448 Monologue
Selma Payne’s POV:
I stayed at the Spring Rain Pack for three days, which was a perfect time to patrol my territory. It was neither rushed nor delayed. I had to act as if nothing had happened to deal with the countless pairs of eyes in the dark. In fact, I could only sneak a glance at Aldrich in the dead of night.
He had lost a lot of weight. The poison had tortured his once-strong body, causing his muscles to shrink gradually and his face to turn progressively pale. There were many medical equipment that I recognized or didn’t recognize that surrounded his bed, converting electricity into power to maintain his life.
“At the moment, General Aldrich maintains a delicate balance with the poison. This is good news for him. At least he can save his life. However, it also left us with a huge problem in our research.” Tracy rushed over the day after Aldrich fell unconscious, using the excuse of giving a lecture to treat Aldrich secretly.
“Any inappropriate action can break this balance, be it modern medical means or sorcery, and we need to know which side the balance will eventually tilt to.”
Through the patient’s gown, I saw a black opal emitting a faint glow in front of Aldrich’s chest. Perhaps it was because it was once my creation, but I could feel the boundless life force contained within it slowly flowing away. This meant that the current treatment methods could have been more effective. Aldrich was still alive, relying on his vitality to offset the poison’s damage.
However, the concentrated energy in the black opal would be used up one day.
I told Tracy about this discovery, and her expression immediately turned serious. When she looked at me, she couldn’t help but have an apologetic expression.
“It’s not your fault,” I said dryly. “We’re both going through the worst moment… Everything is very difficult…”
Through the glass of the ICU ward, I looked at Aldrich’s emaciated face, and tears flowed unconsciously.
‘My dear, if you still pity me, please open your eyes and look at me. Look at my tears and sorrow, and then use your warm and broad arms to embrace me so that I can obtain a moment of peace in your love.’
I didn’t know what to do anymore. Everything was a mess, and everything was going in the worst direction. God and humans had messed up my life, and I was even starting to regret it.
‘Did you know? I had a dream yesterday. I dreamed that I didn’t jump off the cliff but ran home and hid in my room, crying secretly. No one knew what had happened to me. Everything was going on as usual, except for me.
𝐟r𝑒ℯ𝘄𝐞𝙗ｎov𝚎𝙡. 𝑐𝘰𝘮
‘I didn’t become the high and mighty Princess. I didn’t meet you. My life was trapped in that cold town, a speck of dust in the shadows that no one cared about.
‘After I woke up, my first reaction was to rejoice that I had chosen a completely different life. But the next second, I started to regret it. Thinking about all I’ve been through these past few years, I suddenly felt a deep sense of exhaustion.
‘It seemed that no matter if I were a town girl or a werewolf princess, this lingering fatigue would stick to me like gummies that were half-eaten by children.
‘The ordinary me couldn’t control my life, and I didn’t seem much better off than that little town girl.
‘I still couldn’t control the direction of my life, and I even felt confused about everything that happened to me many times. Is this okay? Is this something that should have happened? Is this something I should accept? I don’t know. I’ve flipped through all the history books, but I couldn’t find any chapter I could refer to. Everyone says to learn from history, but there’s only panic and confusion in front of me.
‘My dear, please open your eyes and look at me. I’m exhausted. I can’t adjust myself. I don’t know who to seek comfort from.
‘Except for you, Aldrich, when I think of you, I feel like I’m bathing in the spring breeze. Your name can quickly dispel all the haze in my heart. It should have been this way. But now you have closed your eyes, and my sun is blocked by the dark clouds. Not even a ray of sunlight can reach me. I’m withering. You’re disappearing.’
However, fate didn’t create a miracle because of my tears. Aldrich was still lying lifelessly on the hospital bed. Other than the dull hum of the medical equipment, no one responded to me.
“Selma, it’s time.” Jordin knocked on the door, indicating that my short visiting time was over.
I couldn’t disappear for too long. It would arouse suspicion.
At this moment, the restlessness in my heart reached its peak. I was tired of the power struggle. I was tired of the Evaria Family. I was tired of the cultists. I was tired of all the eyes watching in the dark.
I was tired of everything that lay before me. For a moment, I wanted to die immediately so I wouldn’t have to face this cold world again.
However, I could only think about it. The following day, I still had to put on a pleasant smile and wave to the people who sent me off with the Spring Rain Pack.
I left, leaving the little elves behind. These children didn’t have to leave with us in a hurry. Touring the city was also part of the study tour. The exchange students would carefully tour the new city of the Spring Rain Pack as the starting point of their learning and life in the werewolf pack.
