125. Self-torture
How many times have I pressed the refresh button?
After returning home after the broadcast, I exchanged messages with my brother and continued to check the drama comment window.
[Kim Jin-eun ㄹㅇ I think he’s really handsome, but he doesn’t have an Instagram ID? This actor?]
[ㅁㄹ Looks like he’s a rookie?]
[But will there be more seaweed? It’s a cameo with no significance.]
There were a lot of comments compared to the 1st and 2nd episodes uploaded so far, and many of them were curious about Oppa.
“…Hmm.”
It’s definitely something to celebrate.
It is something worthy of congratulations.
Is the reason why I’m in a bad mood because I’m not good enough?
I was feeling anxious for no reason and moved my fingers busily.
[Brother. Did you see the comment window? The response was absolutely amazing.]
[When I actually counted the time I came out, it only lasted about 5 seconds, so I wonder if this is correct.]
[But since I’ve definitely stamped my face, won’t I call you here and there more from now on?]
[Well… If you turn it into a positive circuit, right?]
The term “Positive circuit” Is an overly humble expression.
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In fact, if this kind of reaction came out in a web drama of this scale, my brother would have become famous right away.
Because the public is always enthusiastic about shiny new faces.
[I vote for the manager to definitely contact me tomorrow.]
[I think they will contact me because they said the next schedule will be set based on the response.]
As I was quietly looking at the message window, I wanted to hear his voice so I just made a call.
[Hello.]
[Hello?]
[Mr. Celebrity. Hi Yong.]
[Hey. What kind of 5-second appearance is a celebrity?]
My older brother smiles and answers back playfully.
[What do you say? I heard there will be a fan club after just one week like this.]
[That seems like a bit too much. People have to have something to admire to create fan clubs and such.]
[Ah~ I wonder if people look down on people too much these days.]
Being a virtue was not something that was done because there was a lot of information.
A very small piece.
It was the same for both people and content.
With just that small detail, people go crazy and even call themselves fans.
This vertuber industry was also similar.
If one short clip completely blows up, there are many instances where viewers or subscribers get upset.
And what about the elements that can be used in cases like yours?
My brother’s face caught my eye in the background of my cell phone.
[The face is done. The face is done.]
[It makes me dizzy to imagine that there are only clips of that going around on the Internet.]
My brother looked embarrassed with a self-deprecating smile.
[I will give the clip a title. [Kidul.]
Hmm… What would be better…
I want to make it in a style that fans like.
[What do you think about PTSD from your school days, or a dedicated iljin group?]
As soon as I called out the title, I could hear my brother laughing.
[Hey. What. Are you going to go to hell as soon as you start? Do you want me to fail?]
[A. I’m not saying that my brother is like that, but that the title fits the content of that clip perfectly.]
A nickname would definitely arise.
Or rather, since the character’s name was said to be Kim Eo-jin, it could be something like this.
[Anyway, if this becomes really popular sooner or later, people around me will start contacting me. Right.]
[Well… I guess there aren’t that many people I can contact directly?]
[I think my college classmates are about to contact me.]
[Then, please answer on my behalf. Because I’m not close.]
Will I actually be contacted…?
Hmm… Well, I thought Minji or her kids might ask.
[I understand. Is it okay for me to call myself a superstar girlfriend?]
[Then I go around saying I’m Wolcl Luca’s boyfriend.]
This time of exchanging meaningless words with each other is so enjoyable.
The dawn is one where we talk without getting tired until the morning comes and then we fall asleep.
I hope we can meet again tomorrow.
Yes. Is there anything to think negatively about?
Everyone looks upon my brother favorably, so there is no reason for me to be monopolistic.
At this time, I felt like I overvalued myself.
* * *
[Hey. Is this really you?]
Doa’s prophecy was correct.
It’s been a while since I called Yoonje, so I answered and, sure enough, he started talking about the web drama.
[…Why.]
[No. What’s wrong, you bastard! I have to say that I wish I had done something like this!]
You are not my mother, so why should she report it?
[Hey… Taemin Han… I was wondering what we were going to do together, but you had plans!]
The word “Plan” Makes me laugh.
I just did it because they said I would help with Luca’s concert…
If this is a plan, is it a plan?
That’s right. Actually, it is a plan with a grander goal.
[I just got an offer so I gave it a try.]
[I’m tired. But… I heard the bastard is extremely handsome.]
[So why did you call?]
Are you just trying to check if this is me?
[Huh? I asked because I thought this was you.]
…Was it real?
[Yes. I’m hanging up because it’s me?]
[Yayayayaya. Just one more thing for me.]
[What is it?]
[Can I talk to you and my friend?]
I slapped my forehead, having already figured out where I was going to sell it.
[Hey. I don’t mind calling you a friend, but don’t tell me to come out.]
Even during the semester, I’m trying to sell my name and hold meetings and things like that.
[Ah. Of course. How could I possibly do that when you have Doa~]
Rather, I felt more anxious about the jokes.
[I hang up anyway.]
[Yes! I’ll binge watch the drama!]
Yoonje just got permission and hung up the phone.
I should have told you that what you saw when I came out was all.
In fact, if I continued driving, it was so boring that I would probably not be able to endure it and would definitely get off.
Anyway, now everyone knows that I have become a public figure.
No. If you say you are a public figure with this, the hurdle for becoming a public figure seems too low, so is it correct to be a semi-public figure?
When I went back to the comments section of episode 3, there was only my story.
[What should I do to marry that handsome man?]
Be born as Kim Do-ah.
[Kim Jin-jin is a good dog, I hope it comes out again.]
Sorry. There don’t seem to be any plans for more to come here in the future.
[That person named Kim Eo-jin is a rookie from YM?]
I don’t know where you heard it, but it is the correct answer.
I was scrolling through the pages, feeling like I was answering a million questions to myself, when I jumped up when I got a call from my manager.
[Ah. Yes. Manager.]
It’s been about 5 days since episode 3 was released.
They said they would give me a confirmation about my next schedule, probably around today.
[Yes. Mr. Taemin. Are you doing well?]
[Ah. Yes.]
[As I said last time, this is a very important stage, right? [It’s the first time showing your face to the world.]
[Yes, yes.]
[So… Actually, the drama director asked Taemin if he could appear a little more due to his popularity… Um… What do you think?]
So are you telling me to film more dramas?
If so, there was only one issue.
[…You have to say your lines too, right?]
Mrs. Maybe I shouldn’t have told you.
Now that I said it, it felt like a stupid question.
The manager bursts into laughter.
[Ah. It does exist. Well, it’s not like the story suddenly jumps out like that, but I think it feels like I’m a minor actor like I did last time.]
Hmm… It’s a short story…
[But I was really in a hurry at the time so I just said I would do it. Can I do it?]
I’ve never tried acting, even in kindergarten.
[If Taemin says he can, we will begin acting lessons right away.]
…You mean to go to academy.
In fact, I felt safer that way.
It’s better than suddenly heading to the ground.
It would be 500 times better to do it with a teacher next to you.
[…What happens if I say I can’t do it?]
This was also one of the things I was curious about.
[It’s unfortunate for the production crew, but we have to make the next schedule.]
So that doesn’t mean it’s absolutely necessary.
After a short period of consideration, I chose the option that seemed the best.
[Then, is it okay if I receive the script and tell you if I can do it?]
[Okay. Instead, you need to make a decision quickly so I can talk to other people and the company, so I think I can only give it to you for about a day.]
[Yes. All right.]
[Then, I will contact the production company right away!]
The call ended like that, and I sat down on the bed and looked at the inside of the monitor that wasn’t turned off yet.
There are numerous comments related to Kim Jin-jin.
Yes. Maybe we can meet again later and talk about it together.
It seemed better to discuss it with Doa than to worry about it alone.
There’s still some time left, so I think it wouldn’t be a bad idea to practice a bit and show it.
About 30 minutes later, the manager sent me the script, and I opened the file and tried to recite the lines quietly.
“If you’re an otaku, you’ll stay locked up and watch cartoons. Why do you keep crawling out?”
Is the concept of acting self-torture? This.
