I didn’t have time to pay attention to such trivial announcements.
However, I couldn’t just ignore the teacher’s last words.
“This… Is a little urgent, so I have to bring Seung-gi by tomorrow… Is there anyone close to Seung-gi’s house? Can someone deliver a communication from home to Seung-gi?”
There was an official document that came down suddenly, and it seemed like it was the kind that had to be submitted by tomorrow.
As soon as I heard that, I raised my hand.
It was an opportune opportunity.
I have to apologize to Seung-gi.
I also want to take a closer look at Seung-gi’s condition.
Anyway, it’s only the two of us to see each other’s faces, but it just went well.
4.
I don’t even know how I got home.
It wasn’t particularly important.
As soon as I got home, I just put on the futon in my school uniform and took a nap.
My body must have been quite tired, and I almost fell asleep as if I had passed out.
After a good night’s sleep like that, when I woke up, my body seemed a little better than before.
It’s not that my condition has objectively improved, but I should say that I’ve gotten used to being sick. Anyway.
Before, I was tired and sick without any time to be stressed.
Since my condition improved like this, the stress started to come this time.
Oh, how could it be that he doesn’t even give me a chance to rest?
This is a bit.
You get rained on because your umbrella is broken, rainwater comes into your house, and your cold gets worse after you clean it up early in the morning.
I felt really bad when those things happened one after another.
In that mood, I naturally looked for a cigarette.
It was only yesterday that I made up my mind to quit smoking.
Habits are scary.
But honestly. Maybe you should smoke a little in this situation?
It feels like I’m completely refuting what I said yesterday, but Han Seung-gi’s enemy is Han Seung-gi… The word comes to mind.
There’s nothing like a cigarette to calm this irritation.
Will people smoke it for nothing?
I opened the box in the corner of the house.
It’s a box for storing important things, so I usually keep cigarettes here too.
I remember the last time I bought cigarettes, I must have brought several packs with me. When did it all come off like this?
The next best thing was to open the fridge and look for some alcohol, but it seemed like they had eaten it too.
Nothing happened.
I thought it would be okay to smoke cigarettes until this one and quit. There was no such thing as ‘this thing’ in the first place.
I put on my clothes while swearing for the first time in a long time.
I thought I should stop by the convenience store.
Cigarettes and alcohol, too, but when I just looked in the refrigerator, there was nothing to eat, and I didn’t even want to go far to buy groceries.
I don’t like convenience store food because it’s expensive, but…….
I wonder if it would be okay to have a special meal on a day like this.
I didn’t feel like I was in the mood to cook.
That’s how I left the house.
The current time is 5:00 PM. The time when you would normally have returned home.
The sky was sunny, but the mood was not particularly bright.
I need to go home and rest.
