71 – There is only one option left for the boy who was loved
“I guess there’s nothing more to say. Well, really.
What on earth can I say now?
I brought something that I wasn’t even qualified for because the child wanted it.”
Her mother stepped forward, leaving me standing still.
The sound of shoes hitting the floor rang out.
As if the meeting had come to an end.
“I am so grateful that you gave me this child.
Thanks to leaving a child full of warmth in that collapsing house… I was saved.
My son and companion, who became my reason to live when I was surrounded by terrible evil intentions,
Because you gave me the opportunity to embrace it myself.”
I don’t remember the time I lived without my parents.
Since when did I not see my mom and dad?
No, I don’t even know if I ever had a mom and a dad in the first place…
All my memories are filled with the red dragon, so they no longer matter anymore.
On the way outside, there is a dragon’s tail.
There is a dragon’s head inside the cave.
And my body is in the arms of a dragon.
“Why are you looking at me like that?
You abandoned the child first.
Has Russell never thought about leaving you?
Did you really think that if you gave birth, you would be able to call yourself a parent just by giving birth?”
“We – “
“No matter how much you say you loved,
No matter how much you try to say that you left for that child,
Isn’t what’s important is whether you showed that love directly?”
There were countless things that came to mind as soon as I heard those words.
For six years, you fed me, bathed me, and protected me from the cold.
When you leave, he immediately appears next to you, saying he will protect your side.
…Although jealousy showed itself in the form of baring its teeth at others.
Mom never left my side,
You have constantly whispered that you always love me.
So different from the two before my eyes.
What filled the empty space in my heart was the red dragon.
Filling the empty space of parents,
Taking the place of a companion,
Everyone was a mother who never tried to take her eyes off me.
“Giving birth is not the end.
That’s what being a parent is like.
Develop your love for your child by reading numerous books and stories,
Watching you grow excellently by following the teachings,
The beauty of when it finally blooms… Its fruit,
Having that moment that is said to be thanks to the person who raised you,
I can truly say that I am happy as a parent.
I tasted it –
You couldn’t do that. No, I didn’t even think about that.
Because I planned to throw it away from the beginning.”
A tree of bright warmth spread out in the village.
That night when she remembered her mother’s kindness and captured countless people’s eyes.
Although my mother was not there, she came to me shortly after and asked.
Crying.
A small fire flower given in return.
The freedom of the body taken away in return.
Because he loved me, he wanted me.
I have come to truly understand the reason behind that statement.
“…It’s not like that – “
“Oh, please. You haven’t even looked for the child since you left him.
How could you, who were not even there at the moment when the child’s grandmother was alone and lonely facing her death, find the courage to say such a thing?
If I felt guilty, I should have gone out to find my child right away.
If you had missed it, you would have at least known about the existence of that tomb.
You people who don’t know anything,
Strangers who only know my son’s name,
How can you use the name ‘family’ just because you are related by blood?”
I avoided it.
The way you love me is so terrible.
I thought this was for everyone.
The methods used to obtain me are all stained with blood.
But in my mother’s words,
In my mother’s heart, scolding those who came to take me,
The warmth I had longed for was abundantly flowing out.
“And you made fun of that proud tongue, didn’t you?
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How can I lay hands on my son?
I should ask the opposite question.
If you were me, would you not touch this child?”
A dark desire overflowed.
The faintly floating warmth soon subsided into boiling affection,
There was no longer any trace.
But,
Have I already failed?
Or as my mother said –
Is this world so messed up that it makes it look beautiful?
“He called me, even though I wasn’t related by blood, “Mom” And chirped like a chick.
With that small body, he follows you around every step of the way, smiling brightly,
He was a lovely student whose eyes always sparkled when I taught him and who always wanted more.
Shedding tears at the story of how I was hated by everyone,
He was a warrior who said he would let the world know my innocence,
To me, who is purring madly from loneliness,
I became a male who gave up his embrace while trying hard to suppress my dislike.
How can I bear it? Huh? “Can you bear it?”
The man who gave me life was already trembling, not even able to raise his head properly.
The woman who gave birth to me was looking at her mother with eyes that she couldn’t understand.
“Mi, you’re crazy. You – “
“I went crazy a long time ago. I believed that there would be no one in this world who could save me from loneliness, despair, and emptiness.
The day I went crazy after hearing that my father had left me to die,
And as if I couldn’t bear to kill him with my own hands, on that day when he spewed fire at humans with scales the same color as mine,
I lost my family love.
Humans, who are neighbors and living together, change in an instant,
At that moment when you look at me as someone who needs to be saved,
I lost trust.
Those who taught me refused to help me,
On the contrary, some people turn into hunters to get the body I have,
I was eaten by loneliness.
Because it was Russell who filled the empty position.
I lost everything in an instant,
Because I was the one who became everything in an instant.
But how can you bear it, huh? If it were you, while carrying all that pain,
Would it have been possible to marry Russell, a son, a student, and a man, without falling in love with him?
That child is my everything, my everything…!
To the point where there is no need for this world,
I no longer need outside knowledge, exchanges, or pleasure.
If only I could see that child smiling… If I could live only seeing him happy by my side,
I love you so much that I can do anything I can.”
To my mother, who suddenly looked at me and opened her arms to me.
With an incomprehensible look in your eyes,
With an expression of not being able to accept it,
The woman, who looked like she was going to vomit at any moment, was muttering something.
But she couldn’t hear.
“Russell, do you… Love me like that?”
As a mother nine years ago.
Three years ago, as a woman.
And still like that,
Mom has been asking the same question.
Nine years ago, she said yes.
Three years ago, I drew a line.
Now the line was crushed by her mother’s feet.
As if he doesn’t want to admit it,
No,
Saying she couldn’t accept it, her mother erased the gold.
Erase with pink flowers and medicine,
He coveted my body.
I thought I knew love.
But now, looking at her mother.
Compared to the thoughts spoken by the being whom everyone watches with bated breath,
It was nothing.
What I knew was as small as a grain of sand.
“I, I…”
What will happen if I accept this?
If you surrender yourself to the red dragon’s love, you may not know how deep it is.
How far will I sink?
“Don’t answer!”
A woman named Duvel said.
The one who gave birth to me was evil.
“As expected, the name Evil Dragon suits you.
After stealing someone else’s son from her, she attacked him.
On a subject that has lived in infamy for hundreds of years,
How can you say something like that to a child who doesn’t know anything…!”
“You don’t know anything either.
You don’t know what I went through.
Even though you are an unscrupulous person who abandoned your family with your own hands,
Because I am the one who was abandoned.
What’s wrong with falling for a boy who approached me willingly?”
The two who did not understand each other faced each other again.
The one who gave birth to me,
The person who raised me glared at each other.
“Then at least she shouldn’t call herself a mother.
How can a mother violate her son?”
“How funny that a woman who has never been a mother says that.”
“To the extent that I, who have never experienced it, can say that,
You are absolutely disgusting – “
“Have you ever listened to what Russell wants?”
The red dragon who took away the life I wanted said so.
I wanted to ask you if there was something strange about saying something like that, but –
“The reason I say I am this child’s mother is,
And the only reason I’m proud of it is because I wanted it.
Poor Russell missed her parents’ love so much.
Every time she approached the woman, she struggled to keep her own heart in check, and she could not bear to ignore those painful eyes as her ‘mother’.
That’s why she remains the child’s mother.”
…In the sense that they at least made a promise,
In that you listened to my wishes and gave me love generously,
I couldn’t help but watch the balance tilt.
A plate with nothing on it,
The weight of the dishes that were filled and poured over and over again was different.
“Dirty b*tch.”
“Don’t think I’ll be hurt by the mutterings of a loser.
It is impossible to harm me with any blade or words.
Because only one child has now become everything to me.”
Guided by the outstretched hand,
I was held in a warm embrace for and because of me.
“…I love you. Forever.”
At that, I opened my mouth.
The red dragon laughed,
Those who gave birth bowed their heads.
