56 – Heavy Warning (3)
“…Russell.”
I was about to fall asleep as my body gradually warmed up.
The moment I was about to close my eyes while listening to the sound of rain that did not stop even though the sky was dyed black –
Mom’s voice was cracked, but it clearly rang in my ears.
“Are you okay?”
“Thanks to you, I feel a little better.”
There was no longer any coldness mixed in with the exhaled breath.
The eyes that looked at me had become clear, without a single broken vein.
“…No need to worry – “
“It’s not a needless worry.”
My neck was shaking.
And then, I burst into tears.
“I almost died, Mom.
If you don’t do that, there’s no way your body can get that cold.”
Mom didn’t answer those words.
Instead, he just patted my head without saying a word.
I raised the corners of my mouth and just…
He just looked at me like that.
“I don’t know. Still.
She knows what her mom wants to do… But really, she doesn’t know if it’s okay for her to do it.
Isn’t that strange? Therefore – “
“Russell.”
The lips touched the forehead and fell.
It was once bright blue and suddenly it resembled the color of the roses growing on the wall.
“I would have been really happy if I could have had you,
Still, I can’t say you’re my child.
Don’t you and I know that?
Rather… To the point where I want to have you right away,
I am not your son – “
“I know, that is.
I have no choice but to know.”
And because of that, she tried to avoid her mother.
But my mother went crazy just because I wasn’t around,
When he accidentally hurt me, he was on the verge of death.
Of course, her heartache would have been the same even if her mother had been ‘Mom’.
“If it’s still hard for you to look at me like that, it’s okay.
My mom got so upset that she had to apologize for doing this or that.
If I were to make my own excuse… I did it because I was in so much pain.”
“It hurts, huh?”
– Soybean, soybean.
Her mother was saying that, patting her chest.
With a faint smile, her mother was blushing.
“I didn’t know the feeling of jealousy.
And, I never imagined that I would lose you.
When that happens, I become anxious.
It’s just… It hurts so much when I think about you leaving me.”
Now, his face is so red that he can’t even be called kind anymore.
It was time to admit it.
Mom, she stopped being a mom.
“I was thinking about the wish you made.
Constantly.
You told me that when you were young, you wanted a family.
Mom and Dad abandoned you and disappeared, and the grandmother who took care of you… Passed away on that winter day.
That’s why I tried hard to take on the role of mother in order to live up to your expectations.
I found out that it was much more difficult than I thought.
Well.
Was watching you become an adult…?
Ah, is it okay if I touch you?”
I bit back her hand that slipped away from touching me,
Close your spread fingers,
Mom smiled, trying to straighten her face for a moment.
The eyes filled with anxiety did not leave me.
The tail has already wrapped itself around me for a long time.
She nodded without saying a word.
I had already given up my body to warm her mother.
Even if my mom touched me more now, she wouldn’t change anything.
Probably from the time I waved my hand at Mr. Luterrier,
From the time I shed tears and spewed out resentment in anger,
Was I destined to be like this?
“You were always warm to me.
You asked me for warmth,
You treated me warmly, more than I gave you.
The wizards raised me and showed awe and greed,
Those knights said they hated me and wanted to take away what I had.
But you,
You looked at me with those clear eyes.
Because it wasn’t enough to accept me just as I am,
When you’re happy, you laugh together, and when you’re sad, you shed tears and hug me.
Even though we only lived together for seven years, you are the one who gave me much more meaning than my long life.”
Caressing my chest carefully,
I brush away the hair that seems to sting my eyesㅡ
Mom put her lips to my cheek again.
Where it fell with a sound, something… Wet remained.
“So, I think it’s time to talk…
I’ve been with you for… No, five years?
What if you were my real child to that extent?
I’ve thought about that countless times.
If you were my son, you would definitely be cute.
But, I can no longer think like that.
As you grow, you become the only person who understands me,
When I realized that you were the only one who looked at me warmly,
…I realized that it was too late.”
The tail that was blocking my way out of bed pushed my back.
His half-closed eyes, which had been looking somewhere else as if embarrassed, suddenly looked straight at me.
“The dragons abandoned me.
Telling me that it was my fault for doing things I didn’t want to do.
Not my parents, not humans, or any other being in this world loves me.
But as far as you, you… You… You…”
Wizards who attacked their mother’s scales.
The knights who thrust their swords at her mother.
As soon as they found out that their mother was a dragon, everyone showed different sides of themselves.
It was clear that there was no one who was not afraid.
I was the only one by her mother’s side,
Only I saw her mother… As her mother.
I was able to smile while looking at her mother,
I could get angry at my mom,
I was able to hate my mom, even if it was only for a moment.
“I have no intention of breaking my promise to you.
I love you, I cherish you, and I will look upon you forever… My heart is still full of wanting to become family, no,
Because it is overflowing.
But… Not your mother,
I want to be your companion…
That’s what I want to say.”
– Bang, bang.
The tail was tapping the bed.
Somehow, my mother’s hand was gently grabbing my arm and pressing it gently.
“Because I want to hear the answer.
I can wait forever, but at least here, I want your answer.
Now… I don’t want to be sick anymore.
I don’t want to wait for you and see someone else take you away.
You are the only one who can look at me.
Even though I don’t want to, you are the only one who can see me as I am, with countless resentments and anger.
Because I don’t want you to be overshadowed by another woman.
So, Russell, as your family.
Now as your only family…
So, I want to ask.”
The rain still did not stop.
They would keep banging on the window and making noise.
But I,
“…That crab.”
I couldn’t hear them.
Even though you can hear the sound of a strong wind drenching the window even more,
The sound I heard in my ears was something else.
My heart was beating violently and violently.
To the point where it’s painful.
“You don’t have to be too nervous.
Not much will change.
It’s just… I can be your everything.
Because you have already become my everything,
All you have to do is acknowledge that I am everything to you.”
Hugging me,
Bring me into your chest,
My mother let me hear her heart beating as much as mine.
“I’m not saying that I hate you, or that I’m going to treat you any weirder from now on.
But I’m just saying that I want to do a little more together.
The tail that scared you,
The clothes you wore that night that made you afraid,
Very slowly and gently until you can accept it.
I’m asking you to give me the opportunity to tell you that.”
Pushing my back further with his tail,
Focusing on me with eyes shining softly,
Mom asked me again.
“…Will you love me? From now on and in the future?”
***
The dragon left the room.
After kissing the sleeping child’s cheek, with a smile on his face.
The smile on her face had no intention of disappearing after she got what she wanted.
Even though someone who was like an enemy appeared before my eyes.
“…Russell…”
“It’s none of your business.
From now on, it is truly mine.”
Are you really proud of being able to say that?
The red-haired dragon puffed out his chest even more and looked down at the teeth in front of his eyes.
Raising his chin and lowering his eyes, he pounced on what could once have been his rival.
With that heavy gaze.
With those yellow eyes that swallowed a child.
“I just want to know if he’s okay.
Because it’s my fault…”
“Now, if you whine as if you have figured out my fraction,
The fact that it hurt that child has not disappeared.
Why, if you even do that. “Do you think I’ll save you?”
The brave boy who stood in the way of his claws.
Although he was prepared to die in front of his claws, he was so scared that he sat down.
The difference was stark.
The two present knew that fact.
“If you really cared for that child, you should have stayed there and protected that child.
If you really wanted to say you loved Russell, you should have covered Russell’s wounds right then and there.
But you ran away.
Like a dog that lost a fight, it was busy whining and trying to get rid of me.
Do you think you have the qualifications?”
Lutherrier could not say anything.
She could not stand up to the dragon who openly laughed at her.
I just bow my head and quietly bow my head without saying a word.
“… Russell is fine. Her wounds are all healed.
On the contrary, it was because he nursed me so passionately.
The sight of that delicate body trying to warm up its cold body was truly…
I’m happy just to be able to receive that kind of love.
Now I have everything I want.”
With eyes exhausted from fear, the blonde adventurer slowly looked at the person in front of him.
Unlike himself, his yellow eyes, engulfed in extreme pleasure, were shining brighter than ever.
“Human greed has now been completely learned,
Thanks to you, I think I’ve come to realize my selfish side… I guess I should say thank you.
Thanks to that, that child has now completely given up.
This little deviation called adventure is over.
Now… Is it just a matter of waiting with me for the right time?”
For a week, the dragon, which had been withering away, seemed full of energy.
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She didn’t dare guess what she did in that room, but
Ruterrier was just listening to the show in silence.
“It’s okay, then.”
That one word.
Putting it down, she tried to back away.
Until I was grabbed by the collar and lifted up.
“Don’t think that’s the end.
You should be thankful that they don’t take her life.
Because I don’t want to disappoint the child who will now become my husband.”
Cudangtang.
Pressing down the woman who rolled on the floor with a loud sound with her foot,
Showing her own smile in her frightened eyes,
The dragon smiled and purred.
“But if we ever meet again,
If that child happens to encounter you again,
At that time, I will pluck out that beautiful tail myself.
Don’t you dare even think about taunting me?”
Her feet retreated.
The red woman waved her hand.
And with that, Luterrier slowly raised her body –
It just disappeared beyond her hallway.
Only tears remained where they passed.
