24 – A mind that cannot be controlled
Turdle, tear.
Like that, Rose walked down the street.
A bandage is tied on one side of the face,
Wearing clothes that cover her breasts.
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With her back to the colorful red light district, she walked.
Even though the night of entertainment is not over yet.
Understanding little by little the meaning of selling the future,
She crossed the smooth stone floor and walked along the rough path.
Because of the blood that had not stopped, a lukewarm feeling kept coming from the corners of her eyes.
“From now on, don’t ever show that child in front of me again.
That is your future that I bought.
I hope you give me the value of the bag I handed over to you.”
She believed it was a day of ordinary revenge,
Carrying something extra on his back.
I thought it was just a secret for one night, but
For the rest of her life, she couldn’t move her tongue and swallowed the truth that she had been forced to swallow past her throat.
Beetle, Beetle,
So she walked.
While trying not to be conscious of the presence behind her.
Trying hard not to think of her yellow eyes filled with pure disgust and resentment.
Rose remembered the moment she first came into the village.
The small town I visited because I needed a place to rely on has suddenly become a place crowded with people.
It became a place where she made small memories with her younger brother.
It became the place where she sold her own virginity.
Thinking of it that way, I felt a little sad and hesitant about leaving.
The jewel in her arms, hanging like a shackle on her, whispered to her.
It was mercy that she dug out only the point with her sharp nails.
It was a gracious act that she was able to save her life even though she knew the appearance of the evil dragon.
The pain flowing from her bruised neck,
And the wounds under her eyes, which were still stinging, she emphasized again and again.
“…That’s enough.”
Above all, the more she thought about it, the more this was in some ways a much better ending for her.
There is no longer any reason to sell her body,
There was no need to leave her younger brother home alone.
Every day she didn’t have to hide what she was doing,
We can now look forward to a slightly better tomorrow.
Leaving the village and heading to the city.
It would have been nice if she could buy a house in the city and support her younger brother so that he could study hard there.
I didn’t have to worry about someone recognizing me as I walked down the street every day.
Walking down the street at night, I no longer had to allow myself to be with someone I didn’t love again.
I escaped from the dark alley that I believed would become my daily life,
She was slowly realizing it.
“Let’s forget it.”
It was definitely a beautiful magic, but
The treasures in my arms were the price I paid for forgetting them.
He was definitely a cool boy and a wizard, but
The gold and silver treasures in his arms were the price of never seeing him again.
She wasn’t naive enough to not understand that…
At the same time, I was not passionate.
How many things have you given up to continue your life?
The thing that could bring them back was none other than the gold and silver treasures in his arms.
So Rose walks into the darkness,
She faithfully followed her command to forget.
Believing that it suits her.
Not only did she survive, but she also had money, so she thought that was it.
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“I guess you understand.”
When a courtesan ceases to be a courtesan.
When you become a person who can control your own body with your own will.
The red dragon was taking action by placing two more pouches.
“Yes, of course. Chestnut hair, gray eyes.
A child named Russell will not let her set foot in the red light district.”
“The same goes for other regions.
Not only in this village, but also in other villages, cities, or capital cities.
I wish they would make it clear to the prostitutes as well.”
“Sure. I will do that.”
Could it be that he revealed his appearance as a dragon too hastily?
Thinking about that, she closed her eyes for a moment and took a deep breath.
“…Is there anything else you would like to ask?”
However, there seemed to be no worries about that.
To dream of a rosy future while looking at the beautiful flames spreading out,
The girl’s eyes were dead.
I cling to only one purity, my family,
Giving up would have been easy for a woman who had abandoned everything else.
Once I was confident, I was able to stand up.
Once my worries disappeared, everything felt clear once again.
Sprayed to hide the body odor of numerous males on oneself,
The smell of perfume is strong enough to be effective.
Everyone with their collars undone,
Females who walk indecently to seduce those with low-level desires.
Rosaria expressed her anger again and again,
I had no choice but to push myself.
This was said half of the time as a joke.
The hand she raised to tease the boy who blushed as he looked at her bare shoulder.
I think that maybe it shouldn’t have ended as a joke,
“If something like tonight happens again – “
“I will take good measures so that this money is not a waste.
Of course we should do that.”
The red dragon left quietly.
Leaving a building that is neither too big nor too small,
Inside Chang Gwan’s room, she pondered over the emotions she had poured out on a small and insignificant life.
I looked up at the black night sky.
“I never thought the day would come when I would envy the little creatures on the streets.”
A miracle-like magic created by a beloved child following her own heart for the first time.
It is not intended to harm or destroy anyone…
To comfort the heart and express gratitude.
That it was directed at a prostitute and not at me,
She just continued to swallow the bitterness in her mouth.
“…Why did you do that, Russell?”
I wanted to immediately kick down the door, lay down on the bed, and ask.
She let go of herself, the person she loved so much, and why did she give only others a chance to appreciate her wonderful appearance?
Isn’t this a special family?
Wasn’t it love?
Hold and shake like that,
I wanted to play with that delicate heart until it cried and clung to me.
He didn’t look at me that way, the person who raised him and loved him since he was young.
I asked him why he easily gave his heart to a strange woman he met in the middle of the red light district.
Who is more beautiful?
Until you get the answer you want,
Ask again and again and again,
When I think of myself, I often think about what kind of magic I can use,
Once again,
Day, night, dozens of times, hundreds of times, thousands of times,
I wanted to ask that.
The place my heart led me to was an inn.
Now it is time to go to bed for some people, and in that quiet place where all the lights are turned off, Russell is sure to be there.
Right before my eyes, there was what I wanted.
I wanted to immediately snatch the child who broke the window and couldn’t understand the situation due to his sleepy face.
Enjoy that sweet warmth with your whole body,
I wanted to feel those gentle hands caressing my wings and tail, which everyone was afraid of.
But it couldn’t be done.
There was no way even one of the things I imagined would be allowed.
Even though the child who said that saving ‘mother’ was her own dream was special,
I couldn’t do that, even after seeing the child who gave me a favor that I thought I would never receive in my life.
But there is just one thing.
If you want just one thing,
“If I wanted something in return from you, Russell,
What will you do for me…?”
It was shameful and hurt my pride, but
I believed that the emotions and memories shared over countless hours were definitely much more valuable than a small favor for one night.
Day and night, from when I wake up until I go to bed,
It was even more so because there was never a moment when we were not together.
“Would you give me something even more beautiful than that beautiful tree?
Or could you give me something even more valuable than that?”
These words are already asleep and cannot reach me,
In front of the dark building, she kept muttering.
As if I was lost, staring at one spot endlessly.
“I am… I am your mother.
But why do you do that to a courtesan, to a mere prostitute…”
Then she shed tears, pounded her chest and quietly vented her anger.
She believed she had had enough of her anger.
She couldn’t possibly be angry with her beloved Russell, so she let out her emotions.
She still didn’t know herself.
Her parents abandoned Rosaria, hated her, and
Her humans served her, feared her, and looked upon her with greedy eyes.
That’s why she became an evil dragon,
In front of her child named Russell, he became her family,
I became a mother.
However, she couldn’t control her own emotions.
The feelings that a mother should have,
What the evil dragon Kalamar should look like,
What I feel as Rosaria is so different.
“…”
In the end, without being able to come up with even a simple answer to the numerous questions,
She spread her wings and disappeared into the night sky.
Even if I swallow all the cold air,
No matter how many times she wiped away her tears with her own scaly hands, her crying showed no sign of stopping.
Despite being a fire-controlling dragon, she only felt the cold.
Everything was confusing and scary.
“Russell, my baby… Why…”
Is it okay to call him my son, or is it okay to look at him as something else?
Do you really want your son to do the things you expect?
Or do you want it to be done as something else?
As she asked countless questions again, she wandered through the black space.
She was convinced that she had lived for a long time and had become accustomed to sad events.
She thought her feelings would never be broken after her biggest betrayal.
One child made the red dragon cry so easily.
