13 – Motherly love? (3)
“Keu-ha.”
The sound of stretching one’s arms toward the sky.
The ‘order form’ with the last sentence trimmed was covered well and tied with string to seal it.
As of now, we can only deal with things related to flames, but whatever.
I was already satisfied with my book containing ten spells, and I was able to smile.
Do this stably, quickly,
Whether I could write like a mother was a slightly different issue.
To me, who couldn’t say a word or use magic yet, my mother was like a towering mountain.
The red figure, at a level that I may never be able to reach in my lifetime, was so beautiful.
To the point where I can’t even imagine that I would be able to stand next to him.
“Slowly well – “
“Are you still not sleeping?”
Just when I was about to put the book back in its place.
Before I knew it, the door was closed and it was her mother who appeared, her tail wagging.
“I was just about to lie down…”
“Hmm, I don’t think it would have closed if I hadn’t come?”
“No, really!”
“No, I see your hand still close to the book?”
At those words, she inadvertently turned her head, but then hastily removed her hand from the cover.
…It was really disgusting to see him happily looking at his burning face.
“Anyway, Russell. I want to ask you something.”
But that was only for a moment.
In an instant, my mother looked directly at me with a serious expression on her face.
The question she asked me while bending her knees and looking me in the eyes.
“Why are you studying magic so hard?”
Luckily, that question wasn’t that difficult, so I was able to answer it right away –
“I hope you don’t think of it too strangely or complicatedly.
I’m just curious from the perspective of teaching you.
As I see you learning so quickly and so much… I’m asking because I wonder if there’s a special reason.”
As she watched the heavy hearted words follow, she had no choice but to close her mouth.
The sight of calmly sunken eyes and closed mouth without a single smile was something new.
“I…”
After hesitating for a moment, I let go of the thoughts as they were.
Someday I had to say it,
Because it was also about what I want to do in the future.
“I want to spread my mother’s story.”
“…What?”
“Mom told me. She’s called an evil dragon because of something she didn’t do.
Of course, I burned people to escape, but still…
If you save people with magic and become somewhat famous, then,
So…”
The more I speak, the more
The more I unfold my dream to her mother in a confident voice,
The face only became more and more wrinkled.
No, rather, I should say that it has expanded.
I had no choice but to keep my mouth shut as he looked pale and shocked.
“Russell, you – “
“Mom?”
“No, if you’re going to learn magic for that reason, stop right now.
Magic book.
Give me here.”
Those burning yellow eyes looked so fierce,
My mother, who was pushing me and reaching out to me, was scared.
Very much.
“Mom, wait a minute, why are you doing this?”
“Don’t you know humans?
No, I don’t know. It’s okay if you don’t know.
Not being able to receive proper love in such a cold place,
After that, you lived in my arms.”
“But I’m human?
Am I different from the people outside?”
At those words, Mom paused for a moment and then said,
“Of course it’s different…!”
He hit me with an even more excited voice.
A tail hitting the floor.
That look with all the sharp edges was never good.
“How can you think that you are like the violent people outside?
You don’t really think that the stories in the children’s books I’ve read so far are real, do you?
Because you were the one who cried and held me in my arms,
I deliberately hid a bad story, and you…”
“But Mom,”
“Okay, let’s say it’s good to help people.
How will you help people with fire?
Devouring the forest, melting iron,
With the power to leave nothing but bare bones in an instant.
I will see you as my most loving child,
What do people out there think when they see you?
Huh?
What would you think…!”
It was difficult for me to even open my eyes in the storm of words.
My body was shaking,
The cold that weighed down on me made my bones ache.
But since I still had the strength to speak, I tried to answer.
“A monster that spits death out of its mouth.
The evil dragon Kalamar swallowed up the city.
That is my name.
They are calling my name!!”
To my mother who was angry and yelling at me, I…
I couldn’t give any answer.
“I am,
I will always be a kind family member to you,
I will live as a mother who embraces you,
To them, I am nothing but a monster.
A crippled enemy of Daecheon who must be hunted down someday and put his head on the line.
Whatever the truth, do you think they will change?
Do you really think I would have run away without even trying?”
My mother shed tears while holding both of my cheeks.
He moved his yellow gaze back and forth to look directly at my shaking eyes.
“Okay, then shall I let you hear it?
The story that followed that I was too sorry to tell you when you were young.
I couldn’t bear to tell you, who was crying and feeling sorry for me.”
Unable to complain of the pain rising from my shoulder, which was tightly held and pressed,
Hearing the sound of the red tail continuously hitting the ground, not hugging me,
I saw that her mother’s face was not straightened.
…I could guess that the story I was about to tell would never end happily.
That too, so clearly.
***
Yes, on the day I started the fire,
The day I turned away from the people who were throwing spears at me and ran away.
After hiding in a cave and crying for a while, a thought occurred to me.
What a terrible thing I have done.
So the day I came to my senses, I immediately spread my wings and tried to approach them.
But I had no choice but to face it.
Numerous white bones that died after being hit by fire.
There were even some that were blackened and crumbled,
The fire that was not extinguished continued to spew smoke high into the sky.
I met them there.
The knights who pulled people out of the rubble.
I lifted the wreckage and tried to save those still left.
He transformed into the form of a huge dragon and carefully opened the gap in the collapsed roof.
At that moment, there was greed in their eyes,
The noble goal of saving people has disappeared everywhere.
Why is that, no?
The dragon is feared, but the reason it is feared more than anything is the retaliation that can come with its power.
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No matter how long they live, they disperse to pursue their dreams,
Valuing the relationship made through blood seems like a purpose.
But if you cut it off for any reason.
If you think it’s a nuisance and throw it away…
At that moment, the dragon is thrown into countless terrible greed.
You don’t try to kill a dragon just for that reason. No problem.
…The dragon itself is very precious.
A body surrounded by scales that cannot be pierced by even the sharpest knife.
A strong heart that can store a lot of mana, the energy that spreads throughout the world, and the power you use.
This horn can gather all the scattered mana at once.
It seems like humans have been studying them for quite a long time.
Hunting the violent dragons that were driven out,
They also took the corpses of abandoned baby dragons and used them.
It’s not just the knights.
Wizards who explore unknown powers,
There are also dirty wealthy people who think about how they can have precious things.
Guilds that depend on money…
Everyone. If they are all equally precious, they will be attracted to you like flies.
Did you really think I was being chased only for killing people?
If I clear up the misunderstanding, I will magically be able to live with humans again?
Russell, poor Russell.
Humans are much crueler and crueler than we thought.
Even dragons are not free from greed.
What about humans?
If the world were just as beautiful,
If we were abandoned, we would never have met again.
So keep that in mind.
Heed my words deeply and do not try to use the magic I taught you for such vain things.
You are not subject to human time,
You are special for growing up so wonderfully by my side.
You have an incredible talent for magic and do not hate studying, so you will definitely become a greater human being.
But I don’t want you to get involved in something terrible between me and humans.
So, you want to tell me?
I won’t use magic for myself.
I know very well how you feel.
I’m happy. You look unbearably lovely.
But as a parent, it is my responsibility to sacrifice you for my work.
And this is something that even a proud dragon should not do.
So, I have to wait and get an answer from you.
I am your first dream,
I hope that this cruel reality that I, and no one else, must overcome is not made too long.
The dream you dreamed for me, I…
Black,
Ugh.
Okay…
Huh…
I am sorry that I am your mother.
If someone a little better had taken you, you would definitely have lived a happier life.
No, don’t shake your head or comfort me.
This is my job, my… Life.
I hope you don’t try to lose for me.
…Really, I am truly grateful for growing up to be a kind child.
I am proud of you for raising me properly.
Come here. Didn’t I scare you too much?
It’s hardly an apology, but… I’ll give you a hug.
Come on. My tail is so stiff.
