51 – Distinct marks left on the body (1)
“Since I haven’t seen it, I feel a lot… Cold.”
Mr. Luterrier was pushed far away.
With his head down, his body was shaking slightly – but he did not run away.
Wouldn’t it be much better to go somewhere while I’m still holding on?
I had that thought.
“Russell.”
Mom kept calling my name and attracting my attention.
Every time we made eye contact, he smiled faintly, but I couldn’t laugh along with him anymore.
The people around us are ruined every time we are together.
An adventure that falls apart the longer you stay together.
It was a dream that was fading away, and I wanted to chase it, but
“Is it that they don’t even look at this side anymore?”
Mom became a shackle.
To prevent them from flying, to prevent them from running,
At least you can’t even walk towards it…
“…I can’t even smell myself anymore.”
He kept pulling me like that.
A deep shadow fell on his face as he looked down.
Even her eyes, which were supposed to shine, have lost their color.
Her hand kept trying to reach towards me, but I grabbed it and dragged it.
It was my mother who tried to wrap her tail around me and barely caught her and pulled her into her arms,
It seemed like nothing would change.
I already knew her mother,
With her mother, she was able to picture in her mind what would happen in the future very concretely.
Even if I repeat my life like in the past, I have come to know what is out there.
Things I can do.
Things I can find.
All together, a future that cannot even be seen in the mother’s cave and in her arms.
“…”
It was a mother who held her breast and let a small tear drop fall to the ground,
The legs that were gently walking down the street were shaking,
Nevertheless, I walked silently looking ahead.
“Ugh, ugh.”
My mother growled at others, but whenever she was around me, she laughed and cried.
He was a monster with no mercy to others,
In front of me, she was just a woman in love.
I wasn’t naive enough to not know,
I wasn’t foolish enough to comfort my crying mother.
I saw what my mother did after receiving my comfort.
Once.
Just once, to make her mom feel better, I nodded at her.
Of course, we cannot conclude that we have come this far because of that, but
After that happened, I was standing here now.
“Senior, please.
There are many eyes – “
“Shut up.”
Despite shedding tears,
Even though you called my name with a trembling mouth,
When speaking to others, I rang my throat very clearly and accurately.
It kept making her mother scared.
“…Russell.”
A voice calling me again.
It’s so soft and cozy.
When I sleep, it wraps my ears warmly,
The kindness that took away the cold winter and sad memories.
I guess I’ve come too far to remember that now.
“Are you really going to continue to ignore me like that?
I, I… I am your…”
I closed my ears.
And I walked with my eyes on the door in front of me.
A throbbing pain continued to torment her chest, as if she was trying to pry into the gap with a needle…
Still, I didn’t react to my mom.
If I quit here.
If I don’t maintain my attitude just because I’m suffering right now,
Mom is definitely more than this.
Things worse than anything that has happened so far…
“Mr. Russell.”
My name was called again.
“Russell, sir?”
Ignore it –
“Ouch?!”
I was able to finally see what was in front of my eyes as I held my numb nose and wiped away the tears that were welling up.
The door I had seen from afar was now in front of my eyes, and the one who called my name was the wizard leading us from the front door.
“Are you okay?”
“N-Yes. That’s…”
At one end of the line of sight, and eventually at the center, was my mother biting her lower lip.
My cheeks were covered with tears, and my eyelids were shaking.
“The principal is waiting inside. Please.”
Is it really right to leave it like this?
Should I leave behind my mother, who is in pain, eaten by her emotions, with her shoulders shrugged?
Is it really right to do the work in that forest again?
If I’m hurting so many people, maybe I’m a bad person.
“Mom.”
I couldn’t bear it.
I was too weak to bear the weight of sadness flowing from that sight.
“Later, later… We can talk about it together.”
The yellow eyes captured me so quickly.
And then he smiled vaguely.
“…Go, come back.”
I finally got it.
My will to pursue my dream wavered again.
Is it force majeure?
***
Dalkak.
The door was closed.
Leaving two of the three guests in their seats.
“Would you like me to bring you something to quench your thirst while you wait?”
“…Am I not paying attention?
Or should I say brave?
I hope the latter is correct, right?”
As if to prove that the words addressed to the boy were coated with candy,
A dagger fell on the wizard who led us here.
“Huh, huh?!”
“I didn’t like it from before.
You made Russell come all the way here, and now it includes me.
You must have the guts to dare to offend me.”
The dragon did not lift a finger.
I didn’t blink an eye.
However, the thin man was steadily crumpling.
Crawling on the ground, he carefully soiled the floor with what he ate during the night.
“If you know your topic, get out of there.
Because that’s the greatest kindness I can give you.”
As soon as the pain stopped awkwardly, he immediately ran out, cringing his body.
Even though the absurdity grabbed his leg and twisted it, this time breaking his nose and covering the floor with the blood that flowed –
“Ugh, ugh, ugh!!”
The man tried to escape the dragon’s sight.
His escape attempt was finally successful when two of his fingers were broken.
“…Now, the surrounding area will finally become a little quieter.
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Right?”
Ruterrier was trembling in his seat.
Like a puppy facing a wild beast.
Although he was ignorant, he knew that his life was in danger, so he curled his tail –
I collapsed into my seat without even being able to make a whining sound.
“Who wants to sit down?”
– Clutter.
The collars that were caught were wrinkled, and the fabrics that were being pressed moaned.
The nimble, yet sturdy body that had been running around outside for a long time was very easily lifted.
“Straight,
With both feet.
Or should I make you crawl on all fours like it is mixed with your blood?”
The harsh words tied a string to her,
Her hand, which had come close to her neck, had such force that it seemed as if it could suffocate her at any moment.
And,
“Lift your chin.”
One of the dragon’s fingers stretched out.
The fact that even though it is only one, it can break the ground at any time and pull out its claws to cut stones.
Lutherrier did not know.
“More.”
Forcibly, she put strength on the tips of her feet to keep up with the unbridgeable height difference.
By force, she overcame her fear and gathered her strength.
I forced myself to look into her yellow eyes.
And then she sat down –
“Stand straight.”
Before she could pray, something hit her leg and she fell hard.
Her tail was wriggling through the air.
The blade was raised like that, as if it would stab at any moment.
“Again.”
No wounds occurred.
However, her heart, and her mind, was very carefully engraved with fear that would be difficult to hide.
A being with overwhelming force and using ferocious magic.
In front of him, she was nothing.
That fact began to settle into her brain very steadily.
“That’s right. That posture.
Is it because it’s a dog?
Should I do it this way to at least pretend to understand what is being said?”
She trembled, not daring to meet her eyes.
Her tail had been feeling numb for some time now.
She was just desperately holding on to one of her legs, desperately praying for this moment to pass.
“…Really, do you know what makes me angry?”
However, there was no way this moment would pass comfortably.
Something had been done, and that is why the dragon chased the dog.
“Even though you must have done something to my child,
I can’t find even a single trace.
But, not even one.
If you are sensitive to smells, you will know what that means.”
Holding her head, she couldn’t nod.
Even though I wanted to open my mouth, the finger pressing down on one point wouldn’t allow it.
Luther’s eyes were lost, but she could not see the yellow light.
“I have been attached to that child for a very long time.
I cared for that little child so much that it wouldn’t be surprising if I gave birth to him.
For the first time since I was born,
I was able to become truly attached to something.
But,
Four years ago, she didn’t even dare to touch Russell.
I don’t know what you did, but those memories,
That moment,
Those times,
Those fond memories,
My love,
My sincerity,
My everything,
You,
To your b*tch,
To you, b*tch,
It was stolen.”
Overwhelmed by the resentment that could have been poured out on the person who killed her family, she squeezed out tears.
Standing at the threshold of death, she was shaking.
She didn’t know if it was because her legs were shaking due to lack of strength, but
“What does that mean?
What does that mean?
Think carefully with that stupid, dull head.”
They weren’t important.
