132. Can you handle it?
It took quite a long time for me to become indifferent to the harsh comments and chats.
Especially when I think about it now, I think I really went through a lot of emotional trouble in the early days of broadcasting.
Even though I tried to ignore it, it bothered me because there weren’t many people on the broadcast, and the standards for how much of it was considered stupid and how much should be watched were ambiguous.
Of course, it is true that we cannot compare now with then.
A large organization called the company was protecting me, and many of its own filters were purifying and removing bad guys.
And it’s sad, but I thought that I, as a person, was now used to such insults and wouldn’t be hurt by some words…
[Haaang~ I want to f*ck Han Taemin.]
Anger boils from deep in my heart.
A different feeling than when I cursed Luca.
As soon as I read the comment, I couldn’t stop the swear words from coming out.
“What the f*ck?”
Who are you doing and what are you doing?
If this was my chat window, the person who hit this would be permanently banned.
They would have made it so that you could never enter my broadcast again.
“…What are you saying?”
When my brother looked at me with anxiety, I shook my head.
“No. “There was someone who wrote something that didn’t even seem like it.”
Of course, it wasn’t something I could do, but I didn’t necessarily want to show this to my brother.
Report. Declaration. Declaration. Declaration. Declaration. Declaration. Declaration. Declaration.
After leaving a comment calling it inappropriate s*xual harassment and repeatedly hitting the report window, I felt like I was finally starting to relax.
“Is it because of school violence?”
I was rather surprised by my boyfriend’s carefully asked question.
“…School violence?”
“Yes.”
“Oppa. “Did you experience school violence?”
“No. “That’s not true.”
My brother told me about an issue that happened at work today.
My brother told me not to do it, but I managed to find the comment.
[This is a padding certification for being hit by Han Tae-min.]
“Wow… This is really absurd…”
You turned my brother, who hates cigarettes, into such a person.
This was not an adaptation, but rather a completely new story.
“What does the company say? “They say they will take care of it?”
“Well… It’s difficult right away, and they say they’ll wait a little longer and then provide an explanation.”
“What are you waiting for? “It would be better if you just did it right away.”
I had never been involved in a controversy like this before, so even though I wanted to help, I knew nothing about it.
I just wish I could take this down as soon as possible.
“But Doa, what was that thing you just saw?”
My brother tilted his head and shook his head as if he was curious.
“It was just a mind-blowing comment.”
f*ck someone.
My brother was my boyfriend.
But I am the only one who can do such a thing!
Of course, I think it’s inevitable to cross arms once while working as an actor, but anyway, I was the only one who could share affection with my brother.
“Use… I’m curious…”
I thought there was no good point in continuing to talk about this topic, so I brought up another topic.
“I want to go there this weekend.”
“Where?”
My brother, who was putting pig’s feet on top of the ssam, muttered his mouth and asked.
“I… Gyeongbokgung Palace…!”
“Palace?”
“Yes. “I want to wear hanbok with my brother.”
It may have been a bit of a random remark, but it was sincere that I wanted to go on a hanbok date with my brother.
If I go and take a picture in front of that door, I might want to have fun doing something similar to a short situational drama…
“But wouldn’t it be a bit cold to walk around wearing Hanbok?”
February was definitely a very cold season without a thick jacket.
“But wouldn’t it be better to go when your brother is less famous?”
I felt anxious that the more my brother was exposed to the media, the more I might not be able to be with him, so I secretly revealed my true feelings.
“…I see.”
My brother, who did not deny anything, stroked his chin once and then nodded his head.
“Okay. Let’s go. Then.”
“…Really?”
It was just a wishful thinking, I didn’t think it would really be accepted.
“There is a condition instead.”
“Tell me.”
They say that a hanbok date goes well with this cold weather.
If it was something trivial, I was willing to listen.
“It’s the same hanbok that Luca wore… No. Even if it’s not the same, why don’t you wear something similar…?”
My brother raises his eyebrows as if he was also stabbed.
Whoa… Really… What should I do with this Pinttuk…
“Then, you too, wear the school uniform you wore when filming the web drama and go on a date with me next time.”
You, too, should experience the feeling of Yeokjisaji.
My brother’s distorted eyebrows told me that my strategy had worked.
* * *
“Look straight into my eyes.”
Boo… I feel burdened.
No matter how much I said the acting class was for learning, it was burdensome.
“Mr. Taemin. Where do you keep looking? “You have to make eye contact to see and learn.”
I couldn’t bear to say that it was too burdensome to look at, so I swallowed my saliva and stared at the teacher’s face again.
“9 Billion. A whopping 9 billion. “The amount you lost because of one wrong click was a whopping 9 billion!”
When the teacher slammed her palm down on the desk, I started shaking in shock.
“Answer me.”
The teacher chewed his lip and looked straight into my eyes.
“How are you going to repay this?”
The demonstration ends there.
When the performance was over, the teacher returned to his usual expression.
“Did you understand what I said was the key point?”
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“A little bit…”
I have always thought that knowing and doing are different things, but acting seemed to fall into that field even more.
Even if I understand the teacher’s explanation mentally, it is a completely different matter for me to fully embody it.
I grabbed the script book and took a short breath.
“For now, I’ll just go through the part I did.”
To blame memorization, the teacher checked only five lines.
After mumbling the line over and over again, I stared straight ahead.
“Look right in my eyes…! Look…”
Ah. Why can’t you do it?
As the teacher showed, you should feel angry while speaking clearly.
The sentence that started out powerfully fell apart like a deflated balloon before it lasted more than one sentence.
“It’s okay. “I’ll go again.”
“Yes.”
And repeat one part again.
However, the teacher didn’t seem to like her acting despite my efforts, and her facial expression wasn’t very good.
“hehehehe… It’s a bit disappointing, but I think that’s it for today. “I’ll try to learn more next week.”
“Yes.”
I knew I wouldn’t be full after my first drink, but it was true that I would feel drained.
After all, it’s not acting…
The acting curriculum, which I learned step by step, was more difficult than I imagined.
As I lay face down on my desk and buried my head, I heard a knock outside the door.
“Taemin.”
“Ah. “Manager.”
When I tried to get up, thinking that I was finally going home, he gestured with his hand to tell me to sit down again.
“Before I take you there, I have something to give you.”
“To me?”
“Yes.”
What the manager took out from the bag was a bundle of A4 pages with only a few pages.
“What is this?”
I took the paper, blinked and read the title written at the top.
[100 Questions and 100 answers questionnaire]
When I turned the page, there were really 100 trivial questions written inside that I had only seen when I was a child.
“Taemin, here’s your next schedule.”
“This?”
I don’t think it’s a drama or a broadcast. This.
“There is a famous YouTube channel where they just select a few short questions and end the conversation.”
The manager held out his cell phone to me and showed me the videos.
Of course, celebrities whose faces I recognized came out and eagerly answered these trivial questions.
“I think this will now be Taemin’s first official solo activity. How is it? Are you okay?”
“Ah. Yes.”
Still, I thought it was several times better than suddenly asking me to appear on a variety show or to dance and sing.
“But what about this…”
“Ah. “This channel first asked if Taemin would be interviewed.”
“Me…? “Isn’t this something only famous people do?”
“Ah. You may feel that way because what you just saw is in order of views, but if you look down, there are a lot of newbies.”
Ah… I see…
As I scrolled down, I occasionally saw views that felt quite shabby.
“When will this happen…”
“Are you scheduled to film next Monday?”
“I see. “Then, is there any answer given by the company?”
I knew that certain broadcasts had scripts or something like that.
“No. “As long as it’s not controversial, it would be better to show Taemin as he is.”
Q. What are you most interested in these days?
A. Luca land
Q. What do I usually do during break time?
A. Re-watch the Ruka-tan broadcast.
Q. This is what I want to do if I make a lot of money.
A. Try Lucatang donation in units of 1 million won.
Q. What if you have a dream?
A. Marry Luca-tan.
…Can you afford it?
